Hi,
Yesterday I discovered this forum, and it made me happy. Lately I ask myself this question over and over again: am I insane or not? Do I live in my private fantasy world (ofcourse I do), or ....
I know I am not crazy, but on the other hand...
While reading some of the stories here, I felt a lot of stress falling away from me... people like me, people I could relate to. I got the confirmation that remembering past lifes is an ongoing proces, not a one time revelation, a puzzle. I also do remember past lifes. I get bits and pieces, almost always related to people I meet (in real life or online, no difference).
During my life I have met so many 'old friends' , too many to process my feelings from time to time. It may sound strange, but I felt (feel) really 'guilty' for loving too many people at the same time. Every time I recognize somebody from my past, it is always both ways (wether they believe in reincarnation or not), and I do not always have enough energy for all those dynamics that start immediately. So I learned to cut off pathways.
My children both talked about former lifes when they were at the age of three, more or less. No big stories, just how they died. By that time I thought it was best just to let them talk. I never interferred with questions. My youngest son was shot in the back, running away from probably soldiers hunting for him. My eldest son told two stories, one about being burned alive in a small house as a young child, and one about a battlefield where I was also supposed to be in as a comrade, and I died there. I have no idea myself, no memories. Later in life my eldest son and I discovered another life in which we were mother and son, and that was pretty emotional. This son and I do have more lifes together, but those are not clear. He's been my father for at least one time.
I have given myself a year to find out more about myself, real digging. Sounds silly perhaps, but these are intense processes for me, so I try to give myself a limit. English is not my native language, so I guess the native speakers will notice now and then. I'll do my best expressing myself in this language. I am from Europe. Although reincarnation (and memories) has always been a part of my life, recently something changed by recognizing a close soulmate. This meeting (online, not in real life) blew up my system, almost literally. No joke. This meeting of the souls is so intense that we decided not to meet in person ever, not even for a cup of coffee. In the beginning we joked about setting off a nuclear bomb if we were ever to meet. We both have our spouses, children, grandchildren, and we both feel responsible for this life we've lived so far.
But, as you all can guess, memories exploded too, emotions exploded, and only one life is starting to shape itself in bits and pieces, and the rest is closed. When I try to discover more, I hear a voice saying: Not yet.
I'll try to figure out how to use this forum. I really need help in the form of feedback, new perspectives on my 'old cases'. And I might need help to find confirmations of my memories. Just for myself (I am not interested in 'proving' to somebody else). For me it's a kick to connect dots, to connect loose images and memories into a coherent story. And right now I am far away from coherent stories.
Yesterday I discovered this forum, and it made me happy. Lately I ask myself this question over and over again: am I insane or not? Do I live in my private fantasy world (ofcourse I do), or ....
I know I am not crazy, but on the other hand...
While reading some of the stories here, I felt a lot of stress falling away from me... people like me, people I could relate to. I got the confirmation that remembering past lifes is an ongoing proces, not a one time revelation, a puzzle. I also do remember past lifes. I get bits and pieces, almost always related to people I meet (in real life or online, no difference).
During my life I have met so many 'old friends' , too many to process my feelings from time to time. It may sound strange, but I felt (feel) really 'guilty' for loving too many people at the same time. Every time I recognize somebody from my past, it is always both ways (wether they believe in reincarnation or not), and I do not always have enough energy for all those dynamics that start immediately. So I learned to cut off pathways.
My children both talked about former lifes when they were at the age of three, more or less. No big stories, just how they died. By that time I thought it was best just to let them talk. I never interferred with questions. My youngest son was shot in the back, running away from probably soldiers hunting for him. My eldest son told two stories, one about being burned alive in a small house as a young child, and one about a battlefield where I was also supposed to be in as a comrade, and I died there. I have no idea myself, no memories. Later in life my eldest son and I discovered another life in which we were mother and son, and that was pretty emotional. This son and I do have more lifes together, but those are not clear. He's been my father for at least one time.
I have given myself a year to find out more about myself, real digging. Sounds silly perhaps, but these are intense processes for me, so I try to give myself a limit. English is not my native language, so I guess the native speakers will notice now and then. I'll do my best expressing myself in this language. I am from Europe. Although reincarnation (and memories) has always been a part of my life, recently something changed by recognizing a close soulmate. This meeting (online, not in real life) blew up my system, almost literally. No joke. This meeting of the souls is so intense that we decided not to meet in person ever, not even for a cup of coffee. In the beginning we joked about setting off a nuclear bomb if we were ever to meet. We both have our spouses, children, grandchildren, and we both feel responsible for this life we've lived so far.
But, as you all can guess, memories exploded too, emotions exploded, and only one life is starting to shape itself in bits and pieces, and the rest is closed. When I try to discover more, I hear a voice saying: Not yet.
I'll try to figure out how to use this forum. I really need help in the form of feedback, new perspectives on my 'old cases'. And I might need help to find confirmations of my memories. Just for myself (I am not interested in 'proving' to somebody else). For me it's a kick to connect dots, to connect loose images and memories into a coherent story. And right now I am far away from coherent stories.
