Before I begin let me just start by saying I am so glad I have found this site. It was something I needed: a community where I can talk about being transgender and reincarnation. In fact I didn't really know what to call this thread because I have so many questions about this. I'm not sure if or not I even believe in reincarnation. I mean, I want to believe in reincarnation. No, scratch that. I want God/Source itself to tell me that there is reincarnation and that I will be female in the next life. Only because all the *people* don't seem to know for sure if or not reincarnation is a thing. I find myself wondering what my life, this life, would have been like if I were born a girl without having to transition to become one. I am also not sure if I believe in that prophecy that we choose our own gender before coming into an incarnation. As much as I want to believe that I will get to choose to be female in my next life I am convince that I don't have any say in that matter except for that I am in the middle of a male-to-female gender transition. My transition is the only closure I'll get aside from the certainty that I will get to be female in another lifetime. I feel like I'm dead. This isn't living at all to me; I'm merely existing. Seriously, something's gotta give! Anyway, I don't mean to make this forum a sounding board for my transgender issues. I came here for the three C's: clarity, closure, and conviction. I'd like for the members on this site to tell me what they know about cross-gender reincarnation. For such reasons, I don't feel like living a long life, I really don't and I keep telling myself I won't and I won't. In fact, I hope I am dead before I'm 50 and I don't even want to live that long. I really don't even want to live past 40. I'm 25 at the time I posted this in case anyone wants to know. Being female means everything to me; it is all that has ever mattered to me. I feel so numb, so empty. My identity as a female is all I live for. It is the lifeblood of why I am alive. My lost womanhood is like the air I breathe. Without my female persona, my life has no meaning. Is it remotely possible that I was female in a previous incarnation and that I can be one in the next?? Thanks.