Hi, I am hoping that somebody can shed some light on this as it is something that has stayed with me for as long as I can remember.
I was always hiding as a child, I would never sleep in my bed, always slept underneath it and my dad would have to come & put me back into bed fast asleep. I was also quite a solitary child. I used to keep a spare bag of clothes hidden in case I suddenly had to leave, although there was no reason for this as I had a very settled childhood. My nightmares were always about being chased. I read most of the Old testament by the time i was 9 or 10, although probably didnt understand it. I am also quite claustrophobic and have to check where the exits are all the time.
At the age of about 20, I had a very vivid dream which is still crystal clear in my mind.
I was standing in the doorway of a building and looking out over a very flat landscape with tall trees and either side. I could see one white building in the distance. On the left of the doorway was a long room, I think the floor was tiled as it had a gutter running around the room. The walls had pipes running round the top and the end of each pipe stuck out, no showerhead and no windows. It reminded me of an abattoir but there was no blood no stalls no table in the middle. I was in the doorway along with an old man with a long beard and a young boy aged about 7. I knew I was Anna and I was 12 years old. There was a tall blonde man in a black uniform and silver buttons, I believe now he was SS but at the time of the dream, I knew nothing about the war or holocaust. The blonde man said 2 of us had to die and 1 could live. The old man said he would die, and I started screaming and crying and saying I didnt want to die and i knew that meant the boy would die. The soldier then laughed and said he was joking and we all had to die but i would be going to hell.for what i did. He then took out his gun and I woke up & knew I had been shot in the side of my head. I was also thinking i should have protected the young boy. I have a large mole on the side of my head above my left ear & my younger brother has the same birthmark. My brother and I have the same birthmark
About 10 years later i was regressed and I recalled Anna aged 8 living on a farm in France with both parents and a younger brother. It was Friday before sunset and my mother was in the kitchen preparing food for the sabbath. I could see a field full of poppies. I spoke and answered questions in french and mentioned a nearby town called Aux. I have never been to France and do not speak french at all. I had no idea that a placed Aux or Aux existed in France. I became very upset during this regression. Afterwards I read a lot of holocaust literature but I have never heard any description of a camp that would match my dream or anything matching what the room was on the left hand side of the doorway.
Does any of this make sense to anybody ? I have visited Auschwitz and whilst I found upsetting, it did not cause me any other issues Apart from Block 11, the punishment block were they tortured and shot people, were I felt sick and very claustrophobic. I have tried looking at other camps online but nothing matches my dream.
I was always hiding as a child, I would never sleep in my bed, always slept underneath it and my dad would have to come & put me back into bed fast asleep. I was also quite a solitary child. I used to keep a spare bag of clothes hidden in case I suddenly had to leave, although there was no reason for this as I had a very settled childhood. My nightmares were always about being chased. I read most of the Old testament by the time i was 9 or 10, although probably didnt understand it. I am also quite claustrophobic and have to check where the exits are all the time.
At the age of about 20, I had a very vivid dream which is still crystal clear in my mind.
I was standing in the doorway of a building and looking out over a very flat landscape with tall trees and either side. I could see one white building in the distance. On the left of the doorway was a long room, I think the floor was tiled as it had a gutter running around the room. The walls had pipes running round the top and the end of each pipe stuck out, no showerhead and no windows. It reminded me of an abattoir but there was no blood no stalls no table in the middle. I was in the doorway along with an old man with a long beard and a young boy aged about 7. I knew I was Anna and I was 12 years old. There was a tall blonde man in a black uniform and silver buttons, I believe now he was SS but at the time of the dream, I knew nothing about the war or holocaust. The blonde man said 2 of us had to die and 1 could live. The old man said he would die, and I started screaming and crying and saying I didnt want to die and i knew that meant the boy would die. The soldier then laughed and said he was joking and we all had to die but i would be going to hell.for what i did. He then took out his gun and I woke up & knew I had been shot in the side of my head. I was also thinking i should have protected the young boy. I have a large mole on the side of my head above my left ear & my younger brother has the same birthmark. My brother and I have the same birthmark
About 10 years later i was regressed and I recalled Anna aged 8 living on a farm in France with both parents and a younger brother. It was Friday before sunset and my mother was in the kitchen preparing food for the sabbath. I could see a field full of poppies. I spoke and answered questions in french and mentioned a nearby town called Aux. I have never been to France and do not speak french at all. I had no idea that a placed Aux or Aux existed in France. I became very upset during this regression. Afterwards I read a lot of holocaust literature but I have never heard any description of a camp that would match my dream or anything matching what the room was on the left hand side of the doorway.
Does any of this make sense to anybody ? I have visited Auschwitz and whilst I found upsetting, it did not cause me any other issues Apart from Block 11, the punishment block were they tortured and shot people, were I felt sick and very claustrophobic. I have tried looking at other camps online but nothing matches my dream.
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