hi. My name is Angela. I'm Mexican. And I met my past life lover at 19 in college. He was 24. Let's call him R. I met R three times.
The first two times I didn't like him. Our first interaction was basically him being instantly attracted to me and he was trying to get me to break up with a guy I was dating.
At one point R took my phone and told the guy he was my husband. I was confused until R grabbed me and kissed me. When the kiss broke, we said in unison that we were married.
I ended up leaving but he was begging me to come with him to which I refused. And I told him, "Become a doctor for me then." and I left.
I didn't see him again until April at a sushi restaurant he worked at with my family.
He was trying hard again but, I was still hard headed. He asked my dad for my number. He got rejected about my number but, when my parents heard we went to school together R agreed to look out for me.
I didn't see him again for about 2 weeks. I was taking Korean and was supposed to meet my tutor but he never showed up. Then I met R again.
He helped me because he is a Korean who is fluent in English and also knows a lot of Japanese.
We hung out and I forgot who he was. I couldn't recall meeting him at all. When I told him about the sushi restaurant I told him the guy was Japanese to which he asked if I thought he was cute. I replied "Yes." All R said was cool.
We had a lot in common, but then we parted. After we parted, I felt drawn to him. I'd never felt this way before but, I wanted to see him again.
So he tutored me and it's 3 weeks into knowing each other. I'm really attracted now.
And one night I tell him I need with homework because I did. So he took me back to where he lived on campus. He helped me but then he kissed me and I was really caught off guard.
So we almost slept together, but lady troubles struck so nothing happened but we fell asleep.
Right before I fell asleep I said, "Angel?" He responded with, "Yeah, babe?" Then I asked him, "How are the kids?" He responded "The kids are fine." I then asked him, "And the hospital?" He said that was okay also. We fell asleep and I left the next day. I had class.
So, it's May. He invites me over. After, right before falling asleep, I call Angel again. I ask him "when can I come home?" He kisses me and says "Soon, babe. Soon"
I don't ask about this again until June. We had a talk. I had stuff going on and he brings up meeting him before we dated and then some of our old life together.
Our last name was Garcia. We were married young. That's all he said until I looked at his hands.
He had birthmarks there. Before I could say anything, he called my family and he said he was there with me. And they said, "You found your husband."
I was so confused.
Then he went into detail about our old life.
He was a young, successful Mexican Doctor by the name of Angel Garcia. I was a Japanese-Korean who's name was Alex. I was his housewife.
We were happy until I started getting lonely. I left Angel for his underling who has also reincarnated.
We'll call him J.
J manipulated me into leaving my husband and I did. We were happy until I left him and married all of J's friends one by one. Then I went back to J. But J was angry. He started to beat me. I almost was in a wheelchair.
Thankfully one of my old husband's (not Angel) saw this and the whole group of J's friends brought me back to Angel.
Angel healed me and fixed me. I was okay.... Until I got depressed. I was on meds but I stopped taking them. Then I tried to kill Angel. He fixed me again.
We had our 4 children. And we were happy until I snapped out of nowhere. I killed him this time.
I stabbed his hands till he lost all feeling then I went for his throat. But before that he stabbed me in the face twice. I have two birthmarks on my face. and he has multiple ones on his hands.
After killing him, I killed myself but, before I offed myself I begged God to bring me back to fix everything.
Then we reincarnated.
After my soul was in this body, I had a dream at nine. Of a man taking me to a car. He had long hair but his face was blurred. His voice I now know was R's.
He said "Come with me. Trust me." so my nine year old self did. I took his hand and he led me to a car. I was about to get in when I woke up.
6 years later I see a wedding. I later realized that I'm the bride. I'm getting married to a Mexican man (face is blurred) with long hair. The pastor says "I now pronounce you Mr. and Mrs. garcia" then I wake up. At the time I thought nothing of these dreams until now.
In middle school, a man was talking to me but I was angry. I told him to get married and to see if I care. I sounded jealous. I didn't see him again. He looked like a Mexican Asian.
So my whole family is telling me my husband has found me. But I start predicting things.
