• Thank you to Carol and Steve Bowman, the forum owners, for our new upgrade!

My Lives As A Writer

tiltjlp

A Recycled Soul
I've shared this privately with a few folks, since I'm not much on posting this sort of thing on the open forum. For whatever reason, decided to give it a shot, so here goes.

Almost from birth, there was evidence that I probably have had past lives as a number of writers. As soon as I could talk, I had a much larger than normal vocabulary, and spoke in sentences very early. I was creative and inventive as early as I recall. The first time I held a pencil, I knew without prompting how to hold it, and found the smell of oilcloth exhilarating beyond words. When I began writing, I seemed to know both grammar and punctuation instinctively. When I started writing poetry at 6 or 7, I had no trouble with meter and rhyme, although I much preferred free verse. I’ve always been able to “write to page”, which isn’t very easy, without any effort. My parents were Catholic, so most of this was ignored or shrugged off as it relates to any past life connection. I started what I later found out was meditation probably when I was between 5 or 6, and which has always been a link to what I write.

The dreams which eventually made me wonder if I had been Merlin The Magician, who of course wasn’t a magician but an alchemist, or what was often known as a wizard, began when I was between 18 months and two years old. By then I had been finishing stories my parents read to me, and going off on my own to make up my own stories. I was also printing my first “rough drafts” of what would be the first stories I’d write. By the age of three I was able to read the beginner books my parents had been reading to me. Because I was born in December, I started school late, and constantly got in trouble in kindergarten because I was utterly bored. So within months I was promoted to the first grade, which was much more to my liking. That teacher noticed I could write, or print, I guess, and began encouraging me. When I began second grade, I was thrilled to find out that teacher was still going to be my teacher. She’s the person who got my first article published, in a new scholastic magazine.

Now for those dreams, which were actually Imprintings and Instant Knowledge, which only made things more confusing. Almost overnight I started knowing about and being quite interested in castles, knights, moats, jousting. Dreams I did have were of a tall, thin, gaunt, bearded man working in a large room which had a furnace with a roaring fire at all times. I remember seeing this person mixing all sorts of things from small boxes and bottles, and that many of these mixtures caused the fire to either increase or even explode. About this time, my playmates and I discovered, just as my older brother and his friends had, a large hilly wooded lot just up and catty-corner to our house and yard. Within that lot was an almost cave-like grotto cut into the side of the hill. This became where we all played most of the time. I’m extremely shy and introverted, as I was then, but when we played Castles & Knights, I always took the lead. I would make up scenarios and assign roles to my playmates, and even would explain in very simple terms what knights, castles, moats, drawbridges, and so forth were. Rather than taking the role of the leader or king, or a hero, I was the Wizard and made up the rules as we played out our games. While I was in charge when we played Castles & Knights, whenever we played anything else, I was pushed around and bullied like I usually was.

Maybe a year or so later, we discovered another vacant lot, this one with a gully and a dried-up creek bed and hanging vines. This also became part of our Castles & Knights game, and yes, I was in charge of this too. By then I knew about the Knight Of The Round Table, and we would stage all kinds of challenges and contests.

Four-six months ago, I told all this to MoonDansyr, and joked that I had a past life as a legendary fictional character. She was stunned that I had never considered I might have been Geoffrey of Monmouth in a past life. Geoffrey of Monmouth happens to be the writer/monk [1100-1155] who brought all the old Welsh and British legends together, modernized the King Arthur stories, and added Merlin to the plot. Now if my memories had been of King Arthur, I might have made a connection, but my memories were of Merlin, who in the late 1940s, early 1950s, was still a very minor part of the entire legend.

At her urging, I did use investigating, and found that yes, Geoffrey of Monmouth did actually begin the modern King Arthur legend as we know it today. But I also uncovered a William of Malmesbury, who lived roughly in the same era, but a bit after Geoffrey of Monmouth. William of Malmesbury was also a Welsh monk just like Geoffrey of Monmouth, and that threw me for a loop. But as I dug deeper, I found that William of Malmesbury embellished the work of Geoffrey of Monmouth, and changed the flavor and character of much of Geoffrey of Monmouth’s original work. As far as I can tell, all my memories would have had their roots in the work of Geoffrey of Monmouth.

