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sparklingfromwithin

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We were meeting in our dreams when we were kids, She and I used to meet by Teotihuacan temple.

There, where the elders made us as one again, while embodied in times when we lived there, and will dwell on this planet for the last time. Every incarnation here we lived together and we didn't know what we are until we died. Every time we died, we remembered all of our lives together. We remembered ourselves, how we are one, so we remembered everything while our bodies were lying on beds thousands of kilometers away.

We were sitting by the temple, now, in this lifetime, and then one a day a black cloud came upon me, it has to be for the last time. I was called many times before, I knew what will happen in my life before I was born, as I know now. I appeared in front of a boy with blue skin as many times before. He told me no one will ever believe me, who I am and what I did in my history so I won't write about it. This time you have no name he told me.

One night when I was about 5 years old, an endless black eagle creature appeared in front of me holding two scrolls in his black talons and I had no choice again. I did it because it's the only way we can stay together. If I fail my mission, we will be separated and my existence will become worthless. I was told I will forget my mission and remember again. So I forgot it, I forgot it because I hide away from pain.

She didn't come back to me in dreams. We were told next time we will meet when we grow up and she will not remember us in this lifetime. I was told by the Source, I have to love as he does, I have to love her even if she doesn't remember me. and so I closed my heart for many years, I couldn't take it, as I can't now, my wound will heal when I leave this body,

When I was five, I told my mother I will go to America when I grow up to see the one from my dreams. As the Source told me in dreams, it happens. I found her and she doesn't remember me, but I still love her like I always did.

She is just a bait for me now, she is not mine and I can fail. When we are awake like spirits with no mind, in sparkling reality energy in our hearts gets multiplied together. We can move mountains. We are one perfect being. We have eyes all around and we see everything. We feel everything with our hearts. If I don't bring ten souls with me, I will never see her again. We've been together before, here, we lived in woods. We had bodies covered with green tattoos.

One day we saw ships coming to the shore and that evening we were sitting around the fire for the last time together. I told my party as the Source had told me, tomorrow we will all be killed and our land will be taken. We will meet here on this planet again, we will be spread around the world. Some will be born in big cities and our mission is to remember again and I will find you all. We are the snake with wings, we are one, together we have all senses.

And if Paul Simon or Art Garfunkel would ever read this, I came to you in the studio when you were making Sound of Silence and I asked you what did you meant with the lyrics. I was seventy years old and I told you I will hear this song again when I will be about it 50 years younger than you two, you were laughing and told me I AM crazy and you played a song to me as I wished. Well, here I am now. I'm 33
 
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I can feel, I feel the energy flowing through her spine. That's why I could find her with eyes closed. but it didn't happen so, the voice of the Source told us how it will be. He said he will join us, I was afraid of how I will find her when I was a kid knowing what will happen. So I asked the same question and that was the answer. It was direct knowledge in my heart but since I had mind again my mind also translated energy into words. I saw in my dreams where she lives. I forgot about her and everything for many years but when I remembered again my body started to shake so much I was barely standing. Strong pressure came into my chest growing stronger and stronger and suddenly the energy in my chest exploded and I fell down, and I remembered completely.

In my heart, not in mind, all those years when I didn't remember I just had the feeling something would happen. I knew anyway I'm looking for someone. My heart was stronger than my mind. But still, if creators will would be so, then I would never find her. He helped me, so I didn't find her on my own. So like the previous time, in life before this, I knew where I will find her.

I saw a street in my dreams and I waited on that street and she came by. For seven days I was standing there on that street. Every time she came by, I was flirting with her, inviting her to go to coffee with me. On the seventh day, I felt stupid and I apologized to her for my behavior and then she said ok, let's go to a coffee. And then she told me she had gone to a psychic who told her there will be a man waiting on street for seven days.

I told her how we were separated in life before but she didn't remember until the last day of her life came, then she remembered everything again, so the same happens in this present life now.

She went to a psychic and he told her a man will come to her but it doesn't matter for God took her away from me now and left me with mission impossible, he will return all her memory back when I do what I have to do.
 
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Good luck with your Mission! Thank you for responding to my input.

I remember the campfire part very dimly. I might add that I love the song!

You and I have been together at some points!
 
