Moon: how old is your daughter now? That’s just how i feel, like i miss childhood, actually i miss whatever age i just passed. I don’t know, im always saying my best days are behind me, which could also be PL related considering in my 09-48 life that’s exactly what they were. and perhaps in my next life as well (i wish i would recall things from that life). I always ask my parents how old they feel, my mom says she feels the same as she did at 16, i feel the same way i felt at 5, you know? I mean we physically age, and mentally age, but there is something within us that doesn’t age, I believe its our soul.
Hammy: Me too. I mean now i can figure out why i saw the life i did first, and not the life i soo long for in this life (1960's). I feel like i carried with me all of the issues with me into my next life, and dealt with some, but somewhat repeated the same life. I strongly feel i got into drugs in the late 60's, and by the 70's in got completely out of control (which is how i view the 70's, a good time, but a false good time, there was alot going on on the inside). I feel weird just saying this, but i have this fantasy (if you can call it that) of being addicted to drugs, I mean completely out of it, homeless, whoring and completely hitting rock bottom.... then overcoming it. I have no idea why, it’s sick to think about. But i feel it is PL related.(maybe thats what happened, but i never overcame it, so if i do it again and then overcome it, i will have accomplished something?) just to say i am completely against drinking and drugs in this life. I experimented once with marijuana but that’s because i wanted to, not for anyone else. People always try and get me to drink but i never have, and never will. it looks tempting, but i feel like, been there, done that, im mature now.
note, everything i mentioned about the 60's and 70's are just feelings and speculation as i have never completely regressed to that life. Just a split second in 1954 as a 5 year old. But like i said i think i had to go to the root, first, before going to the 60's. which was probably just a repeat in history. Though i would love to re experience the 60's again, i don’t know if its important. I would like to go back further someday, but right now i am focused on my 09-48 life. But from my latest regression it seems like i may be finished soon.
-Brant