• Thank you to Carol and Steve Bowman, the forum owners, for our new upgrade!

am i crazy???

Hi, this sounds like you are falling in love with this type of guy, which might indicate something subconscious (longing for someone from a PL, or just longing for someone with those specific qualities which you miss?) Also seems like you are very much into medieval times, which def indicates a past life in that era.
 
demi, thats exactly what it feels like, i miss him???? lol i feel like im losing the plot OMG, and zensar i tried looking up his family history and will look into again, atleast if all else fails im learning bits of history lol:thumbsup:


oh and all most forgot demi i was never into medieval times that much until a few months ago when i watched the film solomon kane, then it felt liked it awakend something or triggerd something :confused:
 
ZenSar said:
I still get the feeling Vlad might be the one to look into or one of this contemporaries of the day.
ZenSar, it's possible you have an affinity with the whole 'Vlad' thing?
 
Possibly, he is an interesting character in history. While vilified he did successful stop the Ottomans from invading Europe from the East, without him history would have been very different.
 
medieval queen said:
oh and all most forgot demi i was never into medieval times that much until a few months ago when i watched the film solomon kane, then it felt liked it awakened something or triggered something :confused:
This can happen! Just like regular memories, past life memories can be set off by something that reminds us of something else - like the smell of our grandmother's furniture polish, or finding an old toy in a box...


It often happens when there's something going on in your present life too. Have you recently met a new person of interest? Is there something bothering you in particular? You don't have to tell us all about your private life, but something to think about whether there might be a connection.
 
theres nothing that come to mind thats happening right now to why all this past life has stirred up?, however since i saw the masked man and the film it turned me upside down and is slowley dragging me to the dark side?, i found god a few years after a troubled childhood and going of the rails, but i changed for the good, married and had kids, i was a positive person and happy, but until a couple of months ago this film made me want to look up demons, ive bought loads of books and stuff, deamon tarots and pendulums, and crave to be with the masked man? its sound crazy i know i have no exlanation for it :confused:


maybe its worth a shot trying to contact the guy john bloomfield who designed the costume? try and find out were his inspiration came from to come up with this costume? because i cant find anything else like it on the internet! cover face
 
The best advice I can give is to say 'go within'. Love is really all there is. Everything else is a distraction. I wouldn't become obsessed with a movie right now. I doubt that that is the answer.


What do you want to do with your life right now? (Hint - it's nothing to do with what's on at the movies). You are the one who is in charge, although I know sometimes it might not feel like it, but it's the truth.


This life is always the important one right now and that is what needs your main focus. There may be things being stirred up in your subconscious - a sense of restlessness or unease or fear or insecurity. These things could have connections to the past. But, in the end you need to take charge of what you want and what you are doing right now with those you love. Nothing else is as important, although it might seem like fun. This is not a party game. This is life. This is 'real'.


I strongly suggest to use your imaginative powers to seek out 'the light'. Connect with what is good in your life and make sure you don't let go of that. These are the important things in life. Truly. Deeply.


Maybe just give it all a rest for a week or two and reconnect with the 'real' world, then revisit it when you feel clear again?


Stay calm. Regroup. Think on things with seriousness. All will be well.
 
medieval queen said:
... ive bought loads of books and stuff, deamon tarots and pendulums, and crave to be with the masked man? its sound crazy i know i have no exlanation for it :confused:
Put all the books and things away for the moment. You don't need them. Just relax and focus on the love and the light in your life.


Don't be afraid. You'll be OK.
 
thanks tanguerra, yes i think i am getting lost in all this, i agree i should definatly focus on what is real right now, and shut the door on that part of me for now, my children are my light and without them i dread to think were i would be, they are my saviour and all that matter, whatever the attraction is to evil and the masked man i will not let it dominate me its obviously in the past :thumbsup:
 
Exactly. Just take a break for a little while and focus on the things that give you joy and laughter. It will be ok. You'll see.


Think happy thoughts... clap along... There is much to be joyful for. Really. :)


'>
 
oooooh no not this song haha, but i get were your coming from, i actually have a really funny sense of humour....honestly so no slipknot then? LOL
 
forgot to ask if any of commenting have seen the film solomon kane? lol then you mite understand me more :jump:


just for you tanguerra LMAO.......