Thank you, that's why I'm here to respond. Those like me don't come to the internet to talk about themselves. They run away from the crowd. I didn't come to ask what is happening to me. I know what is happening and I came to be an example because I get tears in my eyes when I see how many will feel the deepest sorrow at the moment they die. No one is doing his job on this planet, very few will ever believe in me and I will take only ten. I ate the scroll for the tenth and the last time when I will leave this body, cities will lie ruined without inhabitant, houses will be deserted and land will be desolate, so it's my last time here.

When I found out in this present life now that she doesn't remember anything, I wanted to kill my self. I would hang my self because I couldn't take the pain anymore. I could barely walk because of the pain in kidneys but then a strong ball of light appeared a few meters away from me.

It came with a strong blaze and sparkling energy was emitting from it all around. Then the second blaze of light came, this time the thing was closer to me and I could feel its endless black and white wings touching the whole universe. When a third blaze came, the light was upon me causing me a strong pain in the spine. I was like stoned staring at it and then suddenly it took me over. With the fourth blaze, the spirit was inside me, it possessed me, it took over my body and mind and I was only observing what is happening.

The thing brought her energy in front of me. It looked like a ball of pink smoke and I felt in my heart I must join this energy with the energy of my heart into one, to mix them together. It wasn't easy and it took me some time. The force didn't help in any way. It's more like I had to surrender myself and when I managed to do it, suddenly I became the whole being again.

I had two bodies at the same time and I was complete. When I took a look at the left side, I also saw the whole world on my right side. When I looked down, I also saw everything upon me and I felt thousands of orgasms flowing through my body. Son of God came to remind me who I am so I wouldn't waste everything I occupied on this planet. All those lives I would spend for nothing if I would do something stupid, I would lose her, I would lose me.

He left me with many instructions. When he was born here on this planet, he clearly said he will choose one from a thousand and another from ten thousand and he will make them stand as one. That's how many of them are here. That's how many people on this planet are having two different auras around one body. One kind of energy on left and another kind on right, so you can be joined. That's how many twin souls are existing.

No one of them is doing his job. The Universe is a clock, it has cycles and every cycle comes to its ending one day. To evolve, many will not because they love with made up illusional mind instead of with heart. They can't have their twins in the material world. Their job is to save love but they are not strong enough. When they will die and wake up again, there where time does not exist all, their lifetimes will look like a second in infinity. And they will beg God to have this life again but it will be too late. They will be lost and start over again, from the beginning. So many incarnations will be wasted for nothing
 
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When you say or think I AM , then you are far away from your self. Soul does not talk to itself, only the human mind does that. You all made up your minds, they are not real. You made your own programs in your head, you made them out of made-up voices and signs you call words.

It's all just made up, words are made up signs used for communication. And how many words you made up that's how much your mind can understand. Your made-up mind will not let you think of something that doesn't have a made-up name. You have all took the made-up world for a real one. Now you live in your head, in your own world and you can't feel anymore. You can't feel and see energy like you used to before your parents taught you to speak. Mind has taken you over and now you can't remember anymore, for it's not you. When you were babies, you felt the emotions of others. Now your mind judges what is what and it's all illusion. It's all just made up. There is no truth in you since you say to your self I AM, rather let it be as it is. Don't make your self but leave it. Shut down words in your mind and remember again who you are. All your suffering can end now if you will end your self
 
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Hi Sparklingfromwithin,

Welcome to the forum!

I am intrigued by your story about searching for your twin flame.
I really think it's a brave effort trying to describe your mystical experiences. (I know how hard that can be, so I don't even bother trying.) I can relate to a lot of things you're talking about. In this life, my 'twin flame' found me with a lot of persistence. In the beginning, I didn't recognize him as such, although I've always felt the connection.

I agree that there is a lot of mysticism and strange phenomena involved in this entire process. A lot of things that won't make any sense to people who are walking another path in Life. It's not just a different version of a classical love story, it's more about the transformation of your being or 'self' and about high energies.


PS:
What is your story in Teotihuacán?
 
Thank you Fireflydancing, I won't be here for long, I just need to visit some places before I start to torment this last generations before the cycle ends and many of you will hate me, not all of you deserve what is coming but I don't make decisions.

Teotihuacan will always be a special place for me, even when it's gone I will remember it, because of the magical moment, when she and I lived there those priests or whatever they were did something to us, they changed our awareness, I still see their eyes like it was yesterday, and hers.

