Newmangirl66
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Back in 1997, I was going to marry the love of my life. Just a few months before our marriage, Gary got very ill. Turned out he had a rare cancer. I was a paramedic, so I was taking care of him. One day, he called me into the dark room and told me that I was his angel and said.. If you only knew how much I love you!! I told him that I loved him, too, and went to get my shoes in the other room. All the sudden I heard a horrible gun shot. My Gary had shot himself through the head. It is now 17 yrs later and I still miss him so much. My 38 yr old daughter found out she was pregnant, and two weeks ago had a boy. I find myself attracted to this infant, not like a grandmother, but some other kind of love. When I'm with him he laughs and seems happy. When I leave he cries like crazy. Am I crazy to think that this baby could possibly be my Gary who has chosen to come back to me as my grandson. Please tell me if I'm crazy but I feel like he is Gary. Thank you