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# PL about a lost twin brother:
This is actually one of the most painful remembrances I have so far. Maybe it is related with my earliest PL because many signs seem so vivid in my present life. I feel I have a lot to heal about it.
A few years ago, I noticed that I was having a weird habit since my very young age. Each time I saw a beautiful postcard in a shop, I always bought two of them: one of me and one for ???. It seemed natural for me to buy each beautiful postcard twice. I only did that for pictures, not for toys, nor anything else. I needed to keep a copy for ???. I had a total eclipse of my mind about that person whose name is ???.
Many years afterwards, I realised that I was missing a « twin ». I wondered if that was a usual way that many people use so that they don't feel alone, some kind of self-induced remembrance, the need of having an unvisible friend (like many kids have). No, there was something else than this.
Anyway, I forgot this all, quitted that habit, telling myself it was meaningless: I haven't got any twin brother in my life. I don't believe in « soul mate », « twin flame » and so on. I explored those concepts but I didn't find any meaningful clue in what I was feeling in those times.
The weirdest event happened a few years ago, as I was going to a job interview. This was a little factory in France. I came in. There was only one person in the hall, busy at sorting things. I asked him where I could find the person I had an interview with and when I saw his face and his height, I had a big shock. That was the very first I saw that man yet he seemed deeply familiar to me, in a way I didn't understand.
Anyway. I got that job and stayed in that company for one year only. I felt very close to that man, I needed to be close to him because I was feeling we were very close inside, like twins.
But that man was a mirror. I was very aware that I have nothing in common with that man. But deep inside of me, everything kept telling me he was the love of my life, the strongest and purest love of all.
I was very confused. I suffered a lot about this because that factory was bad for me, that man was only a mirror but deep inside of me, it became almost vital to see his face. I had to leave that factory because it wasn't good for my career but at the same time, there was something deep inside of me who couldn't bear to stay away from this face. That was real torture for me. I could only see that man at work, not in private life.
I left that factory with lots of pain because of that uncontroled love from within. I was lucky I was so busy during the next job because it eventually cut me from such a torture in my heart. I couldn't help thinking about that face every minute, but thanks to the busy work, my thoughts were focused on the work itself instead. I was eventually released from such a past remembrance.
I am now aware that that man actually looked like my twin brother I° had during one of my PL's. I° deeply loved my twin – like many twins do – and I° couldn't believe I° would survive if we° were separated from one another.
So if I saw my PL-twin in that man, this also means that I saw how I° looked like during that past-life. I had a big shock the first time I saw that man because I brutally saw the mirrored reflect of who I° was in another lifetime.
I° was very tall, slim, pale skin, dark eyes, silvery white hair.
The worst of it all is: I eventually knew that that colleague felt an unexpected deep shock too when we first met in person. I am almost sure we have a PL in common but our present lives definitely blocked the unfolding process. Therefore, in my view, everything is definitely lost between us°, during that lifetime where we° were twins.
I think that one of us° brutally died during that lifetime, and that the remaining twin suffered a lot because of this. In spite of all the blockages we had in our present life, we were able to shortly live together once more. Yes, those were short moments in our life but eventually, we succeeded.
I am talking about "love shared by twins". This has nothing sexual - of course not. It is beyond this. I think that only twins can understand this kind of love.
I think it was necessary for me to cut any link I had with that twin I° had during another life, because I feel that that link blocked my own life. Thanks to that re-encounter, I could achieve my mourning through past-lives at last. It is very important for me that there is no more PL-cord tied to my heart in my present life. Past is past and I have to go ahead.
I think that my° twin brother was very possessive and I° suffered a lot about this, even though I° loved him° above all. Relationships in twin-couples are sometimes
too strong.
I feel now that I am released from that "possessive love", at last.
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I wish I could write a shorter post but those words really came from my "heart" and I needed to share them with you in Carol Bowman's forum the way they came.
Kind regards,
Axel
). I think when we really start looking at all the information available, it seems quite possible that the majority of people may have been a twin in the beginning, although it may never have been detected.
and yet there is such a strong link that they cant tear themselves away from each other and lead separate lives even though they are 22 years old now...
