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I'm Axel von Fersen

Amazora

Amazora

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Hi my name is Amanda and I'm 27 years old living in Sweden. I've always been fascinated with castles and the 1700s. Why I believe I'm Axel von Fersen started when I was little. I've always felt like I've been royal even though my family were neither rich or royal. When I did visit my local castle I started to get thoughts like "You belong here" etc. Call it past life memories or messages from the spirits from the castle talking to me lol. Then around 12 years ago I watched the movie Marie Antoinette with Kirsten Dunst which triggered something inside me. It felt as if I could feel her pain, I almost got ideas that I had been her in a past life.
Also around the same time I did go with my grandparents to Disneyland Paris. We stayed at a hotel which had a baroque design from the 1700s and I just got this strange deja vu feeling in that dining hall. At this time I had a strong urge of wanting to go to Versailles to visit the castle for no reason. However we didn't have the time to go there, but I'm hoping I can go back and visit there one day. Before this trip I kept questioning of why we would fly to France just to go to Disneyland Paris, as in why it was so important that my grandmas partner(who would pay for the trip) wanted us to take me and his grandchildren there? It's not like any of us had asked or had a desire to go there in the first place? Maybe I had to go to France to heal Axels' lifetime?

Jumping to 2017 where I had a strong urge and desire to relocate to the US since I always felt so misplaced in my own country Sweden, always felt like the black sheep where I always felt judged and I couldn't really relate to the culture at all in some way. Sweden always felt so small to me. I wanted more out of this life. So I had the opportunity to study in the US for almost a year, but it was more like running away from my own fears linked to Sweden. I felt as if something bad would happen if I stayed there too long, I just knew that I only would become miserable there. However things didn't turn out the way I hoped for and I had to go back home due to my visa. My whole world came crushing down since my whole identity was linked to that country and lifestyle(compare Axel and his relation with France and Versailles when he had to leave during the french revolution). I did pick up my pieces and decided to move to London where I could keep having my international identity speaking English(Axel refused to speak Swedish, he wanted to speak and write French. Just like I feel with Swedish but with English). I did live in London for almost a year, I didn't really feel at home there(just like Axel felt at first until he started to get used to it). However I couldn't handle the jobs I had there as a server which affected my finances so I had to leave. I got into another depression and so I decided to reach out to a psychic asking why things never worked out for me? I had done everything in my own power trying to stay both in the US and in London. I felt almost as if I was cursed, as my punishment was to stay in Sweden. The psychic told me that I had to heal a past lifetime that I had in Sweden during the 1700s. This person was connected to the royal family and his death went down to history, it was a very tragic death. He told me to do my own research about who I was. And so begins the journey of me discovering that I've been Axel Von Fersen.
 
However what I've experienced so far on my journey to find out if I was Axel or not has been an adventure for sure! Not only did I get the opportunity to read all of his five diaries but I also go the opportunity to move to Stockholm afterwards where I did visit most of the places where he used to visit in his lifetime(where I currently live). From his diaries I could relate to a lot to his behaviors, thoughts and especially judgments about how much he disliked Sweden and Swedish people while he praised other countries such as France as so much better in every single way. There was this chapter where he wrote about his inner feelings about being a stranger to his own lands. It felt as if it was written about myself because I have never felt home to my own country. I grew up in a small town in Sweden far away from Stockholm. Stockholm is the place where I feel most at home actually. The oldest places in Stockholm is where I feel most at home. The old town where the royal castle is located, Fersenska palace(Axel's family house), Riddarhuset, Högsta domstolen(where he died) and Drottningholm(a castle where the current royal family lives where the castle and the park are a copy of Versailles). I haven't been to all castles such as Ljungs castle and Steninge castle which I know Axel visited. However I did visit his family's summer mansion Löfstad castle outside of Norrköping this summer. Such a beautiful surrounding!! Not sure if it was my own imagination but I did sense a familiarity in the park there but also in the dining room, library and living room. The guide asked us about an odd looking furniture and I was the first one suggesting that it was a potty and I was right! That chair was the first thing that caught my attention. Did Axel use that chair is my question haha?