When the birds sing in the autemn sunshine,


My mind clears as i walk the beachline,


Im listening to the waves wash over the sand,


And take in the beauty of our loving gods land......


see i can right nice ones.....
 
i am thanks tanguerra, hope you are well too, last night i was having a lovely dream until i was rudely awaken by my youngest son wanting his dummy lol, but i had a long blonde platt down my back and some sort of band round mt head, my dress was long and flowing, nothing to fancy but i felt very pretty, it was a very pale olive green colour, and i had a child in my arms, not sure girl/boy?, but there was somesort of a celebration going on in a village, there was a long wooden table with meat and bowls etc, there was music in the distance very cheerful music, lots of women and men talking and laughing, children running around and playing, the sun was shining, and a really good atmosphere, but then i woke with my son so thats all i got lol wine**
 
either i have a good imagination or this is final a large piece to my past life,


i was in a barn/stable grooming a horse, the doors were wide open and i could see the villagers walking by, im just humming to myself wen in burst to women acting rather drunk, there laughing and chatting almost stumbling over each other, they sit down on some hay,i smile and carry on working, then the masked man acompanied by 2 other men come riding into the village, they look around maybe searching for someone, the hole village falls silent and still, the masked man comes towards the barn and looks directly at me for a while, i felt very drawn to him, he then goes by and gets of his horse across the way, he argues with a monk/priest? and grabs him, the priest is shaken but composes himself and hurrys away, the men leave and the hole village go on with what they were doing, the 2 drunk girls are giggling like school girls and say to me "he likes you he does" i then feel giddy and i blush, then it skips to the cross image i had previosly? as i have just thrown stones at the wooden cross i head down the path towards a village, but this time picking up a basket with what looks like plants/herbs in it, only to see the mask man and his men riding up towards me he nods his heads and carrys on riding, again i felt as if love at 1st sight feeling, then it skips to the lake im swimming (naked) eeeek! and hes sat on the banking sharpening some sort of weapon, his men are starting a fire, then it skips to me and him. its dark by the fire he cuts my hand and takes of his leather glove and cuts his hand too, we place them together and i feel a rush of love and a bond, we then lay down and you know what comes next!!!, then it skips to him learning me to use a bow and arrow, a sword and how to defend my self, his men were helping too, we was having fun and laughing about, then it skips to me and him sat at a very large table with other men and women, his parents were there, i guess it was inside a castle it was very gothic, grand and lavish, then his father a very stirn man with a moustache and goaty type beard slams his fist on the table making his mother jump, he shouts "for heaven sake william, take that ridiculas mask off at once!!...you have your fathers looks but the stupidity of you mother!" and he was very frightning and i stopped thinking then! i also get the impression william "masked man has a moustache and goaty too


all rhis came to me whilst im sunbathing in the garden?OMG


mite i just add whilst seeing all this in my mind i felt a sense of euphoria, i feel light headed and dizzy now, i went threw the emotions of what i was seeing, and i feel like ive had a weight lifted of me, its a wonderful feeling!!!!!wine**


OOOOH MY DAYS!!!! i remember when i met my 1st boyfriend we got drunk and the 1st thing a wanted to do with him wasnt the obvious!! i wanted to do the blood thing with our hands!!! he said no (dont blame him) and then the next man i met i married? i got drunk and asked him too haha! he said no too, but i cant be that bad as we married lol makes sense now??? and also i get the sense the masked man william was alot older than me, and in this life ive always been attracted to older men, im 26 and my husband is 44? .......
 
Wow! That's great work. I told you it would just float up by itself. Lying about doing nothing, like sunbathing, can often be all you need to do when a memory is ready to burst out anyway. Seems like you're figuring it out.


I'd be very interested why he wore a mask? Was he scarred? Was it some kind of disguise? What do you think?


Who was he I wonder? If they owned a castle I can only think some kind of nobility, or some kind of 'robber baron' perhaps? If he had a band of men, he must have been someone of at least some importance? Or were they bandits? Were they soldiers? What do you think it might all be about?


Very interesting.

medieval queen said:
mite i just add whilst seeing all this in my mind i felt a sense of euphoria, i feel light headed and dizzy now, i went threw the emotions of what i was seeing, and i feel like ive had a weight lifted of me, its a wonderful feeling!!!!!
Yes. It's a whole different ball game when you have a past life memory compared with a simple flight of fancy. I'm glad you are feeling a sense of emotional relief. This often happens.
 
no im not sure why he wears it either, but i get the impression his father disaproves of it, lastnight more visions came to me and theses are all over the place ....


i was in a tavern/pub and there was a huge woman with red ginger hair and a red flusterd face, she was quite scary, and she shouted at me " you are not welcome here!!!....your sinners the lot of you!!"


im grabbed by the throat by a man hes very angry and screams at me "you have discraced me!!"


i see dead rabbits/hares hanging upside down


im on a horse with william and were woooshing threw the woods so fast, i think its as fast as a horse would go, i feel discomfort, it hurts, and the sound of the hooves pounding the ground is very loud....


then strangly i saw william knelt on the ground with his hands tied behind his back and i started to cry? (really) im just laid in bed an started crying cover face


may i ad that the guy who had me by the throat had hair like brian may from queen LOL thats the only way i can discribe him, ive just read an article about a strange masked man prisoner who nobody ever saw his face but i think he was imprisoned for over 20 years so it wouldnt tie in with my experience


still reading the many mystories and theorys on the man in the iron mask,so he was accompanied by 2 soldiers side by side ready to shoot him if he ever unmasked???


this is one of the theorys of who the masked man was!!!


eustache dauger de cavoye, a french millitory officer who was arrested in 1668, possibly for participating in satanic rituals,


the reason for his arrest was supposedly coverd up because one of the kings mistresses was also a satan worshipper, it has also been theorized that dauger was the illigitimet half brother of louis XIV and therefor forced to wear the mask......


