AOSpare
Zos Kia Cultus
It is of no secret on this forum that I have a cyclothymic disorder (kinda bipolar). I am not a well grounded, balanced person. I am often irritable, moody etc. When I enter the up phase (manic), usually I see connections of things (become more spiritual), I see hidden meanings, I use magical thinking, if you will. At the same time I am very psychic and astute using my subconscious and creative side of my brain. I am often puzzled how much of my ideas are fictional, how much is "real". For example, realizing of the possibility of my past life (Austin Spare) was such an episode. Now, let me elaborate further;
My daughter is 14 y.o. and she is short for her age (5.1). Our heights in the family (in inches)- I am 6.4 and my wife is 5.5. The only petite person of our family was my grandmother (she was maybe 5.1) whom I adored but never really understood. We had a very strong, special bond between us. She had a weird kind of wisdom. She had past on when I was 19/20 y.o. She was 99 years of age. It occurred to me that possibly she reincarnated (as my daughter), as our souls have some sort of a kismet. This would fly in the face of all I have learnt about Karma, etc. As a child she was a dirty blond(so is my daughter) and she had a nickname "Blond witch" as she was very charming, engaging person like my daughter is. Is this a crazy idea? I am afraid talking about this (especially to my daughter) because, she can just write it off as nonsense, coming from me...
My daughter is 14 y.o. and she is short for her age (5.1). Our heights in the family (in inches)- I am 6.4 and my wife is 5.5. The only petite person of our family was my grandmother (she was maybe 5.1) whom I adored but never really understood. We had a very strong, special bond between us. She had a weird kind of wisdom. She had past on when I was 19/20 y.o. She was 99 years of age. It occurred to me that possibly she reincarnated (as my daughter), as our souls have some sort of a kismet. This would fly in the face of all I have learnt about Karma, etc. As a child she was a dirty blond(so is my daughter) and she had a nickname "Blond witch" as she was very charming, engaging person like my daughter is. Is this a crazy idea? I am afraid talking about this (especially to my daughter) because, she can just write it off as nonsense, coming from me...