Greetings Jun, I have read your story and I think I am able to understand a little about everything that you had to go through all this time. Since you found that video, since you saw that girl's face.
I don't know if you're really the person you claim to be in a previous life, but if it's true and you really were Junko Furuta, I just want to tell you that you're not alone going through this.
During these last 6 long years since I met about this case, I have had to see countless people who, like you, discover this story and never be the same again. A huge pain marks them the rest of their lives. Part of that joy and confidence they used to feel for the world goes away forever. It feels like carrying a heavy weight inside, one that never disappears no matter what one does.
In my case, from the first day I dedicated myself to investigate everything I could about this case, hoping to be able to see Karma's wheels one day start to turn and see the criminals receive the punishment they deserve. But the years have passed and sometimes it seems that this moment will never come. The only thing that clung to me was the idea of revenge, lamenting my position as a spectator without being able to help anything else.
However, we cannot give up! We are the ones who know her history the only ones who can keep her legacy alive. We are the only ones who can remember her! Throughout the 44 days in which she was kidnapped, she kept fighting during each one of them, waiting to be saved. She could have given up at any moment, but she wanted to fight until the end because she decided not to let herself be overcome by those demons. That courage is the legacy she left us, and it is for the same reason that we cannot be defeated by this suffering. I would like to tell you that there is some magic solution or some trick with which you could simply forget that pain you suffer and move on with your life. But unfortunately I can not. No one can get you out of that pain except yourself. These are your own 44 days of fighting, but this time you have the chance to win. This time, you can choose how to finish this story.
Life will be difficult sometimes, you will believe that people have too high expectations placed on you and the burden of carrying the memories of this victim may make you feel that you will sink into an abyss from which you will not be able to leave. But you don't have to let yourself be overcome by feelings like that. If you really turn out to be Junko Furuta, if she really reincarnated and returned to this world, then it means that all that strength and courage that belonged to her now also lives in you, they are also yours. Don't let the pain of that past life, or the sadness you may feel of it, control your life and determine who you are. You are now Jun, a completely new person who still has a bright future ahead! The best thing you can do for the victim, the best thing you can do for all those who suffered from this case is to be happy, to have the most beautiful and full life you can. You have a lot of strength than you can imagine, and I'm sure that in the end you can find a way to get that happiness you deserve so much.
I also want to take advantage of giving you my sincerest apologies. As a man, my gender is the direct culprit for everything you had to go through in your previous life. I am only one person, I cannot just be able to amend all the damage that my gender should have caused you to live. But if somehow this helps you, somehow this makes it easier for you to move on with your life, then please accept these apologies. We are not all like those **** murderers, many of us wanted you to have been able to return with your family. I just hope one day you'll be able to forgive us for what we did.
Some say that Junko Furuta, during the entire time she was kidnapped, used to repeat a phrase to herself to encourage her every time she needed it during difficult times: "が ん ば れ, が ん ば れ", which can be translated as "Hang in there!, Hang in there!". I hope these words give you the courage to continue once again, after all, the real strength is not to feel no pain but to feel it and still move forward regardless.
Postdata: I know that most of the people here already recommend you turn the page and not be so spiteful of the murderers. But this news may cheer you up for the day: "Junko Furuta: Killer arrested for attempted murder 3 decades later"
https://www.tokyoreporter.com/crime...rrested-for-attempted-murder-3-decades-later/
https://www.tokyoreporter.com/crime/junko-furuta-killer-again-on-trial-chaos-in-the-courtroom/
Basically they caught one of those responsible, made a trial of Shinji Minato (Boy C) for another crime he committed 2018. And this September 26, they already gave him a sentence, one year in prison:
https://twitter.com/tk84yuki/status/1177093188600750081
Unfortunately it is not much, but while you celebrate Christmas and New Year, I hope you know that while you are enjoying with your loved ones he will instead have to pass them alone and locked in a place where he would not want to be. It seems that there is finally a bit of Karma after all.
