Massive Awakening

[CMoulton]

Hi there,

I have posted some messages here and made some really great contacts.

I just need to get something off my chest. Maybe ask for advice. Maybe just talk I don't know.

I feel like the last three and a half years of my life have been an amazing rollercoaster ride. My knowledge of past lives and angelic contacts are increasing. IT's like pain and love are mixing. I am so hypersensitive to vibrations. Today, this morning, I got a visit from my dear uncle out of the blue. I had not been thinking of him for so long. And suddenly he was there.

The thing is that my knowledge of my previous lives is connecting me to eternity. And It's not getting taller but bigger. I remember stuff from my lives as a male aristocrat in the 18th century. A woman in the 19th century. Heck, I even remember stuff from 2000 years ago. It's incredible.

I also see amazing number patterns in my life. 17. 40. 4. It's astounding. Like the angels are going out of their way to show me the way.

My body is not made for this kind of size of divinity I go up and down between heaven and hell so much and yet I am so thankful for this whole thing. I am more in touch with angels than humans. The angels keep telling me my inner gratitude is thanks enough. Its so incredible and painful at the same time to be everything and an Individual at the same time.

I am in love with the universe and in pain for not being able to share it with anyone. I am a happily married successful man that is now finally solving a deep spiritual trauma that is 240 years old. I keep talking about it. But who can share this kind of miracle? Has anyone experienced this kind of stuff. I I find myself remembering and longing for multiple lives and kind of schizophren in my loyalties. My God I live my life. But its mixe with enormous trauma from past lives.

Freddie Mercury said pain is so close to pleasure.

How does one deal with this kind of thing as a deeply awakened soul in s crazy world?

Charles

 

[baro-san]

In my experience, you have to cool down, to leave aside all your current beliefs and expectations (because they distort your experiences, your perceptions and interpretations), and to establish a high-quality connection with your inner-guide, the entity assigned to supervise and guide your development. You have to look for answers to why you are here now, what you have to work on, to do now.

From what you wrote, I believe that you'll have to drop, see-through some of your current beliefs, identify and peel them off one by one.

Advancement in spiritual-knowledge is a process of differentiation, not of accumulation. You see clearer and clearer, not more and more.

I wrote this because you asked, with no intention to guide you or to tell you what is right for you.

 

[Eva1942]

I am so hypersensitive to vibrations. Today, this morning, I got a visit from my dear uncle out of the blue. I had not been thinking of him for so long. And suddenly he was there.

I don't know if you will understand where I'm coming from, but I'll add my HO's (humble opinions) here.

There will be a time where you are hypersensitive to vibrations. In my own experience it was one of the most frightening times in my entire awakening, because all of a sudden I had to learn how to control who 'had access' to me. I enlisted what's called a 'gatekeeper Spirit' to guard the line between Spirit and the physical. In case you're wondering, my gatekeeper is a dragon. He works in tandem with a few guides I have who remain hidden. Since then, my hypersensitivity to vibrations have really toned down and it's only when a 'new Spirit' being comes that I get hypersensitive. As for visits, Spirit know when you are thinking about them. They will often (or sometimes depending on how you feel to them) come and lurk for a bit. Sometimes they will make themselves known, sometimes they will keep quiet. Spirit like to socialise (both good and bad), they sometimes have more 'active' social lives than ours!

The thing is that my knowledge of my previous lives is connecting me to eternity. And It's not getting taller but bigger. I remember stuff from my lives as a male aristocrat in the 18th century. A woman in the 19th century. Heck, I even remember stuff from 2000 years ago. It's incredible.

Oh yeah... You'll begin to remember things from thousands of years ago, I go back to when Isis and Osiris were in Egypt which is LONG before Christ. You begin to realise that you have been here for what feels like eternity. But it's like I always say: "Remembering past lives is not a party trick. It's not something you can do when you want to show your friends you can do something 'cool'. With knowledge comes trauma." It might seem "cool" in the beginning, but your past lives will never stop amazing you whether they have been good and bad.

My body is not made for this kind of size of divinity I go up and down between heaven and hell so much and yet I am so thankful for this whole thing. I am more in touch with angels than humans. The angels keep telling me my inner gratitude is thanks enough. Its so incredible and painful at the same time to be everything and an Individual at the same time.