I predict we will separate. I will end up in a mental hospital. But I do see us getting married now. But then R starts intervening. He says we'll stay together and I'll be fine.
He's wrong.
Right before my exams my brother stops at a Gas Station. He was driving me to school. My door opens and I hear R. He tells my brother, "I need to take her." before I can turn around R closes the door and leaves.
A few weeks later, I end up in the mental hospital and the conversation we had with my family starts. I'm hearing voices. I'm hearing R and J fight over who my real husband is. I'm driven to insanity. They diagnose me as Schizophrenic.
In the first hospital, everything I predicted comes true. I fall asleep then wake up. I feel someone holding me. They are holding my head down. I say "Oppa." Oppa is Korean for lover. They respond, "I'm here baby." It's R. I fall asleep.
While leaving the hospital to be taken to a different facility. I look up from my gurney and I see R, but he's different. He looks like a Mexican-Korean with long brown hair. He has tattoos on his arms. He nods at me and I nod at him.
As I stay in the hospital, R is unaware about any of this. My family cuts him out of my life. Believing I imagined him.
We have no contact until November. I find one of my old phones and use it to contact him before I could tell him anything my mom takes my phone.
I don't get my new phone until December I'm forced to break up with him. He never responds.
I keep hearing voices for a whole year, but not like a schizophrenic. It's just R and J arguing again.
I do get attracted to J's reincarnation. Let's just say he's famous so I see him all over social media. Then I hear him all the time in my head arguing even more with R.
Eventually I hear mine and R's children. They say "mom!" I know their names and I talk to them. They're happy "dad" found me. They're begging me to come home but I tell them I can't yet due to being separated. They are very sad over this.
As time goes on, I still hear these voices. But now I'm dreaming of R as his long haired version. It's very brief but it's him. Sometimes we sleep together. Other times he just appears randomly to just be with me.
We're still not together... and hearing him, J, and our kids is not allowing me to move on.
I do love him, but I'm the type of person that won't hold on if there's no contact. My soul is not allowing me, but at the same time I also am holding on.
I don't know what to do!
The first two times I didn't like him. Our first interaction was basically him being instantly attracted to me and he was trying to get me to break up with a guy I was dating.
At one point R took my phone and told the guy he was my husband. I was confused until R grabbed me and kissed me. When the kiss broke, we said in unison that we were married.
I ended up leaving but he was begging me to come with him to which I refused. And I told him, "Become a doctor for me then." and I left.
I didn't see him again until April at a sushi restaurant he worked at with my family.
He was trying hard again but, I was still hard headed. He asked my dad for my number. He got rejected about my number but, when my parents heard we went to school together R agreed to look out for me.
I didn't see him again for about 2 weeks. I was taking Korean and was supposed to meet my tutor but he never showed up. Then I met R again.
He helped me because he is a Korean who is fluent in English and also knows a lot of Japanese.
We hung out and I forgot who he was. I couldn't recall meeting him at all. When I told him about the sushi restaurant I told him the guy was Japanese to which he asked if I thought he was cute. I replied "Yes." All R said was cool.
We had a lot in common, but then we parted. After we parted, I felt drawn to him. I'd never felt this way before but, I wanted to see him again.
So he tutored me and it's 3 weeks into knowing each other. I'm really attracted now.
And one night I tell him I need with homework because I did. So he took me back to where he lived on campus. He helped me but then he kissed me and I was really caught off guard.
So we almost slept together, but lady troubles struck so nothing happened but we fell asleep.
Right before I fell asleep I said, "Angel?" He responded with, "Yeah, babe?" Then I asked him, "How are the kids?" He responded "The kids are fine." I then asked him, "And the hospital?" He said that was okay also. We fell asleep and I left the next day. I had class.
So, it's May. He invites me over. After, right before falling asleep, I call Angel again. I ask him "when can I come home?" He kisses me and says "Soon, babe. Soon"
I don't ask about this again until June. We had a talk. I had stuff going on and he brings up meeting him before we dated and then some of our old life together.
