Can't Meditate, Can't Regress

[aqualeo]

It really sucks to have this bizarre problem where if i stay utterly still for too long, i experience sleep paralysis hallucinations. because of it, i can't meditate! this is generally fine, because i find the same peace through less sedentary means, such as dancing. however, it means i can't do past life regression. maybe i can, idk, i mean i've been able to nap without things getting scary, lately....but i'm afraid to try again. it's been years since i've attempted it. i'm so terrified of being in another position where i can feel invisible touches and hear voices calling my name. i've experienced enough of that, since until very recently i used to have a sort of chronic nightmare problem and would sometimes have sleep paralysis every night. so, as far as i know, i have to just rely on my conscious mind to provide me with past life information. Being able to regress and rely more fully on the subconscious mind sounds nice. Anyway, this is just venting

 

[fireflydancing]

I understand but the level of sleep paralysis (and the bonus hallucinations) are not the place to tune in past life memories. I know, it isn't easy to fine-tune your brainwaves.
Did you ever try guided meditation? On Youtube, there are a bunch of those. They help you to relax but you are not going as deep as the phase of sleep paralysis. Well, I have to confess that it has happened more than once that I fell asleep during a guided meditation, haha, not really sleeping, but I seemed to 'black out', and lost part of the content.
And about the hallucinations, they scare me too especially when I try to astral project. Just the fear that it might happen is bad enough. And then, not so long ago, a 'voice in my head' just said to me that those hallucinations are my own magnified fears. I feel much more confident now that I know I do have some influence on that phenomenon. Now it's about trust and letting go of fear (not easy).
So far, nothing has happened. The last time I astral projected, I entered this darkness first (where the hallucinations take place) but I wasn't bothered by anything. I didn't even think about any fears and nothing happened.

 

[aqualeo]

I understand but the level of sleep paralysis (and the bonus hallucinations) are not the place to tune in past life memories. I know, it isn't easy to fine-tune your brainwaves.
Did you ever try guided meditation? On Youtube, there are a bunch of those. They help you to relax but you are not going as deep as the phase of sleep paralysis. Well, I have to confess that it has happened more than once that I fell asleep during a guided meditation, haha, not really sleeping, but I seemed to 'black out', and lost part of the content.
And about the hallucinations, they scare me too especially when I try to astral project. Just the fear that it might happen is bad enough. And then, not so long ago, a 'voice in my head' just said to me that those hallucinations are my own magnified fears. I feel much more confident now that I know I do have some influence on that phenomenon. Now it's about trust and letting go of fear (not easy).
So far, nothing has happened. The last time I astral projected, I entered this darkness first (where the hallucinations take place) but I wasn't bothered by anything. I didn't even think about any fears and nothing happened.

i did try guided meditation, my body is just extremely fast at shutting down! in any position: lying down, sitting, whatever. and i def remain "awake" since i always hear when someone is coming into my room and such. but yes i do think i create the phenomena... after all, the reason it's died down now is because of personal growth in the arena of fears, i think.

buuut i'm also afraid of accidentally astral projecting during meditation, because i'm really fast at that too. i'm glad you understand how scary that can be, though i'm sorry you understand through personal experience. it started happening involuntarily after i first voluntarily tried to do it, and it was totally out of control for some time, in terms of when it would happen. it was getting in the way of my sleep.

im also someone who is almost always somewhat lucid in my dreams, just naturally. idk if you like astrology, but i have a lot of neptunian 12th housery going on, i feel like im semi-gifted in this department. semi because i struggle to actually control my dreams, they don't listen to me.

i feel like that's connected to the involuntary projecting. i'm concerned that my "controls," if you will, might be kind of broken. so i'm worried i don't have the self control to pull off getting into the right headspace to just regress and nothing else, even if i eliminate the fear that conjures malevolent presences :"-)

then again, it's possible that all my life i have struggled with taking the reins in terms of dreams and meditation, because i'm being prevented from getting too enamored with unconsciousness. after all, im pretty sure my soul's mission right now is to not be obsessed with returning to the wombbb and my PL twin. maybe i need to be in a trustworthy frame of mind that doesn't seem like it's gonna return to its old addiction to self dissolution. i might have a sort of child lock on my spiritual car right now haha. like hey don't go running off and not coming back!

