No escaping yourself...
Hello everyone. …I haven’t posted here for well over a year, though I do browse from time to time. Glad to see it is still going strong, though sorry to see restrictions added, specifically no talk of alien/other world lifetimes ( I know this cuts Zetascair out of a lot of sharing opportunities :butbut: ), and that the spirituality board is gone.
I composed this last night, to place in the “Circle of Souls” thread, by Kateet, in the Reincarnation Questions board, but I guess I took too long to complete it, and I was made to log in again, and the long post was lost. I’m being smarter now and composing it and then pasting it.
I’ll go ahead and put it here, though there are several threads dealing with these subjects.
For me, it seems I haven’t been able to escape having to tie up the many karmic loose ends my soul has apparently created.
Regarding recognizing from photos…I was looking at photos in a book about an historical figure I sense my soul inhabited—this was five or six years ago, during a period of a year or so, during which all of this past life recognition tumbled into my consciousness—and for a brief moment I went into a semi-altered state and quickly saw how many of the faces, of people in his life, I could recognize as being in my current life. The resemblances were uncanny to me. I had three brothers in that life. Two are now my brothers. The other is now female, and we were romantically involved during my college years, and she was later my friend. A sister from that life—looking unbelievably identical today—was briefly a roommate, years ago.
I would think having a soul that has inhabited lives that have been historically recorded has made it easier for me to see the many correlations. It eventually came to the point when I would be aware of which significant figures in my past lives hadn’t yet shown up, and would expect that they would—sooner or later. Indeed, my wife from that life came into my life, about a year or two later, and was my girlfriend for about a year. (She didn't recognize me specifically from the past, but believed me when I told her I suspected we were married before, etc. Instead, she had her own sense that we were together in the past--as a pair of cheetahs!)
…My relationships have almost always been initiated by the other person, with me ‘going along,’ seemingly unable to not have it play out, sensing that this is just one more karmic ‘tying up’ to take care of. I sense dynamics similar to those between us in the past, which I’ve gleaned from reading about their previous personalities. Of course, the other person doesn’t perceive it this way. How can I begin to tell them? They eventually tire of my non-committal, apathetic attitude and move on, and I am torn—so many girlfriends, yet feeling quite isolated from them; I wish for us to be on the ‘same page,’ spiritually, but it just doesn’t happen, and isn’t supposed to. On the other hand, feeling in a way relieved—one more name I can check off. –Sounds cold, but it is indeed what I sense—my soul has a list of unfinished business with others to take care of.
I guess I have to relate that this refers to the King David, Joseph Smith (Mormon “prophet”), as well as the David H. Smith (son of Joseph) lives; in which context perhaps you can see how there would be a laundry list of karmic relationship issues. :cool The photos I refer to above were in a book about David Smith.
I've also met who I think is Jonathan from King David life, briefly as an online friend at a spiritual board. We had this kind of lofty romantic, playful chemistry, and would take off in witty poetic refrains to each other, interrupting the current topic on the board; later, I realized his likely past. His name is Jonathan in this life.
Also, Joab--David's military leader in later years--my current mean, irritating roommate; Absalom, his doomed son--a regretful friendship I recently had; Micah, his first wife--an early girlfriend. King Saul/Brigham Young soul is now in my step-mother. Solomon is one of my current brothers, and was also David Smith's brother, Joseph III (and he was therefore my son, in the Joseph life.). Tamar, David's daughter, I believe is my current sister. Much of their current personalities, and dynamics between us, resonate with the past--stories for another day.
Again, no one seems to know of these specific connections, but me. I know my stepmother has sensed some of her past lives, a few years ago, though I don't believe those we share have come up for her. The rest I've mentioned above are not of the mind to be considering such things, and are focused on other things. Again, it is a somewhat lonely position for me, this sense of being more aware than others in my life about some things--yet, you could say this also reflects a defensive position of my personalities--always needing to have the 'upper hand,' be one up on others, you could say. Also, most of the non-familial connections that return are with people I would outwardly appear to have little else in common with, besides my sense of our having shared past that needs resolving. So, it is difficult for me to explain to family why I'm spending time with certain people.
One I have not met yet is Uriah--the member of David's army who was Bathsheba's husband, who he had killed, so he could carry on with Bathsheba. ...I hope I've learned enough so that the interaction/lesson, when it comes, will not be too challenging. But it may also be that I have already interacted with this person sometime in the past, the effect having been more subtle than I might have expected.
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( she moved away 
Then I'll inquire about Goliath for you!
But even if it is for overt symbolic reasons to show our spouses how much we love them, it's almost like a conscious and consistant reminding that we can't lean (literally) on each other all the time. 