We were standing together facing each other and suddenly we were connected into one, her eyes were reflecting everything, while incarnated we both remembered in that moment who we are, just like when we are spirits with no body, I only remember one time like this, othervise we only remember both when we die. In Teotihuacan did happened, as above so belove, as it was supposed to be, no other life was so beautiful, so timeless.

After that I spend most of my time there while I'm a spirit, when I have no body, I just dwell there for many human years, because of the energy coming from the ground, that's why the temple stands there, it was build on a very special place to amplify energy coming from the earth and I love that energy. And she comes, we always meet there, so there she will wait for me, there we will meet after I will be slaughtered, there I will dwell for the last time on this planet and then I will fly away into universe.
 
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She did the same thing for me. In one of our lives god took my memory away and she was left remembering us.

I was a knight on very high position, I was commanding the army, and she was born to a woman who was accused to be a witch. We didn't just burn them we just called them so because they were different, because they were psychic. She could never be with a knight, she was also different like her mother and it would be a shame to me to take her, whole kingdom would laugh, it was impossible for us to be together anyway.

Many times she attacked me when I was riding by, not physically but she was screaming in tears things about us being together in past lives, she was freaking out. My mind knew she is crazy but at the same time I felt feeling in my heart in didn't know how to put in words, I started to doubt my mind. I felt her somehow, very blury but she did make me go crazy.

I went to her one day and ask her about everything, how she knows this things are true, because I was missing love in my heart, but at the end of conversation my mind won, I freaked out in anger accusing her being a witch and I commanded army to lock her in jail, I accused her of putting a spell on my heart.

There was someone always with me, he was like my servant, he was wicked and didn't stop pushing that we should burn the witch, we did burn some but only those we didn't like, we knew all they are not truly witches, we just got rid of them in that way, it was all because of her behavior, she was bothering me publicaly everytime she saw me and I was a man on high position.

But still, didn't left me. The feeling of missing her keep appearing in my heart, so I wouldn't let her burn, I said to others to let the witch free because only she knows how to make poison and spells for my enemy and I need her, I told them she would do anything for me and they all knew that is true, so she was free.

And so the battle came. That day came. She attacked me again begging me to not go to the battle because I will be killed, she was freaking out she saw in her dreams how I will be slain and again my servants had to keep her away from me.

I was lying on the ground in blood, I could barely breath. She came to me and then I saw her aura, so shiny so beautiful, I told her she is an angel, then I knew, I closed my eyes and next moment I remembered again.

She was waiting for me whole life, as I will. There is always one who has to save love, otherwise we get lost afterlife.
 
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There is a place that dwells, it's light could make a daytime in the whole material universe, but the doors are opened only from time to time, golden eye gates, the passage.

I assure you every one of you will look up into the space and you will see a golden hole. Inside that hole, a light will be so strong it will shine into your hearts, to living and the dead, every one of you will look up.

In that moment every one of you will know where you come from, every one of you will remember, but in the whole universe, only a few will be able to fly there.

Everyone else will repeat the cycle
 
I think no matter the circumstance it's important to save the love. One of the hardest and yet simplest things we can do is love. Hard because levels of self-interest get in the way; be it expectation's, thwarted desires or some other limited rationale. It could even be the image we make of ourselves and our failure to accept our shortcomings or misdeeds. This happens to me a lot... Yet it can be simple if we choose to love and not attach to the pain. Pain seems to be a natural part of Love and is meant to help us grow but we don't have to attach ourselves to it- this erroneous thought pattern that handicaps our perspective. The brain will relive pain because it's intimate and so we get stuck. It took someone saving the love to help us move forward. We can seek the ever-new Joy that is Spirit and is available in each moment. Seek Love in All. That doesn't mean we'll always be able to detect it, we're so preoccupied with the past and the future or even someone else's dialogue... But we can make the effort, free ourselves of expectations and give it all to God. Let it Be and if its meant to Be, the proof is here that an opportunity will be created- again and again. Focus on creating harmony, within and without. Self peace for world peace. I am beginning to see that sometimes harmony means letting go or walking away. Pain is good, it softens your heart. Realize it's just a medium. I really liked your words, save the love. I'm not worried about what happens afterwards as long as I make the effort to honor Creation and walk more in line with my ideal.

God Bless and thank you for sharing your experiences.
~CP
 
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