Past Life Karma? I guess...

[Dana]

Okay...

Ever since I was young, I always deeply wanted that feeling of pride for my country being respected, not looked down upon or laughed at, but in my current life today, all I feel is shame and an inferiority complex that is pretty much integrated into the culture of my country.

Living in a country at the mercy of a much powerful one and can't do anything about it is really annoying (I'm from the Philippines, and China is being a brute, building military bases in the West Philippine Sea which is part of the country's territory). Other than the fact that my country never makes decent progress (or the fact that I live in a third world country) makes me annoyed. For me, it feels so worthless to be in a country that cannot defend itself alone (or should I say a bit too dependent on a superpower called America when it comes to international territorial issues) or is always opressed, "bullied" and taken advantage of.

I feel like I lost that pride and I wanted to forsake this god damned country I was born in. The so called "Filipino pride" is seemingly just a cover-up for that inferiority complex of being powerless.

Then, I discovered my past life. I was a soldier in the wrong side of WW2 (I was a Nazi soldier, part of the Heer or the army). I then realized that longing feeling to be respected and not be some butt of jokes to other races (or should I say the longing feeling to be superior, since I grew up in a country with an inferiority complex integrated into the culture) was my karma.

Belonging to the "Master Race" and feeling very proud as a nationalist in my past life, went all upside down in my current life where I feel shame and resentment towards my own country and at quite to a certain extent, my own race.

I guess I have to deal with it.

 

[Speedwell]

Perhaps rather than karma (whatever that even is - I don't really accept karma myself), you may have a deliberate choice of your present situation. The comparison with your past life is a valid one, the contrast is real. But the reason may not be quite straightforward.

A thought which occurred to me is that ultimately the pride you may have had, or the lack of it at present, are both equally illusory. So you are discovering what in this world is simply illusion. The purpose? To discover that which is not illusion. What is valuable now and will continue to be valuable in another, very different life, no matter what the circumstances?

 

[Jaimie]

Okay...

Ever since I was young, I always deeply wanted that feeling of pride for my country being respected, not looked down upon or laughed at, but in my current life today, all I feel is shame and an inferiority complex that is pretty much integrated into the culture of my country.

Living in a country at the mercy of a much powerful one and can't do anything about it is really annoying (I'm from the Philippines, and China is being a brute, building military bases in the West Philippine Sea which is part of the country's territory). Other than the fact that my country never makes decent progress (or the fact that I live in a third world country) makes me annoyed. For me, it feels so worthless to be in a country that cannot defend itself alone (or should I say a bit too dependent on a superpower called America when it comes to international territorial issues) or is always opressed, "bullied" and taken advantage of.

I feel like I lost that pride and I wanted to forsake this god damned country I was born in. The so called "Filipino pride" is seemingly just a cover-up for that inferiority complex of being powerless.

Then, I discovered my past life. I was a soldier in the wrong side of WW2 (I was a Nazi soldier, part of the Heer or the army). I then realized that longing feeling to be respected (or should I say the longing feeling to be superior, since I grew up in a country with an inferiority complex integrated into the culture) was my karma.

Belonging to the "Master Race" and feeling very proud as a nationalist in my past life, went all upside down in my current life where I feel shame and resentment towards my own country and at quite to a certain extent, my own race.

I hate inferior or superial, i love eguality, mutual respect that is, maybe you signed up for those 2 lives to find balance, there is something there for you to learn

 

[Eva1942]

Then, I discovered my past life. I was a soldier in the wrong side of WW2 (I was a Nazi soldier, part of the Heer or the army). I then realized that longing feeling to be respected and not be some butt of jokes to other races (or should I say the longing feeling to be superior, since I grew up in a country with an inferiority complex integrated into the culture) was my karma.

Belonging to the "Master Race" and feeling very proud as a nationalist in my past life, went all upside down in my current life where I feel shame and resentment towards my own country and at quite to a certain extent, my own race.

I guess I have to deal with it.

Dana,

I feel you. Truly I do. In my WWII lifetime before I was denounced as a Jew, both my soulmate and I were in the SS (I was a Helferin and he was in the SS proper). Today, the SS are STILL not respected, but I still have pride. Not so much because I was brave to literally ‘hide’ as a Helferin for seven years but because I did it out of love. Anyways, I’m getting off the point.

Heer was the Wehrmacht (Army). There are a few people I have met that were either former SS or Wehrmacht that returned to countries with a inferior complex. One friend I have, returned to Hungary and another in Singapore.

I’ve often made light of our involvement of the SS because it was the only way I could really cope with coming to terms with it all. It does not matter whether we were in the Wehrmacht or the SS, every one was billed as being ‘part of the Super Race’. Germans of today, are still feeling ashamed for just being ‘German’.

Have you seen the parody movie ‘Look Who’s Back’ ? It was billed as a parody movie, but turns out to be a very serious take on how Germans feel about Hitler and their history today. The very last piece in the movie is especially important to note. I won’t ruin it and tell you, you’ll have to watch it

Why do you feel shame and resentment? Do you feel that could have been a lesson you choose to learn? My guides always tell me about the lesson of opposites. That in one lifetime we can feel proud about being patriotic and from a country where we feel great pride to another lifetime where we can feel great shame. It’s the lesson of opposites and I feel that you chose this lesson.

