Ileana
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I found this forum as a friend shown me it and I thought of sharing my story about one of my past life that I came to know more and more well with years. I have remember many past lives and some has effect me more and more. But this one was the first one I truly accepted was one of my past lives and one that I come to terms with more and more with years and to try and heal from. I been having fears of speaking about it openly to people, as I know how people sometimes judge people so well on another person having a past life that has a famous life. I am not writing this for fame or fortune or to make any profit out of this and has never thought of it in that way. I write about it because I want to in away have closer on this and maybe try and find my siblings and parents. For me it all started back when I was a little girl I hated wearing pants and very few times I worn them. I prefer dress and skirts and still to this day do. Nothing below my knees and I also worn stocking during summers which my mother always thought weird and strange. But something that struck me most of all is my first memory I had a constant dream for several years and it was as clear to me as a day that I shared a room with some that was a bit older then me. I was then a small child and I had these dreams for several years. Even as a five year old I had a vision of a lady standing looking into my window from outside our house. The only thing was that no one should be able to look into my bedroom as my bedroom is on the second floor and no one could stand outside that window without going through our terrace roof that is just made of thin plastic and not solid enough to let a person stand on there.
I did not pay much attention to it all for many years and back in 6th grade we started learning about religions of the world and reincarnation was brought up and to me it sounded interesting to learn about it. I tried to puzzle it all together and some years went around and then I got to learn about the French and Russian revolution, I only learn about French revolution and one day I sat flipping through my history book and came to the chapter of the Russian revolution and a picture of the last Imperial family of Russia was on one side and I recognise their faces in the picture. And I started to read about them and find a forum about them and all their relatives and a picture struck me the most of all with familiarity. It was from 1914 during the Romanovs visit to Romania and to the Royal family there and it was a picture taken of Tsesarevich Alexei of Russia and his cousin Princess Ileana and Prince Nicholae of Romania together and Ileana is hugging her cousin Alexei tightly onboard the Imperial yacht Standart. I remember being hit with a huge emotions from that picture and I did not understand why I felt the way I did. I started reading a bit of Ileana and the more and more I saw pictures and reading about her I became more and more convince I was her in the past. I have always been having a very special feeling about religion, I never seen myself as following a specific religion, but I been having a lot of feeling that has lean towards the Christian belief and most toward the Orthodox church and religions service has always been special to me. Ileana was in later years living her life in a monastery as Mother Alexandra. But also the places she lived was so familiar. Most of all was Queen Marie's bedroom at Cotroceni Palace that struck me in such a familiarity. I did take a regression and I was hit with so many flashes of that life. One time was of dance with a boy little older then me then and I stepped on his toes to be taller. I even got flashes of sailing and being surround a lot children . When I did accept it in away I started getting more and more memories of being in fear of things and of having to put up a face for people.
I did not pay much attention to it all for many years and back in 6th grade we started learning about religions of the world and reincarnation was brought up and to me it sounded interesting to learn about it. I tried to puzzle it all together and some years went around and then I got to learn about the French and Russian revolution, I only learn about French revolution and one day I sat flipping through my history book and came to the chapter of the Russian revolution and a picture of the last Imperial family of Russia was on one side and I recognise their faces in the picture. And I started to read about them and find a forum about them and all their relatives and a picture struck me the most of all with familiarity. It was from 1914 during the Romanovs visit to Romania and to the Royal family there and it was a picture taken of Tsesarevich Alexei of Russia and his cousin Princess Ileana and Prince Nicholae of Romania together and Ileana is hugging her cousin Alexei tightly onboard the Imperial yacht Standart. I remember being hit with a huge emotions from that picture and I did not understand why I felt the way I did. I started reading a bit of Ileana and the more and more I saw pictures and reading about her I became more and more convince I was her in the past. I have always been having a very special feeling about religion, I never seen myself as following a specific religion, but I been having a lot of feeling that has lean towards the Christian belief and most toward the Orthodox church and religions service has always been special to me. Ileana was in later years living her life in a monastery as Mother Alexandra. But also the places she lived was so familiar. Most of all was Queen Marie's bedroom at Cotroceni Palace that struck me in such a familiarity. I did take a regression and I was hit with so many flashes of that life. One time was of dance with a boy little older then me then and I stepped on his toes to be taller. I even got flashes of sailing and being surround a lot children . When I did accept it in away I started getting more and more memories of being in fear of things and of having to put up a face for people.
. Loved reading your memories and what you remember! Hope you would like to share more 
