Looking Backwards
Senior Registered
So I was meditating earlier and had two strange visions. Unfortunately I forget the precise details as I did not have a chance to write down everything, so I apologize in advance for some things not being clear.
The first was of a girl in a bed, tossing and turning. She has dark hair and pale skin, and is crying. I think she has just given birth, and she knew the birth would kill her but was forced to anyway.
The second was a young girl in a convent, being whipped by a someone I assumed is a Nun. She is singing about God and forgiveness, and I'm not sure if she means it or knows she has to.
The scene goes to a woman who is very distraught. I can't see her, but I feel I might be her - I certainly empathize with her. I realize the girl was Jewish and being forced into the Catholic faith - and was later forced to have a baby which resulted in her dying.
Right before these visions, I had started singing without any plan to do so. Unfortunately I do not remember the words, just that they were strange.
When I "woke up" I was confused and tried to piece together what I'd imagined. I was very angry to think that a Jewish girl would be forced into a convent (and indeed, it's a sad thought). I tried to think more, and a few random words came to mind:
- Jiavo (he-ya-vo or "jiavo" with very little enunciation in the J)
- Rudya
- Masala
Questions:
- Does anyone know what any of those words mean?
- Was it ever the case that Jewish children, in any country, were forced into the Catholic faith?
One tidbit that might tie in with this vision: Before I started doing research on Catholicism, I'd always assumed that it was the strictest of the Christian denominations. I now know this is not the case, but it was certainly my earlier consensus. Yet I can't think of anyone who might have made me think that. We were never strict protestants so there was no bias there, and I don't think any of my friends ever said such a thing - some of them were Catholics themselves.
And because I know someone is going to ask, no, I've never really felt any ties with the Jewish faith. I'm not even sure I was that girl so much as a witness to her struggle, or, if I was that anguished woman, perhaps even a participant. Although I have taken to saying "oy vey" a lot, but I think that's mostly due to having had a number of Jewish friends at one point.
ETA: I also got the name "Ahura Mazda" in my head, but I've had it before. Apparently it's a Persian Deity, but I'm not sure if that's related or not... I'm not sure if the words I heard were even all related to those visions.
The first was of a girl in a bed, tossing and turning. She has dark hair and pale skin, and is crying. I think she has just given birth, and she knew the birth would kill her but was forced to anyway.
The second was a young girl in a convent, being whipped by a someone I assumed is a Nun. She is singing about God and forgiveness, and I'm not sure if she means it or knows she has to.
The scene goes to a woman who is very distraught. I can't see her, but I feel I might be her - I certainly empathize with her. I realize the girl was Jewish and being forced into the Catholic faith - and was later forced to have a baby which resulted in her dying.
Right before these visions, I had started singing without any plan to do so. Unfortunately I do not remember the words, just that they were strange.
When I "woke up" I was confused and tried to piece together what I'd imagined. I was very angry to think that a Jewish girl would be forced into a convent (and indeed, it's a sad thought). I tried to think more, and a few random words came to mind:
- Jiavo (he-ya-vo or "jiavo" with very little enunciation in the J)
- Rudya
- Masala
Questions:
- Does anyone know what any of those words mean?
- Was it ever the case that Jewish children, in any country, were forced into the Catholic faith?
One tidbit that might tie in with this vision: Before I started doing research on Catholicism, I'd always assumed that it was the strictest of the Christian denominations. I now know this is not the case, but it was certainly my earlier consensus. Yet I can't think of anyone who might have made me think that. We were never strict protestants so there was no bias there, and I don't think any of my friends ever said such a thing - some of them were Catholics themselves.
And because I know someone is going to ask, no, I've never really felt any ties with the Jewish faith. I'm not even sure I was that girl so much as a witness to her struggle, or, if I was that anguished woman, perhaps even a participant. Although I have taken to saying "oy vey" a lot, but I think that's mostly due to having had a number of Jewish friends at one point.
ETA: I also got the name "Ahura Mazda" in my head, but I've had it before. Apparently it's a Persian Deity, but I'm not sure if that's related or not... I'm not sure if the words I heard were even all related to those visions.