Since I seldom have traditional past life dreams or any memories like most of you do, I had to rely on Imprinting and Instant Knowledge. But while I was wavering between Geoffrey of Monmouth and William of Malmesbury, my dreams from more than 50 years ago began again, and somehow I’m sure that they connect to Geoffrey of Monmouth. Several other things I’ve found out in my research, or that I had known support this conclusion. From the 8th until well into the 13th century, monks were as much historians and writers as they were scribes, and their communities were probably the first “writer’s colonies”. Plus, several earlier past lives I’ve had were also as monks/scribes, and a number of later ones have been as writers, as well as one as a book store owner/writer in Britain in the late 17th-early 18th century. And yes, blame MoonDansyr for this post!!

John
 
Wonderful post, John!

It doesn't surprise me at all that your past lives would include writing, considering the beautiful poetry you've written.

Thank you so much for sharing -- I'll look forward to hearing more about this life and whatever you happen to discover!



Aili :D
 
:o Gosh thanks! ;)

I find it all very interesting, though and I'm like Ailish ... very eager to hear anymore details that you feel like tossing our way.
 
MoonDansyr said:
:o Gosh thanks! ;)

I find it all very interesting, though and I'm like Ailish ... very eager to hear anymore details that you feel like tossing our way.

Well, seeing that this one took 50 years to get all lined up right, it might be a while. It must be nice to have normal PL dreams.

John
 
Hey John,

Most of my memories are not all that nice either! :) Be careful what you wish for. So much blood and guts! So much tragedy and heartbreak! Yeech! I am enjoying my nice, quiet, respectable life this time around thank you very much.

Thanks for your story. Tell us more about Merlin. Might he have been based, however loosely, on someone you knew from that time? The last of the Druids? That kind of thing? Christianity was still a fairly new thing in Britain about that time, unless I am wrong. I'll bet there were a lot of people around who still clung to the 'old religion'.

I have always been fascinated by Merlin and Morgan La Fay.
 
tanguerra said:
Hey John,

Most of my memories are not all that nice either! :) Be careful what you wish for. So much blood and guts! So much tragedy and heartbreak! Yeech! I am enjoying my nice, quiet, respectable life this time around thank you very much.

Thanks for your story. Tell us more about Merlin. Might he have been based, however loosely, on someone you knew from that time? The last of the Druids? That kind of thing? Christianity was still a fairly new thing in Britain about that time, unless I am wrong. I'll bet there were a lot of people around who still clung to the 'old religion'.

I have always been fascinated by Merlin and Morgan La Fay.

I'll see what I can recall about Merlin from my dreams Tanguerra, but except for a few snippets six months ago, they're over 55 years old now. From what I do recall, I’m pretty sure Merlin was a way to tie Welsh legends with a quasi-history. The frustrating thing is that while I receive the Knowledge and Imprints, I seldom get many of the smaller details. I do know, as you touched upon, that religion was a mix of old, new, mysticism, mythology, and the occult.

John
 
Oh well, I am sure if you ponder on it/ meditate on it something may come floating up. I was thinking yesterday, after writing to you that it would be 'funny' if Geoffrey of Monmouth was accessing an earlier memory of an even more ancient time when the real Arthur and Merlin (or at least their flesh and blood templates) were alive. This might have been why he would have been drawn to that era and written about it with such gusto that the stories still live on today.

Sometimes I am sure that various writers and artists of different stripes are using their own past life recalls to construct historical stories in great detail with enormous emotion and 'portent'. I am sure these make the best stories, because they have that authentic feel.

I often wonder if the people who work in the movies doing the battle scenes, costumes and so forth are somehow reliving. That sort of job strikes me as terrific fun. Phoenix was saying elsewhere that she is sure that the people involved in historical reinactments of the civil war and so forth are having fun at the same time as reliving past memories, even though they don't always realise it.

I was watching the making-of bits of the Lord of the Rings a little while back and I think those guys had 'way too much' fun making all those weapons, armour and choreographing the fights and stunts and so on. I think that would be a dream job for me - all the fun side of mucking around with swords and horses and things without any real blood. Maybe next life? :)
 
That could well be true Tanguerra, since in a very real way we writers tend to write "what we know". That couldn't be truer than with me; I've spent most of my life writing about my childhood memories. Geoffrey of Monmouth literally used both Welsh history and Welsh and Norse legend to write his "History Of The British Isles", which was just a fictionalized updating of the past. I have a sense that Merlin came from a very minor character that was embellished to spark more interest in his work, and to provide more plot possibilities.

Morgan La Fay is the creation of someone else, and she definitely would not have been involved with Merlin, at least not as Geoffrey of Monmouth envisioned him, which was nearly saintly and above all that. While Merlin was called a Magician, mystic would be a more accurate term. Anyway, I’ve always felt that legends have at least as much fact to them as folklore. If I uncover anything else, I'll be sure to post it here.