No, you're right. the physical body is not capable of sustaining the high vibration needed to connect to Spirit. It is in essence, flawed in a way, however it is only flawed to the limitations we set upon it before we returned. Out of a 12 hour day (excluding sleep time), I estimated I'd spend about 6 hours of that actually not in this physical world, yet someone would say I am. Concerning the angels - I guess you're talking about the Archangels, be careful. There are good angels and bad angels. If you learn to speak to Spirit and/or the Archangels, read my posts here about talking to Spirit. Not all Spirit are truthful and "good", there's some that are illusions.

https://reincarnationforum.com/threads/guiding-spirit-said-i-was-a-bad-person-in-past-life.10048/#post-134483

And this one here. In fact, probably the entire thread after my post is a good one to read: https://reincarnationforum.com/threads/please-guide.9267/#post-123386

Eva x

 

[fireflydancing]

Hi @CMoulton,

I know how deep those periods of 'awakening' can go, although I never called it 'awakening'. To me, it felt like expanding myself across all kinds of dimensions. In my case, the most profound experience was when my Kundalini energy started to free herself through my body. That happened quite some years ago and she is at rest now. But all those changes can't be undone, once they start to happen.

I don't know if your situation is also Kundalini-related, but good advice is applicable to any other massive spiritual change.

So, in random order:

- take good care of yourself, sleep is important but if that is not possible, take extra hours of rest during the day. Good food, no alcohol or strong stimulants that take away your conscious observations

- spiritual helpers tend to appear when needed. Don't settle for anybody less than the highest possible level of awareness. Don't mess with lower energy spirits, they can deceive you easily. It takes some practice to recognize the good ones, but once you reach higher levels yourself, the lower ones won't bother disturbing you any longer.

- Take a lot of breaks. You're not in a hurry. Breaks can take months or even years. You really need periods of 'nothing' in between all the intense experiences. In those breaks, you can take a rest, and you can implement all the changes and insights in daily life before you're ready for the next move.

- It's easy to forget details, especially after intense spiritual experiences. So, write down your stuff. Ironically, this can also be wrong advice, as it depends on your personal path. Not so long ago, I had a series of intense past life dreams and when I considered writing them down, a voice in my head (my Higher Self?) made me understand that after reliving and processing those traumatic events, it was best to let go and forget. Writing it down would mean that I was still connected. (I did it anyway, despite this advice, just because they were so profoundly insightful for fears I have in this life).

- Grounding is so crucial. If your personality has problems with grounding, make an effort to do all kinds of grounding activities. And keep doing them for the rest of your life.

- 'Awakening' is a massive process but the turmoil will stop one day. Be prepared for that. The high-volume energies won't stay forever. After expansion, there will be implosion. This means that you no longer 'go out', but you'll go inside.

- Spiritual guides will always be available, their interactions won't cease. Their involvement will be adequate for your new stage. Maybe new ones pop up.

 

[cloud potato]

Hello Charles. = )

Welcome to the forums!

I feel your post. I won't tell you I understand. But I will tell you that I've felt similar. It's reality shattering, like a cognitive dissonance of some sort. That such a reality exist, and here we are going on in our day to day.

I consider it a blessing, not a curse. That attitude is for each of us to decide. I am also prompted by numbers and angels. I feel a connection to the guidance system, and 14 is a personal number.

I have felt connected to multiple lives, even drawn to others alive right now in other parts of the world. A unique sensation I can not explain- like residing outside my normal awareness and feeling a type of omnipresence. And still, I believe I chose to incarnate into this particular family dynamic of mine for a reason.

I believe the individuation is not all we are but that it is to be cherished! In my eyes, it's a gift from this gracious host we call Earth.

It can be maddening because maybe we feel isolated, like we're here just having to get along with ordinary. But I believe I chose to be here for a reason, and the unique relationship with self is far from ordinary. Rather, I believe I am discovering as intended. And maybe this decided incarnation includes learning to communicate in ways that require we think beyond the confines of typical 3D experience, since we acknowledge there is indeed an unseen intelligence able to communicate with our innermost thoughts and reflect itself in the world around us.

My final thoughts... You are not alone. All belonging to One. It's okay to be the unique personality we are today. All for a reason. I believe we are learning in more ways than what society teaches us- and what society teaches is surface level compared to the depths of what Nature has to offer. I am told simply being open and operating from a place of Love is more than enough.

Your Faith in your experience has rewarded you in kind and I believe we will continue to grow alongside that, forevermore!

 

[silvergenji]

I'm a little late to this party, but the last 2-3 years have been one massive spiritual growth spurt after another for me. There have been times where I have felt like I am perceiving multiple layers of time and space and reality all at once, and the mortal human brain was just not built to do that out of the box without some serious rewiring (hence all the growth spurts). You are so not alone in the joy and the particular brand of agony that is expansion beyond the limits of the world we learned when we were younger.

