dking777
Senior Registered
Watching the video "The Ghost Inside My Child" sparked recall when one of the Mother's spoke about her child referencing another Mother from before. I have read about this online and heard professionals speak about this, but - I have never seen an actual Mother speak about it with an emotional response. That is what triggered recall of my relationship with my own Mom. I forgot about my 'childhood' when I turned 18, but my Mom would never let me forget "the hardship it was to get you to address me properly by calling me Mom." I swear I never heard the end of it - even as an adult. The 'hurt feelings' stayed with her long after I had forgotten about it. When I posted on the other thread - I wrote about not wanting to 'disrespect' the memories of a 'former Mom' in another life. I went through stages and phases as a child. That was just one stage of it. Another stage was the fact that I could recall spending a 'past life' with my Mom - when we didn't have a Mother/Son relationship. I tried to speak to her about it - and as a child - I was totally amazed that she had forgotten about 'that time before.' I thought it was one of those 'adult' themes that grown-ups didn't talk to children about because I can recall saying to her many times - "how in the world can you forget something like that?"
Of course, now (as an adult) many of those 'memories' are now buried in my own mind and separated by a fog in the unconscious realm of mind.
As a child, my Mom wouldn't acknowledge the 'former body' her spirit once walked with - so - I came up with another approach. I was standing with her in the backyard prior to grade school so - I was about 5 years old at the time. She was hanging out clothes on a clothes line to dry. In my childish way I was trying to avoid the type of conversation that would have her throwing her hands in the air and telling me to stop talking about it. So - I asked her,
"What about that time I came to see you when you was you and I wasn't in your belly yet? When I was like a fly - flying around."
I was referencing a time when she was just a young girl around 14 years of age. I described her and described the clothes she was wearing. I went on to describe the place I saw her.
"You were crying that day because you had been hurt. You hid in that place for a long time and cried thinking you was alone because you couldn't see me. I was with you the whole time trying to let you know how much I loved you."
This got my Mom's attention. She could recall that day and the incident that caused her so much pain. She asked how it was that she couldn't see me. It was an old building like a shed with gaps between the boards and knot holes in the planks. From my childhood perspective - I was constantly 'flying' through the gaps and holes in an 'orb' of light. I then told her,
"I think you must have heard me some how because you said........."
When I told my Mom what I could recall her saying that day when she was only 14 years old - she stopped and froze looking off into space for awhile. She shook her head and then asked,
"How do you do that Son? You almost got me to thinking you was actually there with your Momma, but that is impossible. You wasn't even thought of yet, much less born yet. I must have said something to you about it when you was a baby and your recalling what I said to you. Now - it is like a memory to you. That is the only explanation for it."
I have many memories where my parents looked for a rational and logical explanation for 'reincarnation' and other spiritual themes. I feel that many of the times I refused to call my Mother 'Mom' had to do with memories of past life memories I had of her from another life time.
Sincerely,
DKing
Of course, now (as an adult) many of those 'memories' are now buried in my own mind and separated by a fog in the unconscious realm of mind.
As a child, my Mom wouldn't acknowledge the 'former body' her spirit once walked with - so - I came up with another approach. I was standing with her in the backyard prior to grade school so - I was about 5 years old at the time. She was hanging out clothes on a clothes line to dry. In my childish way I was trying to avoid the type of conversation that would have her throwing her hands in the air and telling me to stop talking about it. So - I asked her,
"What about that time I came to see you when you was you and I wasn't in your belly yet? When I was like a fly - flying around."
I was referencing a time when she was just a young girl around 14 years of age. I described her and described the clothes she was wearing. I went on to describe the place I saw her.
"You were crying that day because you had been hurt. You hid in that place for a long time and cried thinking you was alone because you couldn't see me. I was with you the whole time trying to let you know how much I loved you."
This got my Mom's attention. She could recall that day and the incident that caused her so much pain. She asked how it was that she couldn't see me. It was an old building like a shed with gaps between the boards and knot holes in the planks. From my childhood perspective - I was constantly 'flying' through the gaps and holes in an 'orb' of light. I then told her,
"I think you must have heard me some how because you said........."
When I told my Mom what I could recall her saying that day when she was only 14 years old - she stopped and froze looking off into space for awhile. She shook her head and then asked,
"How do you do that Son? You almost got me to thinking you was actually there with your Momma, but that is impossible. You wasn't even thought of yet, much less born yet. I must have said something to you about it when you was a baby and your recalling what I said to you. Now - it is like a memory to you. That is the only explanation for it."
I have many memories where my parents looked for a rational and logical explanation for 'reincarnation' and other spiritual themes. I feel that many of the times I refused to call my Mother 'Mom' had to do with memories of past life memories I had of her from another life time.
Sincerely,
DKing