ANNNND LOUIS XIV HAS BRIAN MAY HAIR!!!!


AND MAYBE THE NAME LOUISA WAS WRONG AND WAS LOUIS


OMG
 
this came to me today.....


im in a bedroom with a four poster bed, theres a burgundy dress laid out for me, then next image im being grabbed by the throat by the guy with brian may hair, hes screams at me you disgraced me!!, then a maid/servant girl interupts coming in the door, he screams at her get out!!, she apologyss and quickly leaves, then he threw me to the floor, i get up and run out the door down long stone corridor with lots of small arched windows, im running as fast as i can my heart beating out of my chest, i run down concrete steps that spiral round, i hear guards chasin my and the angry man shouting, im running so fast i almost fall, as i get out of the opening of the castle i run into the courtyard were there are a fair few guards stood around then i see william knelt on the floor, hands tied behined his back and a chain around his neck held by a guard, my heart sinks and i burst into tears, then the angry man grabs me by the hair and shouts at me "you prefer this monster to me?!" and im just crying, then he shouts at william "you!!...you do this to me?...after i took you in!!, i took care of your everyneeds?!"


thats all i got so far cover face
 
It is highly unlikely that your story has anything to with the man it the iron mask, or Louis XIV, MQ. Again, I stress the dangers of too much googling when you have limited information.


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Man_in_the_Iron_Mask


It would be much more plausible to think he wore a mask because he was an outlaw or bandit or a wanted man or something like that. It's a bit odd that he wore it indoors in front of his father, but...who knows? Maybe he had some kind of scarring that he was self conscious about? I'm sure it will work itself out eventually.


All this appears to be taking place in England? Would you think this was England or some other country? From what you have said here, it sounds as though 'Brian May' was your husband/betrothed and you were having an affair with William? The fact that he refers to him as a 'monster' might indicate some kind of scarring again perhaps? Do you ever have an image of his face, or is he always wearing a mask?


Anyway, don't worry about it too much. Just let it all come and write down as much as you can.


What normally happens is that there will be an initial 'flood' of memories. After a while they will dry up. During the 'drought' is the time to go back over your notes and see what you can do to piece it all together, make sense of it all and see what patterns might emerge.
 
I didn't want to cut in earlier, but the mask picture reminds me of something from when I used to watch the BBC's Robin Hood... and they had someone dress up like that as "The Nightwatchman"


I don't know if I've helped any or what but..
 
i think ive finally found out how i died!! would explain my fear of heights,


after that i put earlier william is dragged away, and the guards are dragging me back up the stairway we came down, im struggling to break free but i cant, im just screaming for william,


they throw me into the bedroom i was in earlier and lock the door, im banging on the door and fall to the floor in floods of tears, then something draws me to this large window, i see out of it william being attacked by the gaurds just outside the courtyard, im screaming (again!) william...william and banging on the window, i think i banged the hell out of this window because it shatters and i fall threw it, i see the ground coming closer,and it feels like im going to have a heart attack, it was very high up, i dont see anything after that?


and rockyrose, ive never watched any medieval programs or films because it never intrested me lol, until my husband saw the film solomon kane was on tv and i wasnt really botherd when he read to me what it was about, but i watched it and the masked man captivated me, amean most solomon kane fans are all for kane the hero, but i was drawn to him marcus the baddie?
 
tanguerra i forgot to say, im not sure if its in england but the red haired women seemed to have a devonsire/london accent im no good with accents so i cant say really.and i cant see his face nothing comes to me, exept a goaty type beard and moustache, i can see his eyes threw the mask and there very dark :rolleyes:
 
this is weird.....


im in the woods with william and the 2 men, im leaning over a large rock, and william is burning something into my shoulder, i see a meta pin? then he pours something from a bottle onto a cloth and holds it on my shoulder,


next i get the image of him blindfolding me and me spinning around with a stick,


next i see, him bathing a pig in the lake, as the 2 men are chanting something its dark and theres a fire...
 
medieval queen said:
oh and all most forgot demi i was never into medieval times that much until a few months ago when i watched the film solomon kane, then it felt liked it awakend something or triggerd something :confused:
I think it's possible to get triggers, from either movies or places (deja-vu), and that does not disqualify a possible PL even if it did not occur to you earlier...
 
Back
Top