Julia looks the same as in my earlier meditation, but then I thought she had blue eyes - now I think they're brown. And I think "just like both parents, although Mama was a blonde whereas Julia has light brown hair". Julia is a bit pale and has a pointy nose. I think both our parents have Russian heritage, but at least Papa has lived in Sweden all his life and our life is very much a mixture of both Russian and Swedish traditions and habits. I think Julia is a bit of a tomboy, whereas I'm more interested in Mama's painting and other things she likes. She paints often in the garden of our villa.
Mama is somehow fragile, but at the same time dramatic. She gets bad head aches, especially when we are in town. She says in a dramatic way that "in the country side she can BREATHE". Papa is smiling gently but amused. He is so much more stable than Mama - the artist and drama queen. He loves her very much, but finds her amusing at times.
Our family plays a lot of music, I think Mama plays both the piano and the guitar, and Papa perhaps the violin. Julia has a good voice and she can sing several old Russian songs.
In the garden there are a couple of "stairs" leading from the front yard to the back yard so that the front yard is a bit higher up. I think the villa is by a lake that you can see from the back yard. I see myself and Julia as children, maybe 12 years old, sitting on the stairs between the yards. We have straw hats on and we play some game with coins we put in the sand on the stairs.
One thing I wanted to write here separately, as I realised only later it might be important: When I think about Julia when we're grown ups, I think she has changed a lot, is religious and very calm - maybe even in a little "hypocrite", "good Christian" way. Later I remembered you posted how you saw yourself later in that life in very ascetic surroundings, lying on a bed that had a crucifix above it hanging on the wall. When I remembered this I thought it's very likely Julia moved away from Sweden maybe to be a missionary or something like that - to convert people in some other country. I'm not sure of this, but it sounds very right to me.