Our last name was Garcia. We were married young. That's all he said until I looked at his hands.
He had birthmarks there. Before I could say anything, he called my family and he said he was there with me. And they said, "You found your husband."
I was so confused.
Then he went into detail about our old life.
He was a young, successful Mexican Doctor by the name of Angel Garcia. I was a Japanese-Korean who's name was Alex. I was his housewife.
We were happy until I started getting lonely. I left Angel for his underling who has also reincarnated.
We'll call him J.
J manipulated me into leaving my husband and I did. We were happy until I left him and married all of J's friends one by one. Then I went back to J. But J was angry. He started to beat me. I almost was in a wheelchair.
Thankfully one of my old husband's (not Angel) saw this and the whole group of J's friends brought me back to Angel.
Angel healed me and fixed me. I was okay.... Until I got depressed. I was on meds but I stopped taking them. Then I tried to kill Angel. He fixed me again.
We had our 4 children. And we were happy until I snapped out of nowhere. I killed him this time.
I stabbed his hands till he lost all feeling then I went for his throat. But before that he stabbed me in the face twice. I have two birthmarks on my face. and he has multiple ones on his hands.
After killing him, I killed myself but, before I offed myself I begged God to bring me back to fix everything.
Then we reincarnated.
After my soul was in this body, I had a dream at nine. Of a man taking me to a car. He had long hair but his face was blurred. His voice I now know was R's.
He said "Come with me. Trust me." so my nine year old self did. I took his hand and he led me to a car. I was about to get in when I woke up.
6 years later I see a wedding. I later realized that I'm the bride. I'm getting married to a Mexican man (face is blurred) with long hair. The pastor says "I now pronounce you Mr. and Mrs. garcia" then I wake up. At the time I thought nothing of these dreams until now.
In middle school, a man was talking to me but I was angry. I told him to get married and to see if I care. I sounded jealous. I didn't see him again. He looked like a Mexican Asian.
So my whole family is telling me my husband has found me. But I start predicting things.
I predict we will separate. I will end up in a mental hospital. But I do see us getting married now. But then R starts intervening. He says we'll stay together and I'll be fine.
He's wrong.
Right before my exams my brother stops at a Gas Station. He was driving me to school. My door opens and I hear R. He tells my brother, "I need to take her." before I can turn around R closes the door and leaves.
A few weeks later, I end up in the mental hospital and the conversation we had with my family starts. I'm hearing voices. I'm hearing R and J fight over who my real husband is. I'm driven to insanity. They diagnose me as Schizophrenic.
In the first hospital, everything I predicted comes true. I fall asleep then wake up. I feel someone holding me. They are holding my head down. I say "Oppa." Oppa is Korean for lover. They respond, "I'm here baby." It's R. I fall asleep.
While leaving the hospital to be taken to a different facility. I look up from my gurney and I see R, but he's different. He looks like a Mexican-Korean with long brown hair. He has tattoos on his arms. He nods at me and I nod at him.
As I stay in the hospital, R is unaware about any of this. My family cuts him out of my life. Believing I imagined him.
We have no contact until November. I find one of my old phones and use it to contact him before I could tell him anything my mom takes my phone.
I don't get my new phone until December I'm forced to break up with him. He never responds.
I keep hearing voices for a whole year, but not like a schizophrenic. It's just R and J arguing again.
I do get attracted to J's reincarnation. Let's just say he's famous so I see him all over social media. Then I hear him all the time in my head arguing even more with R.
Eventually I hear mine and R's children. They say "mom!" I know their names and I talk to them. They're happy "dad" found me. They're begging me to come home but I tell them I can't yet due to being separated. They are very sad over this.
As time goes on, I still hear these voices. But now I'm dreaming of R as his long haired version. It's very brief but it's him. Sometimes we sleep together. Other times he just appears randomly to just be with me.
We're still not together... and hearing him, J, and our kids is not allowing me to move on.
I do love him, but I'm the type of person that won't hold on if there's no contact. My soul is not allowing me, but at the same time I also am holding on.
I don't know what to do!
