My PL Memories of The 1930s NY (Part 3)
Hi All,
(I'll continue my story now by relating some of my after-death flashbacks)...Soon after remembering the details of how I died, I had some After-death flashbacks come to me and some of them were quite vivid in an emotional sense...Some of my AD memories and flashbacks were not as distinct as others and seemed almost dream-like, but they still seem real to me.
After I drown, I believe I went into a deep sleep until I was rested.(I don't remember going through a tunnel, or of going "to the light," but I imagine this must happened at the time of my death)...I remember waking up as if from a deep peaceful sleep. I was lying in shallow water near some reeds and the water felt warm...The area I was in was not familiar to me and, (since I didn't yet know that I was dead) I assumed that I must have drifted to another part of the creek...Suddenly I remembered my terrible ordeal and my struggle to stay alive and began reliving the intense fear and panic of my drowning...Just then, I was distracted by a man who was walking towards me. I seem to remember that this man had on a checkered shirt and was dressed like a fisherman. The man was not someone I recognized, but I got the feeling right away that he was a kind man and that he was very concerned about me...The man reached down and took my hand and asked if I was all right and he helped me up, and I walked out of the water...I distinctly remember thanking the man and telling him, "I almost drown." (I remember feeling extremely grateful that this man came to me when he did, as I was still very traumatized)...The kind man put his arm around me and told me he would take me home.
Some of my flashbacks about the conversation I had with this man as we walked along are not real clear, but I do remember that at some point along the way I began to feel very bouyant. I seemed to be bouncing along instead of walking, and my logic began to kick in then. I wondered why I no longer felt the pain in my head and why I didn't feel cold...I remember saying something to the man like, "why do I feel so light, and why am I bouncing up and down when I walk."
As I remember the man just turned to me and smiled and the look he gave me told me he knew, yet he said nothing...I got up all my nerve after that and I asked the man, "am I dead?" He then turned to me and gave me such a warm reassuring smile and his eyes were so full of love that I wasn't afraid, and I think he answered me in my mind.
My AD memories skip then to a time when I'm a ball of light flying along with a larger circle or ball of light that seemed like a father figure. The light (or spirit) seemed to me to be masculine, like a very loving and wise father. I knew he was guiding me and taking me somewhere where I needed to go. I was aware that we had just left a place of great peace and beauty (it seemed like it could have been another planet or another plane of existence)...I seem to remember that this "father spirit" encircled me, so that I could travel with him at a very high speed, and I knew that we were going back in time...I remember we went down into a dark place and then I saw the home where I had lived before I died. I seemed to know that the reason my home was surrounded in darkness was because of all the sadness and grief caused by my death. I knew I had to face the darkness and experience the pain my family had endured following my death and that I had to be brave in order to do this.
As I entered my (former) home, in spirit form, and I could see my family going about there business as if nothing had happened. I soon realized that the time period was after my death, but before my family was aware of my accident and death...I knew that my family was waiting for me to come home so they could eat supper. I could see, and hear conversations and I could also feel the emotions of my family members at times...I remember my brother Johnny being told to go out looking for me and I was right with him as he searched the neighborhood. I could feel Johnny growing angry when he couldn't find me and I remember thinking how sorry he would be later when he found out what had happened to me.
Next I had flashbacks of the terrible pain my family experienced that night when I never came home.-- I was drawn into the intense painful emotions of worry, fear and panic my family went through that awful night... I would also find myself back up on the branch of the tree at times, reliving my fear and panic as the branch broke...I even had a flashback of wishing I could stay back in time (before the branch broke) and change my actions so that my family wouldn't have to suffer.
I also had some vivid painful flashbacks of the following day (soon before my body was discovered)...I saw my mother carrying a sweater in case someone found me and I was cold...I knew there were men searching for me in the creek area. I could see my brother Johnny looking for me in the creek area too. I seemed to be drifting or being pulled, (in spirit) from one place to another and being drawn into waves or emotional pools of worry fear, sadness and disbelief etc...I remember being worried that my brother Johnny (who was only about 12 yrs. old at the time) might find my body. The "father spirit" came to me then and told me to stay close to my brother and try to make him feel my presence at the spot where he was, so that he wouldn't go further down the creek to where my body had drifted...I seem to remember that my sweater had been found in the location where my brother was...I could feel Johnny's emotions as if they were my own. He was crying and he was SO scared. He kept praying to Jesus to help him find me *alive*.-- It was so hard for me to see and feel what Johnny was going through, and knowing he would then have to go through even more pain after he found that I had died.( I cried and cried when I had these flashbacks and I still cry when I relive these painful memories).
Next I remember the "father spirit" calling my name and telling me that the men had found my body. After I heard this, I drifted as if being pulled by a current to where my body had just been found...My body was still in the water, floating on the surface. I remember viewing my body from way up high in the air and it seemed strange and unreal...I remember that there were a lot of people around, but thankfully my brother wasn't there...
I'll continue on with my AD memories in my next post on this thread (Part 3).
