jaguar
Senior Registered
I would like to share something with you.
I have not been to this forum for a long time.
You kindly send me a note wishing me a happy birthday.
I visited the site to see what was going on.
Somehow it is different. It seems lighter to me. Perhaps I have changed.
Since I last visited my life has taken twists and turns.
I have continued studying the physics of the universe and how it relates to reincarnation.
During my last visits to this site I had read that the supporters of the site believed that we are beings of light. I did not like to hear that and opposed the idea. However, my recent scientific studies reveal that it is true. I am coming at this from a hard science point of view. I can demonstrate this mathematically. I am talking Special Relativity and Quantum Physics here. I apologize to anyone I may have attempted to force my opinion on. I have spent over a year of my life putting these ideas into book form.
It is almost finished.
I am learning to ask and listen. It is difficult.
At a recent point in time I was working for a company that graded high school tests.
I worked in a room with hundreds of terminals. On an occasion an Indian sat next to me wearing a turban and long beard. On the other side of me a mature attractive woman sat. Being interested in reincarnation I asked the Indian about it. Yes, he believed in reincarnation but I was not to study it for it was forbidden. Instead, I was to follow him, not cut my hair, eat the right foods and become a spirit of nothing. In short, he decided he was my guru. Several polite conversations were required to back out of that. The lady, on the other hand, heard me talking with the Indian. The next day she brought in a book about Jesus Christ that I must absolutely read.
Well, I asked and attempted to just listen. It can be difficult.
What of that I wish to share?
I am getting older. My heart is beginning to fail. Not to worry. It is part of life and if you believe what I believe; I already live forever.
But as I ponder the end, I find myself thinking the thought, “I can leave my crimes behind.” Then I realized that I was committing a grave error. (I must point out one of my beliefs to explain the insight that follows. I have reviewed hundreds and hundreds of my past lives. I have not seen what many claim to be spiritual teachings. For example, I have not seen this thing called karma. My memories precede the Big Bang and I am at a loss to see where karma came from.) To get to my point. One of my desires is to carry a stronger consciousness from life to life. I realized that if I expected a death to erase my past sins, I would be incapable of carrying consciousness forward. In other words, if I cannot be responsible for what I do or have done now, I will not gain ability I desire. I believe this has nothing to do with the spirit community. It has everything to do with what I think about myself. The thing is that it is not a matter of going back and apologizing to anyone, or going back making things right or suffering in the future for past errors. It is a matter of being willing to not do it again. That is, being willing to be responsible in the future and the right now. Right now, this feels the absolutely right thing to do.
There is another aspect to this. I have practiced karate a great deal in my life. My master instructor has competed in many tournaments. He has won many and lost many. He has told me that when he faces an opponent in the ring, he feels he is fighting himself. I understand what this means. It all seems to come together.
Well, that is it. I don’t think I have explained it well. I guess I needed to tell these things to someone.
Jaguar
I have not been to this forum for a long time.
You kindly send me a note wishing me a happy birthday.
I visited the site to see what was going on.
Somehow it is different. It seems lighter to me. Perhaps I have changed.
Since I last visited my life has taken twists and turns.
I have continued studying the physics of the universe and how it relates to reincarnation.
During my last visits to this site I had read that the supporters of the site believed that we are beings of light. I did not like to hear that and opposed the idea. However, my recent scientific studies reveal that it is true. I am coming at this from a hard science point of view. I can demonstrate this mathematically. I am talking Special Relativity and Quantum Physics here. I apologize to anyone I may have attempted to force my opinion on. I have spent over a year of my life putting these ideas into book form.
It is almost finished.
I am learning to ask and listen. It is difficult.
At a recent point in time I was working for a company that graded high school tests.
I worked in a room with hundreds of terminals. On an occasion an Indian sat next to me wearing a turban and long beard. On the other side of me a mature attractive woman sat. Being interested in reincarnation I asked the Indian about it. Yes, he believed in reincarnation but I was not to study it for it was forbidden. Instead, I was to follow him, not cut my hair, eat the right foods and become a spirit of nothing. In short, he decided he was my guru. Several polite conversations were required to back out of that. The lady, on the other hand, heard me talking with the Indian. The next day she brought in a book about Jesus Christ that I must absolutely read.
Well, I asked and attempted to just listen. It can be difficult.
What of that I wish to share?
I am getting older. My heart is beginning to fail. Not to worry. It is part of life and if you believe what I believe; I already live forever.
But as I ponder the end, I find myself thinking the thought, “I can leave my crimes behind.” Then I realized that I was committing a grave error. (I must point out one of my beliefs to explain the insight that follows. I have reviewed hundreds and hundreds of my past lives. I have not seen what many claim to be spiritual teachings. For example, I have not seen this thing called karma. My memories precede the Big Bang and I am at a loss to see where karma came from.) To get to my point. One of my desires is to carry a stronger consciousness from life to life. I realized that if I expected a death to erase my past sins, I would be incapable of carrying consciousness forward. In other words, if I cannot be responsible for what I do or have done now, I will not gain ability I desire. I believe this has nothing to do with the spirit community. It has everything to do with what I think about myself. The thing is that it is not a matter of going back and apologizing to anyone, or going back making things right or suffering in the future for past errors. It is a matter of being willing to not do it again. That is, being willing to be responsible in the future and the right now. Right now, this feels the absolutely right thing to do.
There is another aspect to this. I have practiced karate a great deal in my life. My master instructor has competed in many tournaments. He has won many and lost many. He has told me that when he faces an opponent in the ring, he feels he is fighting himself. I understand what this means. It all seems to come together.
Well, that is it. I don’t think I have explained it well. I guess I needed to tell these things to someone.
Jaguar