I feel the same, especially since I know I'm trying for "provable" and "confirmation" all the time now, instead of just letting things happen as they will. Since Mica told me about her dream matching mine, I've been too involved in "finding proof" instead of learning.
I think a lot of this confusion is because I started unconsciously feeling regressing was like "school" and "passing tests" for proving things to others or even just myself, as is always expected in the surface world.
I'm learning to accept my seemingly careless mode of just-being and following the paths that open. It's clear I learned so much more than my teachers ever taught even though I was punished for being distracted in class. In fact, their discipline prevented me from learning even more.
Seeing how wrong their opinion of me was back then is helping me to recognize the value of who I am now.
Last night guidance told me that I do have "provable" lives, but I shouldn't even try to view them right now because I'll just distort and add information under my current mental pressure.
I'm supposed to explore and learn to be who I am instead of trying to fulfill random expectations. Apparently, I'm going to relax, soon, and then it will come naturally.
Since I started listening to him (though I didn't know who it was) several years ago, I've eliminated many confining and destructive lies from my life, so I expect he's right about this, too.