Caution & Confusion

[Looking Backwards]

I've meant to ask this before, but I haven't. However, because of something I just experienced today, I have decided I need to ask.

Since I was possibly too young to actually know what reincarnation was, I've contemplated the possibility of it. When my dad explained to me that he almost had another sibling, but my grandmother miscarried, I couldn't understand that my father was another entity - I kept insisting that he was the child, that he'd just gone back into the womb and waited a few more years.

However, I feel like I've had so many theories on who I was, it's now all distorted. I was so sure I was a slave girl, then that idea sort of faded. Then I was someone who killed her sister on accident, sort of - the details weren't worked out, but I was sure of it. Then I was sure I was some sort of 1980's activist who died partly due to a rebellion or something (then it became an illness related to smoking.) Just recently, I passed a high school, and I felt attatched to it. And I decided I was very possibly linked to it, again from the 1980's. There's been stuff in between too, theories and things.

The thing is, why am I thinking up all these theories? I don't know what's actually got truth and what is just my mind making up stories. I don't know if they're all true and doubt just boxes them away, if I'm confused, or if I don't have any accurate memories and I just read reincarnation stories too much. Is it unhealthy to wonder too much? I do try and take everything with a grain of salt, but I've come so close to being sure.

Any advice? :/ And if this post is too blog-ish or whatever, feel free to delete and message me personally.

Afterthought: I do think that I've always striven to understand why I am the way I am. I have some very peculiar quirks. For instance, I hate smoking - always have. One time a character on a TV show I was watching smoked (it was a Very Special Episode ), and I actually fled the room in tears. * Yet once in a while for reasons I cannot explain, I think about cigarettes and have an urge to smoke. Why on earth is that? And I have really weird fears that don't make sense. (So weird I don't even want to say what they are - too revealing of my "true identity" per se, although if you'd like me to PM you I can.) I don't know if this has anything to do with it.

* Clarification: I was about nine or something.

 

[Iseke]

Wow. Honestly, you sound a lot like me.


I've had the honor of experiencing...I guess confirmation about some of these strange feelings and sudden attachments I was having, and the experiences have shown me that yes, the feelings mean something. If they can't be traced to current life events, they are likely connected to PLs.


You needn't worry about whether you ought to be feeling/thinking these things. If they are coming to you, there is a reason for it and you are meant to explore it. The truth is, with all the past lives we've likely had, we'll probably never even be aware of most of them. But we don't need to be--only a handful of those lives will probably come to our attention because they may be the most relevant to what we are experiencing/learning now.


Anyway, I'm really fascinated with the ideas you've had throughout your life and also the possible connections to PLs through triggers like smoking, a certain high school, etc. Please let us know if you are able to find out anymore about these things! I'm sure you'll find a lot of comfort from this forum about the feelings you've been having--I certainly did. It's nice to know we aren't going crazy!

 

[stardis]

The thing is, why am I thinking up all these theories? I don't know what's actually got truth and what is just my mind making up stories. I don't know if they're all true and doubt just boxes them away, if I'm confused, or if I don't have any accurate memories and I just read reincarnation stories too much. Is it unhealthy to wonder too much? I do try and take everything with a grain of salt, but I've come so close to being sure.

I am sure that people have different thoughts on your question and here is my personal opinion:


The memories that are enduring, that don't come and go, that are a part of you - may be past life related. Not all memories are yours though. Carl Jung had a theory that is known as the collective unconscious and it comprises all memories of all living things and it is something that we can tap into without realizing that we are doing so.


The human mind is very powerful. We can be fooled into thinking all sorts of things and where the information comes from that fills our thoughts is a mystery. I am not saying that your thoughts are not your own memories, just that it is possible that you are experiencing the memories of our human race along with your own and it may be difficult to sort things out. I think you are wise to take things with a grain of salt. Make the memories provide you with some sort of validation - like more detail and provide you with a sense of knowing that a memory is truly your own.


I would meditate and just relax your mind and let thoughts come to you in a way that you can write them down. Write them down in categories or time periods and see if they make any sense to you. It seems to me that these memories should begin to make sense at some point and the confusion should begin to go away.


What made you write about this today? (If it isn't too personal.)

 

[Truthseeker]

Some of these memories may seem unrelated, but they may be from different points in the same life or from different lives all together. It is hard to know if a memory is real or not. I struggle with that myself. I'm sure many others on this forum do as well. One way to help that I've heard is ask yourself if there are any strong emotions tied to the memory. The mind can make up false stories, but it's a lot harder to make up false emotions. I know when Dr. Brian Weiss does regressions he tells his patients to let whatever comes come, and not get caught up worrying about if it's "real" or not. It doesn't really matter because, either way, it's coming from inside you. Your subconscious mind is trying to tell you something. Your job is to listen and figure out what the message is.

 

[Karoliina]

I know when Dr. Brian Weiss does regressions he tells his patients to let whatever comes come, and not get caught up worrying about if it's "real" or not. It doesn't really matter because, either way, it's coming from inside you. Your subconscious mind is trying to tell you something. Your job is to listen and figure out what the message is.

I think this is essential. It's all coming to you for some reason. I'm also impatient, but I've learned (at least to some extent...) that from the various messages and experiences I'm getting and having, the "real" past life memories will stay and stick out in time. In the meanwhile it's a good idea to write everything down in a journal.


Validations are important, but I think it's just as important to think about the memories or "memories" you're experiencing - to think about why your higher self is sending you these messages and images. Are they actual PL memories you could learn from, or is there some other reason you are pushed to ponder this stuff.


Karoliina

 

[Looking Backwards]

I am not saying that your thoughts are not your own memories, just that it is possible that your are experiencing the memories of our human race along with your own and it may be difficult to sort things out. I think you are wise to take things with a grain of salt. Make the memories provide you with some sort of validation - like more detail and provide you with a sense of knowing that a memory is truly your own.
I would meditate and just relax your mind and let thoughts come to you in a way that you can write them down. Write them down in categories or time periods and see if they make any sense to you. It seems to me that these memories should begin to make sense at some point and the confusion should begin to go away.


What made you write about this today? (If it isn't too personal.)

Actually, I had wondered about that. I DO believe that emotions and feelings can leave a sort of essence. One time, for no reason whatsoever, I decided a woman I knew had had a troubled childhood. It turned out I was correct. Another time, I knew a friend of mine was very upset - she was fired from her job. It wouldn't surprise me if some of my feelings are because of a few pieces of essence here and there.

Some of these memories may seem unrelated, but they may be from different points in the same life or from different lives all together. It is hard to know if a memory is real or not. I struggle with that myself. I'm sure many others on this forum do as well. One way to help that I've heard is ask yourself if there are any strong emotions tied to the memory. The mind can make up false stories, but it's a lot harder to make up false emotions.

I think I may go by that, and make sure the emotions are true too - you can still make yourself feel a certain way, but as you said, it's harder. I still don't know quite what the difference would be, though.


I've got to get to work, but I have read your responses and will reply accordingly later. In the meantime - thank you for reading, and for being understanding. I really take my spirituality seriously, and I'm glad that's clear. (Since one of my concerns was looking like I was making things up, as I have relayed about fifty different things with no connections here.)