I don't think your luck now has any bearing on who you were in a past life.
If you're having so many difficulties making the right decisions, or believe they're going nowhere, you may even just be starting out along your path.
This might even be your first human life, and the first one holds a lot of challenges in itself.
During the first life you have no basis for comparison, no lessons previously learned and no feelings previously felt.
Don't get discouraged when things go wrong, the Universe is eeking you into existence, one experience after another.
It's what you learn now that will build the foundations of who you are, and you may come back with all these memories of struggles and victories in tact,
ready to begin again, and put what you've already learned down on a new sheet of paper.
Life will always be difficult at times, no matter how many times you live it doesn't get easier.
No matter how good you are at playing the piano now, you'll have to learn from the very beginning again, in the next life.
But you'll find that the songs you play will change, and develop, just as you are.
You'll discover strengths and weaknesses you never knew existed.