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bamboobuddha

bamboobuddha

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I have not posted on this forum for about 4 years, but i decided to come back and reconnect with my memories. :D

In this life I am a lesbian, but I have not discovered any other PLs in which I was living as a GLBT individual. When I was with my ex, when I looked at her, I clearly saw a flash in my mind of a time when she was a poorer "peasant girl" of sorts; I knew I was also a woman and I had loved her back then, but nothing could come of it.

I am in the process of reconnecting with my PL memories after a long spiritual hiatus, and I wanted to start with your memories. Does anyone here have any PL memories of being gay, lesbian, bisexual, or transgendered?

--Kat
 
Hi Kat,


I don't have any past life memories of being anything other than heterosexual, but that doesn't mean to say that I wasn't at some point, I just haven't remembered it yet.


I just wanted to welcome you back to the forum and wish you good luck in reconnecting with your past lives. I hope you will keep us updated if you find out anything.


Chris :)
 
Welcome to the forum! I don't have any memories to contribute but I think this is a really interesting topic. I hope others will add to this. :thumbsup:
 
One life I do remember being gay. In another life I felt attracted to this person when we were of the opposite sex. As a male in that life she/ he kept me motivated towards overcoming a difficult situation and that feeling has persisted into this life. It was the feeling of his/ her youth that motivated me to get to know her. This life we have a big age difference{ me being twice her age , same sex and we are both heterosexual..


It is interesting how those special things we percieve in a person last from life to life.. I wonder had she been the same age as me , would I have felt this motivating energy around her. ALthough she did often say she felt that she was to be in peoples lives to spark a change in them. The relationship has not lasted , neither of us have got in touch with each other for some time, as she moved to another part of the country.


soulfreindly
 
Hi Kat! Welcome back - nice to meet you! :D


I don't have any memories myself either, of being anything other than heterosexual. I also think that the topic you raise is quite interesting!


I too want to wish you luck on this journey! ;)
 
Hello bamboobuddha,


Never though about such a question before. Quite interesting. I do recall having been attracted, in a relationship with other men. But most times it concerns the same person being reborn or so I think. Each time there were feelings involved, most times of love; sometimes at the beginning when you discover such deep affection for someone, you feel insecure. It's not that I was specifically gay. At least it is not stated in my memories.


One time, I was a male courtesan and the one I had feelings in previous lives was one, too. We were well dressed, fed, waiting for customers being brought to us. And we were really young. THere were other boys admiring him, flocking around him. And he, as the tease he was, gently explained to them some tricks to succeed without revealing his most important tricks. Just then I felt burning possessiveness toward him, all of sudden. Jealousy toward the others. "How dare he be so attentionate to them. That gentle smile belongs only to me!" Those were my thoughts. And there it hit me. Sure I was ashamed at myself for acting like a child, that I couldn't control my feelings, that I longed for him.


And to spite them all I glared at him from a distance, and the boys were still around him. I saw how he recognized my face contorted with jealousy, rage? I don't know. He smirked that arrogant smile of his, that arrogance he usually hides behind that gentle smile. I can sense him assured of my affections for him. Yet he never made a comment about it. Neither did I. But here I love and I'm surprised about it.


And I can truly feel his love for me whenever he lets his shields down what rarely occurs. He seems to overlooks it, like he minds his possible own weakness. Sometimes he would let me lay my head in his lap and caress my hair or sometimes go as far as lay his own head atop of mine. And we would't move for a while. I basked in this tranquil moment of bliss.


His smirk again. He opens his arms for me. I run and bury my head in his clothes, embracing him in front of the boys to put them in their place. He closes his arms around me, whispering something into my ear. Two broken human beings, the twisted bond of love between us the only salvage. It hurts. We like to make each other suffer in order to feel alive, our eyes only on each other.


Strangely, quite some of my memories can be called a homosexual relationship. But since it always concerns feelings and especially one person, I can't say for sure if I wasn't attracted to girls.


How do you approach your memories? Especially now after your hiatus? Meditation?


Rynen
 
Hello Rynen!