I find a lot of comfort and realignment in practicing qigong (traditional Chinese breathwork) to control my energy, and then focusing on just one aspect of what's coming up at a time. Sometimes that's difficult to do when it's all connected and where you pull on one thread here, another three hundred years away moves... but working with my mortal brain instead of against it by focusing in where I can has helped a lot.

I hope the past couple of months since you first posted this have been kind to you!

 

[CMoulton]

Thanks for all the anders, my friends,

In my experience, you have to cool down, to leave aside all your current beliefs and expectations (because they distort your experiences, your perceptions and interpretations), and to establish a high-quality connection with your inner-guide, the entity assigned to supervise and guide your development. You have to look for answers to why you are here now, what you have to work on, to do now.

From what you wrote, I believe that you'll have to drop, see-through some of your current beliefs, identify and peel them off one by one.

Advancement in spiritual-knowledge is a process of differentiation, not of accumulation. You see clearer and clearer, not more and more.

I wrote this because you asked, with no intention to guide you or to tell you what is right for you.

You are so right. This is precisely what I need right now. I need to cool down. I am also working very hard right now as an artist. Which is also lost of emotional input and output. I am doing well considering that people constantly want something of me. I really need and want to be strong for my family. I love them more than I can say. Since the Corona time began my past life memories have excelled and its been an incredible rollercoaster ride. It fuelled my OCD in a viciously toxic way. The good news is it affects no one but me. But it affects me. I really did a good job yesterday of withdrawing from reality on my way to work yesterday. That resulted in a fine communication with people eventually and a really great show. Cooling down is my only way out of this. I feel like a volcano. Thank you for your help.

 

[CMoulton]

I don't know if you will understand where I'm coming from, but I'll add my HO's (humble opinions) here.

There will be a time where you are hypersensitive to vibrations. In my own experience it was one of the most frightening times in my entire awakening, because all of a sudden I had to learn how to control who 'had access' to me. I enlisted what's called a 'gatekeeper Spirit' to guard the line between Spirit and the physical. In case you're wondering, my gatekeeper is a dragon. He works in tandem with a few guides I have who remain hidden. Since then, my hypersensitivity to vibrations have really toned down and it's only when a 'new Spirit' being comes that I get hypersensitive. As for visits, Spirit know when you are thinking about them. They will often (or sometimes depending on how you feel to them) come and lurk for a bit. Sometimes they will make themselves known, sometimes they will keep quiet. Spirit like to socialise (both good and bad), they sometimes have more 'active' social lives than ours!



Oh yeah... You'll begin to remember things from thousands of years ago, I go back to when Isis and Osiris were in Egypt which is LONG before Christ. You begin to realise that you have been here for what feels like eternity. But it's like I always say: "Remembering past lives is not a party trick. It's not something you can do when you want to show your friends you can do something 'cool'. With knowledge comes trauma." It might seem "cool" in the beginning, but your past lives will never stop amazing you whether they have been good and bad.



No, you're right. the physical body is not capable of sustaining the high vibration needed to connect to Spirit. It is in essence, flawed in a way, however it is only flawed to the limitations we set upon it before we returned. Out of a 12 hour day (excluding sleep time), I estimated I'd spend about 6 hours of that actually not in this physical world, yet someone would say I am. Concerning the angels - I guess you're talking about the Archangels, be careful. There are good angels and bad angels. If you learn to speak to Spirit and/or the Archangels, read my posts here about talking to Spirit. Not all Spirit are truthful and "good", there's some that are illusions.

https://reincarnationforum.com/threads/guiding-spirit-said-i-was-a-bad-person-in-past-life.10048/#post-134483

And this one here. In fact, probably the entire thread after my post is a good one to read: https://reincarnationforum.com/threads/please-guide.9267/#post-123386

Eva x

Hey there,

You are so right.
I said this to someone else about cooling down.
Not taking things so seriously.
My brain is doing it's best to mess me up and my awakening has thrown me into a rollercoaster ride. I have to stay in reality. I am relatively successful hard working person with somewhat challenging OCD. This makes it hard to cope.

As Axel von Fersen, Marie Antoinette's confidant, I had a really hard time accepting her death. It became a vendetta to save her and when I lost her I sank into oblivion. I stayed there in many ways. My life as Mary Jane Kelly was difficult because it seemed I punished myself. Axel was blamed for something he did not do. He was killed for it. Anyway, the fact that I can keep calm while writing this and let the OCD be what it is is marvelous. Thank you for your help.

