That's a cool experience. I'm not saying there is no 'other side' or that it's not beautiful. I'm saying I don't buy the whole 'heaven and hell' thing.
In the olden days, I'm talking neolithic, people believed that the Earth was our mother and when we died, we returned to her. They imagined an afterlife that took place underground, not in the sky as we do now. They knew the souls of their ancestors were 'somewhere' because they felt they could communicate with them, sense their presence and so on, just as we do today. People would bury their loved ones under their houses to keep them close by. To them the Earth was a place of warmth and safety, like being in your mother's womb. The ancient Greeks also imagined an afterlife underground (Hades). It wasn't a place of torment or anything like that. It was just the 'land of the dead'.
Later, things began to change. I don't know why exactly, but people began to worship sky gods. Jehovah, the precursor to the Christian 'God' (however you conceive her) is a sky god. He is based on Zarathustra, who was a much older middle eastern sun god. The Egyptians also worshipped various sky gods and imagined an afterlife somewhere 'up there' in the sky. So did the vikings.
So, when Christianity came to Europe, this idea of an afterlife in the sky came with it. The concept of an afterlife underground was something from the old religions and was considered pagan and heretical. As we know the new church wanted to vilify anything to do with the old religions as 'devilish' so they came up with this whole 'hell' thing; a scary place where the pagan (horned) gods live and anyone who doesn't behave or conform, or go to church, or breaks a rule, goes there to be punished for all eternity. There is actually no mention of hell or eternal damnation or any of that in the Bible. Certainly Jesus never preached it. He preached love and forgiveness.
The whole 'hell thing' is just more medieval propaganda, supported by various mistranslations - often quite deliberate. It has more to say about the psychology of the people who ran the church in those times than what actually goes on in the 'afterlife' or the nature of God (however you conceive her).
https://www.christiancourier.com/articles/406-use-of-hell-in-the-new-testament-the
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hell
but then i have doubts as to wether god exists because to me it seems like he created us and just left us to destroy ourselves, he could make an apearence and say stop all the wars, murders, evil etc, and i think he just gave up on us..
Similarly, my conception of 'God' differs greatly from the standard view. I don't think God (however you conceive her) is doing all this, and is certainly not responsible for murders, or evil or any of that. People do those things of their own free will and can stop any time they choose.
I think 'God' (however you conceive her) is part of everything, in everything and everywhere. I don't picture Her as a divine puppet master. I see it more as the 'light' or 'love'. People have a 'feeling' that there is something out there and I'm sure there is. I don't think it's a man in a dress sitting on a cloud, reading our minds, keeping tabs on our misdeeds, shooting the occasional lightning bolt at 'bad guys' and granting the occasional wish to the 'good guys'. Again, I think that concept of God says more about the mindset of its authors than it does about actual reality.