First, I don't think you're crazy. I think it's a pivotal juncture in your life. I believe you are gifted an entire Universe. Did you say you were drawn to nature? The forest?
There's much I think we've gotten wrong in regards to modern living and societal norms. We being humans. But I don't hold blame here. I've been forced to prioritize my health and even now it is still a journey. What I've learned might help you connect.
Take time in nature. Take time to disconnect from electronics and media. Don't keep a TV in your bedroom. How often are you on your phone? Don't keep it by your bedside. Stand barefoot in the grass. Stare out at green scenery. Take a trip to a body of water. Take cold showers. Run water over your feet, even if with a hose. Feel the mud on your feet. Touch a tree. Exercise outdoors. Understand what food is doing to your body. Bathe in the Sun. Breathe deeply, slowly. Avoid intrusive advertisements like the plague. Pray. Journal. Write with pen and paper. Research something of interest. Stretch often. Pet a dog. Or a cat. Talk to the birds. Calm the squirrels. Heheh, that last one makes me chuckle.
These are things I have done that help me. Growing up I had no concept of heritage. I've a memory of existing in the womb and a emotional memory of what might be a future life- or it could have been a past life from another planet.
I've learned that I've had to create. A lot of that is developing, it's an internal journey and a personalities natural progression. So too, you create. It's uniquely your Life, so I only share with hopes there is something of value. As I've grown, I've found a sense of belonging. Sometimes I am jarred from that expression, and there are plenty of things outside that have potential to wreak havoc within. Remembering what's most important helps me take the reins of my life and in so doing, become less perturbed by the direction of the world around me. One thing that is evident by our living on planet Earth is that She(our Mother planet) host an array of Lifeforms. From seen to unseen. And what helps me feel most centered isn't any technological advancement or modern marvel-
By pursuing my interest I've found communities that have helped me feel closer to my self. This place is one example. I've discovered magical worlds and unique phenomenon all in this life and have felt Guided by God. There's a joy to discovery. It takes some initiative, but you are always met in kind. Even if you don't realize it at first. The more I recognize Life as a guiding force, the quicker I am able to shift my plane of experience. You are not alone. You may very well hail from origins not of planet Earth. It might even feel right not to call her Mother... But she is your Host planet for now and maybe you will feel connected to her again. You can connect with your star family. You can also connect to a wider perception of reality- one not limited by 3D. This means there is more to life on this planet than we are aware. Here is my belief, and you say you've felt isolated for sharing yours: We are being ever guided to God-Realization. It takes introspection, clear intent and patience. Be open to the idea that the Universe is guiding you, that you are indeed connected to something more. This is what I'm talking about, being gifted an entire Universe. There's an unseen intelligence connecting us all. Your being here is an important step to bridging the gap. I recognize your Soul Cry and Hearts Longing... It is valid, and you've more life to live.
To sum it up... Take the reins of your life. Recognize what's important. Cultivate the desired attitude. Disconnect from excess media, instead prioritize the information you consume. Journal and put your day-to-day in consideration. Consider your diet and lifestyle. Pray, play and take time to reflect in nature.
Kind regards~ CP