Sephira Jo
Senior Registered
Hi! I'm not sure how to start this, but after some discussing some stuff with my boyfriend (who remembers most of his past lives, the jerk ^-^) We figured a few things out about posiblities for mine, we mostly went off of ingnored childhood memories. (i think i remembered all this stuff fully when i was a kid, but mom and dad never, ever belived me. . .so i evetally stopped telling them about it
The first thing I ever remember saying is "I want to go to Tokyo" or "I have to go back to Tokyo!" I said this when i was three years old. . .i didn't have any way of even knowing where japan was. . .in fact that was the first thing mom asked me "Do you even know where that is?" she was laughing when she asked that. . .I remember nodding and smiling and I think I said it was home.
I also have an huge fear of light flashes. Lighting scares the hell out me not the bolts, the flashing. (i can watch lighting if the bolts are well defined and its not
noisy, in fact i think its pretty.)
My fear of light flashing is so bad, I cant force my self outside even if i can't hear thunder, and I hate clubs with stobe lights, espicaly white and green. (I had to leave a party one year because all they used for effects where white and green laser flashes)
I also don't like leaving home without my family for any reason. Every time I got sent to the farm to be with my grandparents (with out my mom or dad) i would go absolutly nuts! Even now, I don't like traveling if my friends aren't nearby. . .I can't go out and enjoy myself, if I'm by myself. . .I'm always afraid somethings going to happen to me or my faimly. I'll be the first to admit thats really pathictic, but its true.
In a way, I wish mom and dad had listened to me as a kid. . .maybe this stuff wouldn't bother me so much if they did. . .
Any way. . .then there was something that happened when I went to the UN in New York. They have a satute there from Hiroshima that was pulled from the rubble after the atomic bomb was dropped there. . .I couldn't even look at it. . .I think I have a photo of me
crying. . .or starting to cry when I'm looking at it. . .and the statue was really
familar too. . .
(giggles) As I'm writing this a song called "We Belive You" from sailor moon has just started playing. . .I hope its a good sign ^-^
Any way. . .besides that, I've always had a very hordenous fear of dyinging and not knowing I'm dead. There have been times when I've waken up from nightmares only to repeately check for my heartbeat and go nuts making sure my body is still there.
Given all of that my boyfriend and I have started to think that I must have died in Hiroshima, when they dropped the atomic bomb.
(and i must have been pretty **** close to ground zero to harbor a fear of dying and not knowing it. . .)
We figure that and not a Tokyo bombing simply because if you died from a bombing in another japanese city, you'd be more likely to die from fire, than a flash of light. All the buildings were made of wood, and the bombs dropped on Tokyo started fires. . .
It actally makes sense of a dream I've been having since I was a kid, being in a little girl in an asian city. ..and then everything lights up and disapares.
And I've always been drawn to japanese culture. Right now I'm a rabid fan of anime and manga. . .a real otaku. ..
I learned how to use chopsticks really quickly. . .at first i was frustrated that i couldn't use them right away. I remember telling my Kindergarden teacher "I's supposed to be albe to do this!! I Shouldn't havfta learn!"
Before I remembered this fully I even went out and bought a kawaii blue kimiono with a matching purple obi. I was so happy to have one! (then my mom washed it at home instead of having it dried cleaned. . .i was so mad!! i'll never be able to find a nice one like that in MN agian.)
If you couldn't tell, I'm now trying to learn a little bit of japanese, and my ultimate goal is to go back to Tokyo some day. I want to wander the gaurdens and go to the four foudo. I also want to watch every one get drunk with the sakura. Just
to see it agian. . .
any way. . .i'm sure i've bored enough of you by know. . gomen nasai!!
Oyasumi Nasai
The first thing I ever remember saying is "I want to go to Tokyo" or "I have to go back to Tokyo!" I said this when i was three years old. . .i didn't have any way of even knowing where japan was. . .in fact that was the first thing mom asked me "Do you even know where that is?" she was laughing when she asked that. . .I remember nodding and smiling and I think I said it was home.
I also have an huge fear of light flashes. Lighting scares the hell out me not the bolts, the flashing. (i can watch lighting if the bolts are well defined and its not
noisy, in fact i think its pretty.)
My fear of light flashing is so bad, I cant force my self outside even if i can't hear thunder, and I hate clubs with stobe lights, espicaly white and green. (I had to leave a party one year because all they used for effects where white and green laser flashes)
I also don't like leaving home without my family for any reason. Every time I got sent to the farm to be with my grandparents (with out my mom or dad) i would go absolutly nuts! Even now, I don't like traveling if my friends aren't nearby. . .I can't go out and enjoy myself, if I'm by myself. . .I'm always afraid somethings going to happen to me or my faimly. I'll be the first to admit thats really pathictic, but its true.
In a way, I wish mom and dad had listened to me as a kid. . .maybe this stuff wouldn't bother me so much if they did. . .
Any way. . .then there was something that happened when I went to the UN in New York. They have a satute there from Hiroshima that was pulled from the rubble after the atomic bomb was dropped there. . .I couldn't even look at it. . .I think I have a photo of me
crying. . .or starting to cry when I'm looking at it. . .and the statue was really
familar too. . .
(giggles) As I'm writing this a song called "We Belive You" from sailor moon has just started playing. . .I hope its a good sign ^-^
Any way. . .besides that, I've always had a very hordenous fear of dyinging and not knowing I'm dead. There have been times when I've waken up from nightmares only to repeately check for my heartbeat and go nuts making sure my body is still there.
Given all of that my boyfriend and I have started to think that I must have died in Hiroshima, when they dropped the atomic bomb.
(and i must have been pretty **** close to ground zero to harbor a fear of dying and not knowing it. . .)
We figure that and not a Tokyo bombing simply because if you died from a bombing in another japanese city, you'd be more likely to die from fire, than a flash of light. All the buildings were made of wood, and the bombs dropped on Tokyo started fires. . .
It actally makes sense of a dream I've been having since I was a kid, being in a little girl in an asian city. ..and then everything lights up and disapares.
And I've always been drawn to japanese culture. Right now I'm a rabid fan of anime and manga. . .a real otaku. ..
I learned how to use chopsticks really quickly. . .at first i was frustrated that i couldn't use them right away. I remember telling my Kindergarden teacher "I's supposed to be albe to do this!! I Shouldn't havfta learn!"
Before I remembered this fully I even went out and bought a kawaii blue kimiono with a matching purple obi. I was so happy to have one! (then my mom washed it at home instead of having it dried cleaned. . .i was so mad!! i'll never be able to find a nice one like that in MN agian.)
If you couldn't tell, I'm now trying to learn a little bit of japanese, and my ultimate goal is to go back to Tokyo some day. I want to wander the gaurdens and go to the four foudo. I also want to watch every one get drunk with the sakura. Just
to see it agian. . .
any way. . .i'm sure i've bored enough of you by know. . gomen nasai!!
Oyasumi Nasai