I was born in early 1960s in Asian country. My background religion and culture reject the idea of reincarnation. Children, people, they were considered possessed by others soul if they were talking about others life.
When I was in high school I attended French course. I chose French because of practical reason. English was a regular subject at school and I wanted to learn other language. I learnt French faster rather than English. When I was in English class, I had to think twice because I would talk French automatically. However, I stopped practicing French after I finished high school.
I had traveled to France twice; in mid 1990s, then three years later, mainly in Paris and surrounding areas. In the first visit to Montmartre I felt that I knew the old stairs. I assumed that I had seen a photo of the stairs in an old book, encyclopedia. In the second visit, I liked observing small apartments. At that time, I liked Paris same as I liked other cities in Europe.
More than 10 years ago, I attended meditation center, the teacher explained reincarnation concept, covered ‘déjà vu’ feelings, but I didn’t pay attention because I thought I didn’t have clear experiences of ‘déjà vu’. Later on, I was dining in a French style restaurant and I was listening French music. After that I became enthusiastic searching French music on internet. I was glad finding French traditional music and French old songs. I felt the music cured my longing for an atmosphere. Afterwards I found black and white photos of France in 1940s-1950s, and I said in my mind; this is it, here is the atmosphere, I took a deep breath, I experienced mix feelings; happiness, serenity, lonesome. I felt that I found what I lost even though I didn’t know what I lost, what I need to search.
After go through these experiences, I remember when I was about 5 years old, I liked observing pictures, photos of women fashions in 1940s-1950s. I said in my mind; that was probably sign of reincarnation. This thought suddenly came into my mind when we were in living room, watching TV, reading newspaper. I hold my breath to keep from blurting out this discovery. I remember when I was about 7 years old; my mother, my sister and I went to dressmaker. My sister chose picture of teenagers’ clothes but I chose women clothes in 1940s. The dressmaker commented that the picture was the dress of old women. I was disappointed that I had to choose same picture as my sister did. I didn’t want the dressmaker and my mother might be thinking that I was odd.
Later on I remember black and white photo which I saw somewhere sometime very long time ago. Now I know that venue of the photo is Montmartre in the hill near Paris. As I remembered, in the photo, there was a woman standing in the stairs, she rest her hand in the stairs railing, her overcoat and hat were 1940s-1950s fashions, fallen leaves were scattered in the stairs, it seems the scene was in Autumn. I was curious searching the photo, I opened page by page of 30 books series of encyclopedia and I checked other English old books, but I didn’t find it.
Currently when I was busy working on housework or intellectual tasks, I was thinking that I need to accomplish these tasks properly soonest because I will go for a while living and searching something in Montmartre. It’s a cliché that many people have a dream to go to France because of romantic impression, beautiful place. How to evaluate whether a dream is an intention of present life, or influenced by past life?
It’s hard to keep these feelings and thoughts alone.
When I was in high school I attended French course. I chose French because of practical reason. English was a regular subject at school and I wanted to learn other language. I learnt French faster rather than English. When I was in English class, I had to think twice because I would talk French automatically. However, I stopped practicing French after I finished high school.
I had traveled to France twice; in mid 1990s, then three years later, mainly in Paris and surrounding areas. In the first visit to Montmartre I felt that I knew the old stairs. I assumed that I had seen a photo of the stairs in an old book, encyclopedia. In the second visit, I liked observing small apartments. At that time, I liked Paris same as I liked other cities in Europe.
More than 10 years ago, I attended meditation center, the teacher explained reincarnation concept, covered ‘déjà vu’ feelings, but I didn’t pay attention because I thought I didn’t have clear experiences of ‘déjà vu’. Later on, I was dining in a French style restaurant and I was listening French music. After that I became enthusiastic searching French music on internet. I was glad finding French traditional music and French old songs. I felt the music cured my longing for an atmosphere. Afterwards I found black and white photos of France in 1940s-1950s, and I said in my mind; this is it, here is the atmosphere, I took a deep breath, I experienced mix feelings; happiness, serenity, lonesome. I felt that I found what I lost even though I didn’t know what I lost, what I need to search.
After go through these experiences, I remember when I was about 5 years old, I liked observing pictures, photos of women fashions in 1940s-1950s. I said in my mind; that was probably sign of reincarnation. This thought suddenly came into my mind when we were in living room, watching TV, reading newspaper. I hold my breath to keep from blurting out this discovery. I remember when I was about 7 years old; my mother, my sister and I went to dressmaker. My sister chose picture of teenagers’ clothes but I chose women clothes in 1940s. The dressmaker commented that the picture was the dress of old women. I was disappointed that I had to choose same picture as my sister did. I didn’t want the dressmaker and my mother might be thinking that I was odd.
Later on I remember black and white photo which I saw somewhere sometime very long time ago. Now I know that venue of the photo is Montmartre in the hill near Paris. As I remembered, in the photo, there was a woman standing in the stairs, she rest her hand in the stairs railing, her overcoat and hat were 1940s-1950s fashions, fallen leaves were scattered in the stairs, it seems the scene was in Autumn. I was curious searching the photo, I opened page by page of 30 books series of encyclopedia and I checked other English old books, but I didn’t find it.
Currently when I was busy working on housework or intellectual tasks, I was thinking that I need to accomplish these tasks properly soonest because I will go for a while living and searching something in Montmartre. It’s a cliché that many people have a dream to go to France because of romantic impression, beautiful place. How to evaluate whether a dream is an intention of present life, or influenced by past life?
It’s hard to keep these feelings and thoughts alone.
