I have found I often do not believe what I think I believe, and watching how my body responds to a situation brings me more insight than how I think I should be thinking. It's important to listen to your body, but perhaps not always to obey it. After all, my body will tell me not to eat when I am tense or worried ... and that is not good.
I, too, have things that make me physically ill to face or talk about. It used to happen constantly, so I learned to recognize and accept the reason I didn't want to eat, then I make myself a smoothie or something simple because I knew that would help me most, in the end.
Before I knew the trustworthy friends I turn to these days, I wrote it all down. It helps to understand your own story, even if you do entrust it to someone, also. It's surprising how many lies I told myself, not even knowing I was merely parroting what someone had taught me to believe. If you brought your problem from a past life, your inner reactions will be even more unconscious. Having framed it for yourself, it's easier to watch your body for signs, catch your thoughts, and then train yourself to see where the thought process can be interrupted.
A trustworthy guide is a huge help, because they will see what you might miss, but it is something you can begin on your own. I'll probably get professional help myself, once I can afford it. But I've come a very long way with the help of my friends. Don't give up.
