He's still here

[Irina]

For a long time I felt that there was something missing in my life. I've actually felt that way since my early teens. I didn't know what, now I know. It's my past life love. It could have been even in two of my lives.
Now the problem is-I think he's kind of, spiritually, with me. I have experienced situations where I felt someone was there with me, helping me, before but I did not know who or what it was. I supposed that I was just imagining it to make myself feel better.
When I found out who I missed, i supposed that he was there for me. And this is why- the first days after I found out about my past life with him, the last one, I was kinda depressed and I cried a lot because of flashbacks. I was in bed, crying, and I felt like a caress on my hair. It was calming and I just kept my eyes closed and it continued. Then it went to my hand and he kept his hand on mine. I stopped crying then,because I felt calm and protected (and it's making my eyes water now because I'm remembering him ) Then later, I was sitting on a chair, and I felt a presence of someone behind me. I wondered who it was, and I closed my eyes. I could feel him, well kind of see him too (not look at him and see, but when I closed my eyes I could see an image of him next to me - I wasn't imagning on purpose,it came to me) and he put his hand on my shoulder, and caressed my hair again. And again I felt safe, protected, in love,and I didn't want him to go. But he did,and I felt empty. (eyes watering again ) And now sometimes, when I'm alone, I know he's there and that I'm not as alone as I think I am. Whenever I feel sad, or hurt, I feel that he's with me and it makes me feel better. I also have this feeling that "everything will be fine because he's right here with me". It's just what I feel.
I don't know am I right, but I do believe I am because it's how I'm feeling.
I would like to know if there is a way to talk to him? Can I sometimes call him when I feel I need him, or he will only come when he thinks he should? How to call him, if I can?
Also,is this normal, what I'm thinking and feeling, or I'm going bananas?

 

[Mama2HRB]

Trina,


Just talk to him, either out loud or in your mind and he will hear you. If you have a thought that is not yours that will be him replying.


Thank you for sharing your experience. It was wonderful to read.

 

[Eowyn]

I also believe my past life love is here (and I know he was with me in at least four past lives). I also feel that emptiness you feel when he's not here. I think he comes and goes because he must have his own "tasks" in his spiritual world. But at the same time I know he's always near and watching.


The closest I've come to him is during my meditations. I think he's a spiritual guide of some kind for me now. We've had some "mental conversations" like Mama2HRB says. If this is just my intuition or my imagination, I really can't tell. But if we both are crazy, well, at least you're not alone... :thumbsup:


Thank you for sharing this, Irina, I know it's not easy.

 

[tanguerra]

I know exactly what you mean Irina. I've had the same experience. In fact it's not all that uncommon and no, you're not going bananas.


However, a word of caution... don't expect that when you eventually meet up in real life (oh, you will, probably sooner than you think) that it's all going to be polka dots and moonbeams just like in the movies. That hardly ever happens in real life. It might of course! I hope it does, but then again it might not.


Life is complicated. Love is complicated. Karma is complicated. Just take it a step at a time and follow your heart. That's the best advice anyone can ever give.

 

[alfaiate]

Your post gives me hope that a lot of human loneliness is really just a lack of awareness of deeper connections.