This is difficult for me to talk about for me because it is so different from what I have believed throughout my life. However, my experience has me questioning what I believe about the nature of existence and the nature of the soul. I think that the best way to start is to start at the beginning.
When I was 21, I am 27 now, I had a very very very vivid dream. I was running from some kind of bomb or war. I was running up a hill and the whole world looked like a waste land. As I was running up the hill suddenly there was a baby in my arms except he wasn't a baby, he was an old man
( if that makes any sense at all.) This baby wasn't all that excited to see me and could talk. He said " oh all right, I will come again, but I don't see why it matters because we are all going to die." Then as we were running from the bomb he said "on 29." This dream deeply effected me and was not easily forgotten.
Shortly after that dream I became pregnant. This was an unplanned pregnancy, and during the pregnancy I thought that the baby would be the baby that I saw in the dream. When he was born I knew that he wasn't. I decided that the dream was just a dream.
In 2008, my husband and I decided to have another child. I was in graduate school, and we had planned to have the baby in mid april right around the time that I would have completed the requirments to graduate. To our surprise, we were having fraternal boy/girl twins. The twins were born 9 weeks early and had to spend 6 wks in the nicu. They were born on 2/9/09.
Our twins are doing very well today. The are just over a year old, but the boy is very what I call "frustratable." He gets very upset when he can't do grown up things. He WILL NOT EAT unless he does it him self with a knife and fork. He tries to grab my coffee and cries HARD when I take it away. Some of this is developmentally appropriate. I have a MA in counseling and 2 other children and I know that children in early childhood mimic adult behavior, but our little boy takes this to a new level. I feel like this is the baby that I saw in my dream despite every logical bone in my body telling me that this is insane. On the other hand, six years before the baby was born, he came to me and said he would be born on 29. He was actually born on 2/9/09. How much clearer can you get.
I would enjoy hearing objective opinions about my experience.
THXs.
SAM
When I was 21, I am 27 now, I had a very very very vivid dream. I was running from some kind of bomb or war. I was running up a hill and the whole world looked like a waste land. As I was running up the hill suddenly there was a baby in my arms except he wasn't a baby, he was an old man
( if that makes any sense at all.) This baby wasn't all that excited to see me and could talk. He said " oh all right, I will come again, but I don't see why it matters because we are all going to die." Then as we were running from the bomb he said "on 29." This dream deeply effected me and was not easily forgotten.
Shortly after that dream I became pregnant. This was an unplanned pregnancy, and during the pregnancy I thought that the baby would be the baby that I saw in the dream. When he was born I knew that he wasn't. I decided that the dream was just a dream.
In 2008, my husband and I decided to have another child. I was in graduate school, and we had planned to have the baby in mid april right around the time that I would have completed the requirments to graduate. To our surprise, we were having fraternal boy/girl twins. The twins were born 9 weeks early and had to spend 6 wks in the nicu. They were born on 2/9/09.
Our twins are doing very well today. The are just over a year old, but the boy is very what I call "frustratable." He gets very upset when he can't do grown up things. He WILL NOT EAT unless he does it him self with a knife and fork. He tries to grab my coffee and cries HARD when I take it away. Some of this is developmentally appropriate. I have a MA in counseling and 2 other children and I know that children in early childhood mimic adult behavior, but our little boy takes this to a new level. I feel like this is the baby that I saw in my dream despite every logical bone in my body telling me that this is insane. On the other hand, six years before the baby was born, he came to me and said he would be born on 29. He was actually born on 2/9/09. How much clearer can you get.
I would enjoy hearing objective opinions about my experience.
THXs.
SAM