Even my broken love life reminds me of his. I did love someone who I never could be together with due to distance and his unwillingness to commit. For many years we went back and forth through only texting even though we did meet in real life. He broke up with me several times and I remember the first time he did it I have never felt such pain in my entire life. We had developed such a strong spiritual bond and even if we tried to connect after our relationship lead nowhere. Even though I will always remember him I have now accepted that we will never be together again in this lifetime. He has his own personal issues and we're growing in two different directions. I'm not claiming that he is the reincarnation of Marie Antoinette, what I'm saying is that he could have been the catalyst to trigger my dormant past life memories and hurt between Axel and Marie Antoinette where they could never be together and the loss of her as well.
 
Greetings, Amazora, and welcome to the forum, I'm glad you found us. Your story of discovery is very interesting, thank you for sharing it with us. Many people here, including myself, encountered past life memories and people in very similar ways. The path is amazing once you can accept the concept of past lives. How did you first learn about reincarnation?

Your photograph comparison is very interesting!!

Again, Welcome! If you have questions please ask.
~Tman
 
I really enjoyed reading your story and hope for further validations and knowledge for you. I really liked how you mentioned that you don’t necessarily think your ex was Marie Antoinette, but that he brought out similar feelings for you. I’ve had that as well with people, where they play a similar role and my reaction to them similar to the past.
I have had a passing interest in that time period (I don’t think I lived then), and very much enjoyed Antonia Fraser’s book. Just sad, devastating times. I wish you well.
 
Jody said:
You do look like him.
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And what does it prove?
Who told you there must be any BIOLOGICAL relation between one's body now and one's body in his/her PL?

My last PL was not FPL, but in one of the regressions I looked into a mirror and now I know exactly how I looked then.
Quite another person, very different looks.

And what does it mean, again?

Maybe it was not me?

When I was in the school, people told me that I looked exactly like a famous historical personage. Other children even teased me sometimes for this.

But it has never occurred to me to even consider the possibility of my being his reincarnation.
 
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I think it was just an off the cuff comment.

Physical similarity is only one piece of a much larger puzzle. Or just one factor, that should be considered after many other and more important ones, IMO. Proving something known to you, that is generally unknown or unknowable to the public at large is one of the strongest forms of proof IMO.
 
Totoro said:
I think it was just an off the cuff comment.

Physical similarity is only one piece of a much larger puzzle. Or just one factor, that should be considered after many other and more important ones, IMO. Proving something known to you, that is generally unknown or unknowable to the public at large is one of the strongest forms of proof IMO.
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I see your point. I remember having read an astounding story about a British woman who helped a team of archeologists to find a long lost palace of a pharaoh that in her PL had been her lover.

A very useful story for all of us who want to believe in reincarnation.

But such occasions happen very seldom,

And why should somebody prove his/her PL to anybody, in the first place?

If I, a simple programmer Ciro in this life, discover through a series of regressions, that I was some Sergio, a simple Italian sailor killed in the very beginning of WWII in my PL, it's only important to me, I don't need to prove it to anybody.

If somebody insists he was Elvis in his PL, I just don't care.
I'd never change my PL Sergio for a million Elvises. Not even that Syrian slave I was in one of my PLs, according to what I discovered in some of my regressions.

It's all about memory, about recalling, and a good professional regression is the only valuable argument.

Where in Michael Newton's books is there a mention of a physical resemblance as a PL "proof"?

If we admit this, they'll come with astrological (tarot, voodoo etc.) "analyses" next.

IMHO.

Regards.
 
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Cyrus said:
And why should somebody prove his/her PL to anybody, in the first place?

If I, a simple programmer Ciro in this life, discover through a series of regressions, that I was some Sergio, a simple Italian sailor killed in the very beginning of WWII in my PL, it's only important to me, I don't need to prove it to anybody.
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Yep, I couldn't agree with you more.
 
Oh...une ancienne connaissance, peut-etre?

I believe you, or at least I want to. My avatar is a photo of me from behind. Is the hair color familiar to you at all?

Forgive me, I really don't mean to be odd or cryptic. It's just that, even after so many years of remembering who I was, introducing myself is still a bit awkward.
 
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