In Love & Light,
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Lily~
Hi All,
(I'll continue my story now by relating some of my after-death flashbacks)...Soon after remembering the details of how I died, I had some After-death flashbacks come to me and some of them were quite vivid in an emotional sense...Some of my AD memories and flashbacks were not as distinct as others and seemed almost dream-like, but they still seem real to me.
After I drown, I believe I went into a deep sleep until I was rested.(I don't remember going through a tunnel, or of going "to the light," but I imagine this must happened at the time of my death)...I remember waking up as if from a deep peaceful sleep. I was lying in shallow water near some reeds and the water felt warm...The area I was in was not familiar to me and, (since I didn't yet know that I was dead) I assumed that I must have drifted to another part of the creek...Suddenly I remembered my terrible ordeal and my struggle to stay alive and began reliving the intense fear and panic of my drowning...Just then, I was distracted by a man who was walking towards me. I seem to remember that this man had on a checkered shirt and was dressed like a fisherman. The man was not someone I recognized, but I got the feeling right away that he was a kind man and that he was very concerned about me...The man reached down and took my hand and asked if I was all right and he helped me up, and I walked out of the water...I distinctly remember thanking the man and telling him, "I almost drown." (I remember feeling extremely grateful that this man came to me when he did, as I was still very traumatized)...The kind man put his arm around me and told me he would take me home.
Some of my flashbacks about the conversation I had with this man as we walked along are not real clear, but I do remember that at some point along the way I began to feel very bouyant. I seemed to be bouncing along instead of walking, and my logic began to kick in then. I wondered why I no longer felt the pain in my head and why I didn't feel cold...I remember saying something to the man like, "why do I feel so light, and why am I bouncing up and down when I walk."
As I remember the man just turned to me and smiled and the look he gave me told me he knew, yet he said nothing...I got up all my nerve after that and I asked the man, "am I dead?" He then turned to me and gave me such a warm reassuring smile and his eyes were so full of love that I wasn't afraid, and I think he answered me in my mind.
My AD memories skip then to a time when I'm a ball of light flying along with a larger circle or ball of light that seemed like a father figure. The light (or spirit) seemed to me to be masculine, like a very loving and wise father. I knew he was guiding me and taking me somewhere where I needed to go. I was aware that we had just left a place of great peace and beauty (it seemed like it could have been another planet or another plane of existence)...I seem to remember that this "father spirit" encircled me, so that I could travel with him at a very high speed, and I knew that we were going back in time...I remember we went down into a dark place and then I saw the home where I had lived before I died. I seemed to know that the reason my home was surrounded in darkness was because of all the sadness and grief caused by my death. I knew I had to face the darkness and experience the pain my family had endured following my death and that I had to be brave in order to do this.
As I entered my (former) home, in spirit form, and I could see my family going about there business as if nothing had happened. I soon realized that the time period was after my death, but before my family was aware of my accident and death...I knew that my family was waiting for me to come home so they could eat supper. I could see, and hear conversations and I could also feel the emotions of my family members at times...I remember my brother Johnny being told to go out looking for me and I was right with him as he searched the neighborhood. I could feel Johnny growing angry when he couldn't find me and I remember thinking how sorry he would be later when he found out what had happened to me.
Next I had flashbacks of the terrible pain my family experienced that night when I never came home.-- I was drawn into the intense painful emotions of worry, fear and panic my family went through that awful night... I would also find myself back up on the branch of the tree at times, reliving my fear and panic as the branch broke...I even had a flashback of wishing I could stay back in time (before the branch broke) and change my actions so that my family wouldn't have to suffer.
I also had some vivid painful flashbacks of the following day (soon before my body was discovered)...I saw my mother carrying a sweater in case someone found me and I was cold...I knew there were men searching for me in the creek area. I could see my brother Johnny looking for me in the creek area too. I seemed to be drifting or being pulled, (in spirit) from one place to another and being drawn into waves or emotional pools of worry fear, sadness and disbelief etc...I remember being worried that my brother Johnny (who was only about 12 yrs. old at the time) might find my body. The "father spirit" came to me then and told me to stay close to my brother and try to make him feel my presence at the spot where he was, so that he wouldn't go further down the creek to where my body had drifted...I seem to remember that my sweater had been found in the location where my brother was...I could feel Johnny's emotions as if they were my own. He was crying and he was SO scared. He kept praying to Jesus to help him find me *alive*.-- It was so hard for me to see and feel what Johnny was going through, and knowing he would then have to go through even more pain after he found that I had died.( I cried and cried when I had these flashbacks and I still cry when I relive these painful memories).
Next I remember the "father spirit" calling my name and telling me that the men had found my body. After I heard this, I drifted as if being pulled by a current to where my body had just been found...My body was still in the water, floating on the surface. I remember viewing my body from way up high in the air and it seemed strange and unreal...I remember that there were a lot of people around, but thankfully my brother wasn't there...
I'll continue on with my AD memories in my next post on this thread (Part 3).
In Love & Light,
------------------
Lily~
