Hi Mikesnana: How wonderful you are surrounded by so much history, but it's also too bad you cannot bring yourself to revisit it. Have you thought of going for a visit to one of the local sites with someone you trust for support? Or, a guided tour with a group? May I be so bold as to suggest that fear is False Evidence Appearing Real, and the only way to face that fear is head on. Remember, you are in the here and now and simply taking a ride into the past.