I just wanted to say I loved reading your post. The feelings expressed there and the depth of your memories are absolutely beautiful.


It's interesting - what you said about not being "specifically gay". I had never thought about things under this light, but I can easily see, based on my own experience, how a soulful connection will manifest itself in this way.


I have no memories of being male. But reading your post and thinking about it, I felt that if both my soulmate and I would happen to be males (or females for that matter), I would probably fall in love with him/her all the same.


It was a beautiful thought - thank you guys! :)
 
Last Summer I was doing a regression with the Roger Woogler CD. I have had a few good results with it, but the opportunity for me to actually relax and attempt it is often few and far between. Anyway, I discovered a PL as a Man. First time that ever happened, it kinda threw me for a minute. It was in the 1800's or so and I was building what looked to be a barn. I was alone, and just thinking as I was working. I could see in my mind a pretty woman with dark hair. I was married to her, and loved her dearly, but not as I should. I wasn't in love with anyone else. But, I think that was due more to the fact that I hadn't found someone else to love. I am not sure if he realised it at that time, or if I did during the regression, but it was because he was gay. I was quite shocked. Though, considering most of my PL's that I have recalled I have been a woman, I can see where there might be some confusion as to sexuality. ;)
 
Bamboobuddha,


I had an experience with this that I found very troubling. I met a person in this life who I was aware I had known in my immediate past life.


In this life I am female, straight. In the present life the person I re-met is male, and, I think straight, though later I wondered if he was bisexual.


I began to have a relationship with this guy and we were both remembering a lot of things from our immediate past life. In that past life we had both been male and were in the First World War together, as young German officers.


I woke up next to this guy one morning, in our present life, and realized, with the most appalling shock, that he and I had been gay lovers in the war life. I was very disturbed by it, got up and went and cried in the bathroom. I could feel exactly as I must have felt in the war life, when this was very taboo and could get you into A LOT of trouble. I was very much in love with him - both lives - so I guess in the war life I felt helpless as I knew I could not resist what I felt for him.


I did later realize that in the war life he started to be scared of me doing or saying something that would reveal what was going on between us. He attempted to distance himself from me in that life, in the end he went on leave and came back engaged to a girl he had known in his home town. I was eventually regressed to this patch in our lives. I feel I was devastated to learn of his engagement, which he had announced it in public to the other men in our unit without have the courtesy to warn me in private first.


In my regression him and I had very clearly been having rows in private about this fiancee, there was a very bad atmosphere between us. Also I was secretly drinking a great deal as a result of all this, (I had also just lost my best friend in combat). This drinking was increasing his fear that I would say or do something to let the cat out of the bag, with, no doubt dire, consequences for us both.


In the regression I found out that he had attempted to murder me in that life in a 'friendly fire' episode. It did not work. But the fact that he tried was a very big shock to me in the regression.


In the present life he assaulted me very severely, and I left him. I was scared of him after that. I believe he remembered trying to kill me in the past life. He had very good past life recall, better than mine. He said to me several times he had remembered something major from back then, but he repeatedly refused to fill me in.


By the way, he had also, in this life, recalled, about a week or so after I had, that we had been gay lovers in our past life. He told me. I was too disturbed by it all to mention it to him, though we were always comparing notes about things we remembered from the past life. We discussed this aspect and our fears of being caught back then.


I was stuck with the feelings of being a gay man for about 2 years after all this. I was even becoming attracted to gay men in this life. I used to go deliberately to one Indian restaurant in order to talk to - and admire - a gay waiter in there. It eventually went off, after I had the regression to his trying to murder me in our past life. It was pretty disturbing while it was going on.
 
Thank you for sharing your story. Those are very vivid memories, and very interesting that the man could remember them as well. I've just personally never been around people who can recall past lives or be willing to talk of them. That's why this forum is so great for me!


I can see that you've done alot of thinking on this past life and how it relates to your current life. I also applaud you for walking away when the current life relationship turned harmful. :thumbsup:
 
Hello Maxine!