 

[cloud potato]

Hello again aqualeo,

I'm responding to your initial post. I think if you allow yourself to surrender and experience, that relevant information might be revealed to you.

It's easier said than done. I used to experience sleep paralysis, frequently, not knowing what it was.

It is an in-between state in which your body begins to enter something like a "standby" or "rest" mode while your mind is more alert and active. I have faced many fears and anger in this state, almost all of which were of my own creation.

I have been terrified by this state too. It's such a vulnerable sensation, and the body- with its years of evolutionary data, is immediately placed in fight or flight. I can't tell you how many times I have tried slamming my head forward, screaming internally, praying to Christ to be saved from the experience.

One day, in my early 20's, I decided I would face it. I wasn't alone though, I had learned a trick that would allow me to break free from the experience if I became too scared. I would like to share this tip with you with the hopes it provides some use.

I would also like to tell you that sleep paralysis was later my entry into an OBE... out of body experience. If you believe in past lives it might also be worth considering that we are more than the bodies we identify with. So when I say out of body, it only means that your awareness is not immediately identified with the senses and viewing through the physical eyes. We can always dive into that later...

But I started to see the sleep paralysis as an opportunity.

First, I might suggest that you pray for protection before willingly entering any endeavor where you are exploring uncharted territory. To remember that you are always protected, and that you are loved. And maybe consider a reason why you slip so easily into this state is because there is a very strong message that is trying to get across to you.

It's just a thought. And in the end, it's all data.

The trick is very simple, and has worked for me with a 100% success rate. I have shared this with others who are scared about sleep paralysis. I discovered this method online, after trying to understand with desperation just what the heck was happening to me. I am happy to say the people I've shared it with have reported back that this has really helped them.

So, again, remember that the sensations you are experiencing is the body going to rest- and your mind is still awake/alert.

I have learned that you can't slam your head forward, and fighting hard doesn't help at all.

Instead, when the fear starts to kick in- you must remind yourself what is happening and then tell your self, "I am going to wiggle my big toe." I always choose my right toe. You must pick just the one.

Send your awareness to that toe. You can tell yourself, "I am wiggling my toe." And begin to do so.

Immediately your body begins to wake up and you are released from sleep paralysis.

I pray for your protection and further understanding with this regard.

I sincerely hope this helps and encourages you to explore what is really an amazing experience, I crave OBE's- and have come to enjoy the dissociative process that happens in between. It is a magical experience. And yes, there are a lot of ways it is scary- but I would not give up or shut down the experience for anything.

My best wishes to you...
~CP

 

[melon04]

I completely relate to the difficulties with meditating and regressing. This has always been kind of an issue for me, and not just in a past life way. That one regression I did on YouTube: I was just very lucky that day. I really want to know more about my past lives except I wish it wasn't so hard. It almost feels like that past lives are forbidden knowledge and that you aren't supposed to know about them.

 

[aqualeo]

I completely relate to the difficulties with meditating and regressing. This has always been kind of an issue for me, and not just in a past life way. That one regression I did on YouTube: I was just very lucky that day. I really want to know more about my past lives except I wish it wasn't so hard. It almost feels like that past lives are forbidden knowledge and that you aren't supposed to know about them.

i hope we will both be able to do so at least once, some time! thank you for sympathizing :"-)

the last time i tried, aside from the scary stuff... i remember i ended up seeing a narrow street at night, opening one of the doors, and inside was a dark little diner with old fashioned black and white tiles. that was the only notable thing that felt real, though. afterwards, at the time i was like "wow boring what was that"

but a few months ago, after i watched the movie based on what i later came to identify as my PL, i had a nightmare (on the basis that it stressed me out so bad i didn't sleep the rest of the night) about being a twin and a doctor (it wasn't a memory though, it was way surreal but it involved my brother happily bringing home a braindead baby from the hospital), and in it there was an old diner at one point. so i really would like to try again and see if that setting comes up :-/ later on, it felt kind of surreal seeing the recent tv series showing a diner in several of the twins' scenes together, so there might be something there. when listening to certain music, i used to get thoughts about sitting in a an old school diner in a city

 

[Mimic]

I had trouble doing this as well.

I had mixed results the first time, largely saw the faces of children. I am not sure why.

The second time, I got enough to see what the last life was, and the year I died.