 

[CMoulton]

Hi @CMoulton,

I know how deep those periods of 'awakening' can go, although I never called it 'awakening'. To me, it felt like expanding myself across all kinds of dimensions. In my case, the most profound experience was when my Kundalini energy started to free herself through my body. That happened quite some years ago and she is at rest now. But all those changes can't be undone, once they start to happen.

I don't know if your situation is also Kundalini-related, but good advice is applicable to any other massive spiritual change.

So, in random order:

- take good care of yourself, sleep is important but if that is not possible, take extra hours of rest during the day. Good food, no alcohol or strong stimulants that take away your conscious observations

- spiritual helpers tend to appear when needed. Don't settle for anybody less than the highest possible level of awareness. Don't mess with lower energy spirits, they can deceive you easily. It takes some practice to recognize the good ones, but once you reach higher levels yourself, the lower ones won't bother disturbing you any longer.

- Take a lot of breaks. You're not in a hurry. Breaks can take months or even years. You really need periods of 'nothing' in between all the intense experiences. In those breaks, you can take a rest, and you can implement all the changes and insights in daily life before you're ready for the next move.

- It's easy to forget details, especially after intense spiritual experiences. So, write down your stuff. Ironically, this can also be wrong advice, as it depends on your personal path. Not so long ago, I had a series of intense past life dreams and when I considered writing them down, a voice in my head (my Higher Self?) made me understand that after reliving and processing those traumatic events, it was best to let go and forget. Writing it down would mean that I was still connected. (I did it anyway, despite this advice, just because they were so profoundly insightful for fears I have in this life).

- Grounding is so crucial. If your personality has problems with grounding, make an effort to do all kinds of grounding activities. And keep doing them for the rest of your life.

- 'Awakening' is a massive process but the turmoil will stop one day. Be prepared for that. The high-volume energies won't stay forever. After expansion, there will be implosion. This means that you no longer 'go out', but you'll go inside.

- Spiritual guides will always be available, their interactions won't cease. Their involvement will be adequate for your new stage. Maybe new ones pop up.

Yes. All your words are true. Grounding is also very important

 

[CMoulton]

Hello Charles. = )

Welcome to the forums!

I feel your post. I won't tell you I understand. But I will tell you that I've felt similar. It's reality shattering, like a cognitive dissonance of some sort. That such a reality exist, and here we are going on in our day to day.

I consider it a blessing, not a curse. That attitude is for each of us to decide. I am also prompted by numbers and angels. I feel a connection to the guidance system, and 14 is a personal number.

I have felt connected to multiple lives, even drawn to others alive right now in other parts of the world. A unique sensation I can not explain- like residing outside my normal awareness and feeling a type of omnipresence. And still, I believe I chose to incarnate into this particular family dynamic of mine for a reason.

I believe the individuation is not all we are but that it is to be cherished! In my eyes, it's a gift from this gracious host we call Earth.

It can be maddening because maybe we feel isolated, like we're here just having to get along with ordinary. But I believe I chose to be here for a reason, and the unique relationship with self is far from ordinary. Rather, I believe I am discovering as intended. And maybe this decided incarnation includes learning to communicate in ways that require we think beyond the confines of typical 3D experience, since we acknowledge there is indeed an unseen intelligence able to communicate with our innermost thoughts and reflect itself in the world around us.

My final thoughts... You are not alone. All belonging to One. It's okay to be the unique personality we are today. All for a reason. I believe we are learning in more ways than what society teaches us- and what society teaches is surface level compared to the depths of what Nature has to offer. I am told simply being open and operating from a place of Love is more than enough.

Your Faith in your experience has rewarded you in kind and I believe we will continue to grow alongside that, forevermore!

This is so true. And it is good to know that I am not alone. We are all in this together.

 

[CMoulton]

I'm a little late to this party, but the last 2-3 years have been one massive spiritual growth spurt after another for me. There have been times where I have felt like I am perceiving multiple layers of time and space and reality all at once, and the mortal human brain was just not built to do that out of the box without some serious rewiring (hence all the growth spurts). You are so not alone in the joy and the particular brand of agony that is expansion beyond the limits of the world we learned when we were younger.

I find a lot of comfort and realignment in practicing qigong (traditional Chinese breathwork) to control my energy, and then focusing on just one aspect of what's coming up at a time. Sometimes that's difficult to do when it's all connected and where you pull on one thread here, another three hundred years away moves... but working with my mortal brain instead of against it by focusing in where I can has helped a lot.

I hope the past couple of months since you first posted this have been kind to you!

There is much of what you say that rings with me. Thank you.