I totally agree with Alaska! I'm so happy that you've been able to walk away from such a toxic relationship in this life.


Thank you so much for sharing your memories and experiences with us.


Welcome!


Welsh
 
W.A. HEART said:
Hello Maxine!
I totally agree with Alaska! I'm so happy that you've been able to walk away from such a toxic relationship in this life.


Thank you so much for sharing your memories and experiences with us.


Welcome!


Welsh
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Hi, thanks for the welcome. :)


My father is Welsh, present life, by the way.


Yes, it was a highly toxic relationship. That person and I didn't seem to do any other sort together, I am afraid. I was subsequently regressed to two other problematic lives involving him, as well as the Great War one we could both recall.


In the first one I had been his father in an ancient Egyptian life, and he had made a lot of trouble, and disgraced himself then, as my son.


In a much later one, I would say 1400's or so, he had been a very unpleasant noblewoman who had arranged to have me meet with an 'accident'. I was a priest, confessor to her husband, and I was influencing him in ways she did not like.


I do hope I don't meet him in any more lives. Lol!
 
Hi, bamboobuddha. I remember being a gay man in one life, a bisexual man in another and other lives, both male and female, but my sense and memories are that I was straight in those other lives.
 
Welcome back, Bamboobuddha! I remember having read your posts when I first joined the forum in 2005. :thumbsup:


I remember having been a bi-sexual man in England in the 1800's and either a bi or gay man (a Catholic monk) in Poland in the 1300's.


I have been wondering if having lived most my lives as a straight female has made it easier to fall in love with men in my male incarnations.


Karoliina
 
I have been wondering if having lived most my lives as a straight female has made it easier to fall in love with men in my male incarnations.
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That's a very interesting thought, I think.
 
Sunniva said:
That's a very interesting thought, I think.
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That is a very interesting thought. I wondered why I was not a lesbian in this life, as I believe I have only ever had one previous female life, a short one, in ancient times.


My immediate past life is a rather 'stuck' one with a lot of imprinting. I played with aeroplane toys as a child, though I am female and became a commercial pilot in this life. I was a pilot in my immediate past life.


When, I eventually realized I had been a predominantly gay man p/l (bi - but my major relationship then was with another man) I thought 'I see'. It explained to me, why though I have rather 'mannish' interests and find being in a female incarnation challenging, I had no interest in other women, this life.


I also think one of my big this life tasks was to deal with a soulmate of mine, I have had most of my incarnations with, who has BIG issues surrounding his relationships with women in numerous male lives. I don't think we got anywhere near resolving those, but perhaps it was a step in the right direction.
 
Speaking of my own experience and no generalisations here ..


In my memory of having been a gay man , I sense it was because of the immediate previous life as being abused sexually by the mother who I had in that life.. I had confused feelings about mother/ wife figures and was afraid to really reach out and get attached to a woman as a mate .


I am just working out my difficult sexual stuff this life. I am not married yet and sort of avoided it due to underlying fears of being controlled.


That gay partner I have remet twice so far in my remembering .. The male partner from my gay life, was a male of my own age to me a female in the concentration camp in Bergen Belsen in 1939 .. I idolised him in that life as his spirit had not been broken yet and as a teenager it was lovely to find someone still hopeful and having feelings of courage still.


As I said I met this soul again this life .. both of us female this life... but deep down I still had that some sort of reticence about being the true me around her and I have not kept in touch. I was afraid to show my weaknesses which was essential to me being truthful as I was very chronically ill during that time


I had one life { reflected in my avatar picture} where my now father then also a father thought I must have been gay because of my choice of professions as a ballet dancer. I had an accident and became wheel chair bound. I never was able to get over my fathers fear of me being gay. I had to live with him in his nice mansion.. But I felt totally stifled by his dominating nature . In this life he is the same , prejudiced about gays{ he left his church, the United Church here in Canada because they wanted to allow gays to become ministers.} He is now wheel chair bound, unable to move much and is surrounded by gays and people of dark skins { another of his prejudices} That seems like karma to me?..


soulfreindly.
 
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