Hello all!
You were all so kind, helpful and understanding when I made my first post that I'm hoping some of you may have some insight on my continuing unraveling of spontaneous recall.
Meditation has been part of my spiritual practice for close to fifteen years. I'm a comfortable and experienced meditator, which is why I'm a bit confused about what's happening now.
For over a month now, whenever I meditate, I almost always fall into a spontaneous "past life" recall (I put "past life" in quotes because the idea of reincarnation as it applies to me is a very new idea that I'm still struggling to come to terms with - my intro post linked above tells the story of this). When meditating, I don't ask for recall, and I'm not actively seeking out recall. I'm literally just meditating and it happens.
My meditation will be completely normal for about five minutes, but once I start slipping into the deeper levels, I'm suddenly staring at a scene unfolding in my mind - I am fairly sure that I am not guiding these scenes, as sometimes I "see" things that I don't fully understand. All of these "scenes" are being played out from the same "life." Never the same scene twice, and each scene seems to hold some sort of significance for the life of the person whose memories I seem to be recalling.
So far, in the past month or so, I have recalled nearly a dozen verifiable facts that I have been able to match with available historical data. I won't bore you by listing them, but since some part of me believes that I am making all of this up, I'm quick to jot down everything I remember as soon as I come out of my meditation before doing some research to see if any of this recall has any basis in fact. I'm coming out ahead on that so far. Thank you to those who suggested I write down everything I can remember as soon as the recall ends.
But all of this still unnerves me slightly - the recall, the verifiable facts, etc. - and it is getting to the point now where I don't want to meditate because I know that I'll fall into spontaneous recall. It isn't that the recall is particularly painful in any way - though some of it is disturbing - but rather, it confuses me and unnerves me for a couple of days afterwards. Obviously no one likes to feel that way.
My question is, does this happen to anyone else? Is this happening for a reason? Am I supposed to find some greater truth? When will this stop? To be honest, I'd sort of just like to have a meditation session that is JUST a meditation session once in a while.
Thank you for reading.
You were all so kind, helpful and understanding when I made my first post that I'm hoping some of you may have some insight on my continuing unraveling of spontaneous recall.
Meditation has been part of my spiritual practice for close to fifteen years. I'm a comfortable and experienced meditator, which is why I'm a bit confused about what's happening now.
For over a month now, whenever I meditate, I almost always fall into a spontaneous "past life" recall (I put "past life" in quotes because the idea of reincarnation as it applies to me is a very new idea that I'm still struggling to come to terms with - my intro post linked above tells the story of this). When meditating, I don't ask for recall, and I'm not actively seeking out recall. I'm literally just meditating and it happens.
My meditation will be completely normal for about five minutes, but once I start slipping into the deeper levels, I'm suddenly staring at a scene unfolding in my mind - I am fairly sure that I am not guiding these scenes, as sometimes I "see" things that I don't fully understand. All of these "scenes" are being played out from the same "life." Never the same scene twice, and each scene seems to hold some sort of significance for the life of the person whose memories I seem to be recalling.
So far, in the past month or so, I have recalled nearly a dozen verifiable facts that I have been able to match with available historical data. I won't bore you by listing them, but since some part of me believes that I am making all of this up, I'm quick to jot down everything I remember as soon as I come out of my meditation before doing some research to see if any of this recall has any basis in fact. I'm coming out ahead on that so far. Thank you to those who suggested I write down everything I can remember as soon as the recall ends.
But all of this still unnerves me slightly - the recall, the verifiable facts, etc. - and it is getting to the point now where I don't want to meditate because I know that I'll fall into spontaneous recall. It isn't that the recall is particularly painful in any way - though some of it is disturbing - but rather, it confuses me and unnerves me for a couple of days afterwards. Obviously no one likes to feel that way.
My question is, does this happen to anyone else? Is this happening for a reason? Am I supposed to find some greater truth? When will this stop? To be honest, I'd sort of just like to have a meditation session that is JUST a meditation session once in a while.
Thank you for reading.
Start keeping a journal and write everything down. You can research it later.