John
 
Sometimes I am sure that various writers and artists of different stripes are using their own past life recalls to construct historical stories in great detail with enormous emotion and 'portent'.

I definately think that is true. It seems strange that someone would have interest in the distant past enough to put so much effort into writing about it unless they had lived then. I can see alot of my past lives in my fictional ideas, either being set in the past, or sometimes having the same plotline but modernized or put into the future.

I often wonder if the people who work in the movies doing the battle scenes, costumes and so forth are somehow reliving. That sort of job strikes me as terrific fun.

Recently I saw the movie "The New World", and in the making of feature one of the pilgrim actors mentioned that, "if there's reincarnation, then perhaps we were these guys." I would be curious to find out how many re-enactors and actors believe they are living out a past life story when they re-enact history.

Geoffrey of Monmouth literally used both Welsh history and Welsh and Norse legend to write his "History Of The British Isles", which was just a fictionalized updating of the past.

I remember when we had read that in my Medieval Literature class. Our teacher had mentioned that for centuries people in England had been taught a false history about King Arthur conquering most of Europe. Almost makes me wonder, if we were taught a falsified history, would we feel it to be false based on our past lives then. Maybe that is the reason so many feel drawn to the King Arthur legend. They were probably real people though, so it wouldn't surprize me if those who wrote the legend had known the real life individuals in an earlier life and simply embellished on the tale to fill in the gaps.
 
zetascair20086 said:
I remember when we had read that in my Medieval Literature class. Our teacher had mentioned that for centuries people in England had been taught a false history about King Arthur conquering most of Europe. Almost makes me wonder, if we were taught a falsified history, would we feel it to be false based on our past lives then. Maybe that is the reason so many feel drawn to the King Arthur legend. They were probably real people though, so it wouldn't surprize me if those who wrote the legend had known the real life individuals in an earlier life and simply embellished on the tale to fill in the gaps.

Yes, that often was the case. Or at least they knew the era, circumstances, and lore well enough to be able to piece together enough facts to make their writings ring authentic. And yes, Arthur and all the rest come from real flesh and blood people dating back almost into antiquity. But just as today, writers have always taken what somehow has become known as poetic license.

John
 
I often wonder if the people who work in the movies doing the battle scenes, costumes and so forth are somehow reliving. That sort of job strikes me as terrific fun. Phoenix was saying elsewhere that she is sure that the people involved in historical reinactments of the civil war and so forth are having fun at the same time as reliving past memories, even though they don't always realise it.

It must be fun to playfully relive events that were originally hideously traumatic (my brother-in-law is a dedicated Civil War reenactor).
 
I think the same thing about writers of historical novels...I'm sure the ones that are so in depth are somehow related to their own past experience. One obvious one to me is Donald Coldsmith and his Native American books. His words seem to leap from experience!!
Tinkerman
 
tanguerra said:
I often wonder if the people who work in the movies doing the battle scenes, costumes and so forth are somehow reliving. That sort of job strikes me as terrific fun. Phoenix was saying elsewhere that she is sure that the people involved in historical reinactments of the civil war and so forth are having fun at the same time as reliving past memories, even though they don't always realise it.

There are evidence to support this - Barbara Lane has regressed a bunch of both medieval reenactors and Civil War reenactors. All had lives during the period, but not exactly as they would have imagnied before, so it wasn't pure imagination. From Rabbi Yonassan Gershom's review at Amazon for "Echoes from the Battlefield";
"Most impressive were a number of instances where the past-life memories seemed "wrong" according to what the re-enactors thought they "should be," but were later shown to be accurate according actual historical records."

Her other book on the subject is "Echoes from Medieval Halls"
 
John,

Thanks for the excellent and enlightening post. I'm also a writer. The emotional process of producing a book or other work is always very intense. The best way I can think of putting it is that for the born writer, it is both a joy and a compulsion, often an agonizing compulsion. I wonder how it was for Geoffrey of Monmouth?

Is there a past life connection? None of my present-life ancestors were writers--but neither were any of the past lives I have discovered so far. There's so much about who we are that we'll never really understand.

Tanguerra, on re-enactors, I have worked a lot with them, and I think they are just wonderful people. They are really like grown-up children--obsessed a little, but still children! I think for many of them there must be a PL connection.

Lonewolf
 
Back
Top