I can't speak for Moonbeam but I do think I might be able to help you as well. I've been reading and re-reading your posts (and the others) about your daughter and thinking deeply about them, even doing some research on your behalf before speaking up.
I am in late stage cardiopulmonary failure and am a patient at the University of Virginia Medical Center~Transplant Program. I won't bore you with myself, though, as it matters not here. I just want you to know that I DO know from whence I speak.
The first heart transplant was done in South Africa in 1967. The patient died shortly thereafter of pnuemonia and was male. The next transplant took place in the USA in 1981. Even now, wherever it is done, heart transplants are not done until the patient is in the late stage of heart disease. All heart related illness from birth defects (like mine) to actual disease are referred to as disease.
For most patients, this means we spend years dying, usually months if not years knowing about it in advance. Next to the physical requirements, the most important requirement to admission into a transplant program, especially heart, lung, or heart/lung is the psycological aspects. We literally must have a very determined will to live, to love life.
Since most heart disease patients die within a short time of learning about their illness, that we survive beyond our 'death sentence' is a strong determining factor in our favors.
These things mean that if you daughter had been a heart transplant patient, it would not have been long ago, most likely less than 20 years, and she would be one who loves life. That is, mind you don't trip on the pun, heartening.
Further evidence for this is that regressionists claim that people who suicide or die by violence DO NOT tend to return quickly as has been a popular myth. They tend, instead, to be among those who wait longer as if not wanting to return.
Actually, that makes a lot more sense than the myth which made none. It is those who love life and those with 'unfinished business' but an inability to return to the same body who return quickly. They are also among those who are born CLOSEST to their spiritual selves and their karmic memories.
In your daughter's case, that is very enlightening information. She fits the mold as though it were made for her as one who loved life, returned quickly (regressionists define it as less than 15 earthly years) and retains a strong connection to her karmic memories.
Your daughter displays intense trauma. I can relate. Again, this goes back to her most recent life if she was indeed a transplant patient. Under these circumstances, dying is easy. It is a living death that is hard, extremely hard, and it would be what she experienced. Tiring easily, short of breathe to the point of a constant feeling of suffocation, medications and side effects, fear of 'getting sick' even with a cold or the flu, and worst of all you can FEEL your body slowly deteriorating so that we often say to each other that we can feel our bodies dying alittle more everyday.
It hangs over your head like a poised piano, swinging gently on a thin rope. Patients on the list (you aren't even placed 'on the list' until you are very near death) and for heart patients it meant bedridden. Many patients start taking anti-rejection drugs when they are placed on the list. These have some really nasty side effects. I went through a course twice to test my reactions.
Waiting and waiting. Finally, a donor match and surgery. All kinds of issues pop up now. The initial survival rate wasn't high. The anti-rejection drugs weren't as good as they are now and they aren't that great now. Patients lose their immune system and the threat of infection is another poised piano. In 3-5 years, half of all are dead. Another 3-5 years and 80% died. Heart transplant is barely beyond exchanging one ailment for another in 2000.
The point I am trying to make is how incredibly traumatic this would be. When someone goes through a very traumatic experience even when they do not remember the details, the emotions remain. Your daughter, being so close to her spiritual karmic memories may be bringing up lots of past life death memories because of that closeness to the 'between lives existence' when we touch upon and incorporate our most recent life experiences with all of our others.
From your posts, it sounds as if she is trying very hard (with great spunk and spirit as I would fully expect) to work out her trauma. Right now, she is 'matter-of-fact' about it. This is very normal, even typical. She is trying to separate her emotions, which she is having trouble with, from the events themselves.
One thing it was difficult to get across is that a quick death, even if it is brutal, can be preferrable than a very long, lingering, and psycological devastating death. It can be especially difficult for those who'd always been healthy up until their illness suddenly took hold. In fact, it almost ALWAYS is the case.
If any of this applys to your daughter, she has a strong and determined will and a great love of life. She would also have to have very powerful coping skills. In addition to your own guidance and help in making her feel secure, it would really help if her father could also add an extra security blanket. I don't mean that he isn't, just that you haven't mentioned it and, where a little girl is concerned, by age three, she already sees mother as nurturing and father as the strong protector.
I don't mean you aren't doing everything right because you are, you're doing great. I can tell because she opens up and talks to you. Dads, well, MY Dad slew dragons and he's the guy who hung the moon in case you wonder how it got up there
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Lastly, I can do a past life Tarot reading for her. I've had lots of time on my hands since I've been stuck hanging out at home all of the time. I spent four years just learning the meanings of all 78 cards. Usually, I do a past life, a celtic cross for current issues and I can do a Tarot Astrology which is by NO MEANS as extensive or as concise as Moonbeams so I'll hope along with you that she can help you out too.
You let me know, tell me about her so I can picture her in mind. Tarot doesn't tell me things like what her favorite color is or whether or not she likes vegetables, you know. You can email me if you'd like. I would certainly email the readings because those are strictly private stuff.
My Blessings, Kat