Being honest, the Thai, Filipino, Vietnamese etc cultures get a lot of bad wrap in the press. Do you feel that this influences your feelings on how you perceive your own race?

Eva x

 

[Dana]

Dana,

I feel you. Truly I do. In my WWII lifetime before I was denounced as a Jew, both my soulmate and I were in the SS (I was a Helferin and he was in the SS proper). Today, the SS are STILL not respected, but I still have pride. Not so much because I was brave to literally ‘hide’ as a Helferin for seven years but because I did it out of love. Anyways, I’m getting off the point.

Heer was the Wehrmacht (Army). There are a few people I have met that were either former SS or Wehrmacht that returned to countries with a inferior complex. One friend I have, returned to Hungary and another in Singapore.

I’ve often made light of our involvement of the SS because it was the only way I could really cope with coming to terms with it all. It does not matter whether we were in the Wehrmacht or the SS, every one was billed as being ‘part of the Super Race’. Germans of today, are still feeling ashamed for just being ‘German’.

Have you seen the parody movie ‘Look Who’s Back’ ? It was billed as a parody movie, but turns out to be a very serious take on how Germans feel about Hitler and their history today. The very last piece in the movie is especially important to note. I won’t ruin it and tell you, you’ll have to watch it

Why do you feel shame and resentment? Do you feel that could have been a lesson you choose to learn? My guides always tell me about the lesson of opposites. That in one lifetime we can feel proud about being patriotic and from a country where we feel great pride to another lifetime where we can feel great shame. It’s the lesson of opposites and I feel that you chose this lesson.

Being honest, the Thai, Filipino, Vietnamese etc cultures get a lot of bad wrap in the press. Do you feel that this influences your feelings on how you perceive your own race?

Eva x

Yes. I actually watched "Look Who's Back", and I really got the meaning of "killing Hitler", you can never get rid of the past even how much painful it is, it will always be there because it is already set in stone.

Why do I feel shame and resentment? The feeling of being looked down upon by others (not generally all) feels so degrading.

Even physically, those so called "Aryan features" I once had in my past life have completely turned the other way around (from flax blond hair, blue eyes, and fair skin to black hair, brown eyes, and tanned skin).

Well, now I learned my lesson.

 

[SeaAndSky]

Hi Dana,

Lots of Filipinos in Florida where I live. I've always thought well of them, not the least because they had a reputation (1) of being ferocious fighters and because (2) they fought bravely alongside American forces to get rid of the Japanese invaders. I've always seen them as smart, tough, proud and practical people.

In any case, I can't see any reason for downgrading your current biological heritage. In terms of your spiritual heritage on the German side of things, many of the greatest geniuses of the last 500 years came out of Germany. I don't know how to parse things in terms of WWII. However, I do know that every nation has blood on its hands. I don't think Germany and German soldiers should be singled out for some type of everlasting infamy on that account, especially considering the horrors perpetrated in Stalin's Soviet Union and Mao's China (not to mention the ongoing list of depraved murderous dictators such as Pol Pot, etc.). There have been too many good things that have come out of Germany and continue to come out of Germany.

Last thought--put the past behind you and deal with the hand you have been dealt in this lifetime. Even with China is an expansionist mode, you are young and the future is ahead of you. You can't change the past, but you can do the best you can for yourself and the people where you are now. Go for it!

Cordially,
S&S

 

[tanker]

In addition to what S&S has just said, how many people consider the atrocities committed against German soldiers by Allied forces? There were quite a few, including so-called 'POW camps' which were little more than death camps by another name. There were hundreds of thousands of German soldiers who were very much alive after the end of the war, but never saw their homes again, thanks to the revenge of Allied forces. You don't tend to hear much about all that, despite documentary evidence. On that score, all nations should carry feelings of guilt and shame.

 

[Dana]

Hi Dana,

Lots of Filipinos in Florida where I live. I've always thought well of them, not the least because they had a reputation (1) of being ferocious fighters and because (2) they fought bravely alongside American forces to get rid of the Japanese invaders. I've always seen them as smart, tough, proud and practical people.

In any case, I can't see any reason for downgrading your current biological heritage. In terms of your spiritual heritage on the German side of things, many of the greatest geniuses of the last 500 years came out of Germany. I don't know how to parse things in terms of WWII. However, I do know that every nation has blood on its hands. I don't think Germany and German soldiers should be singled out for some type of everlasting infamy on that account, especially considering the horrors perpetrated in Stalin's Soviet Union and Mao's China (not to mention the ongoing list of depraved murderous dictators such as Pol Pot, etc.). There have been too many good things that have come out of Germany and continue to come out of Germany.

Last thought--put the past behind you and deal with the hand you have been dealt in this lifetime. Even with China is an expansionist mode, you are young and the future is ahead of you. You can't change the past, but you can do the best you can for yourself and the people where you are now. Go for it!

Cordially,
S&S

Right now, I'm already sort of recovering from my break down yesterday. Those last words you said are the same words my Philosophy professor told me when I decided to confess that secret to her.

I'm already moving on as of now, but still quite pained. It's just the beginning of letting go of the past.

 

[Eva1942]

Right now, I'm already sort of recovering from my break down yesterday. Those last words you said are the same words my Philosophy professor told me when I decided to confess that secret to her.

I'm already moving on as of now, but still quite pained. It's just the beginning of letting go of the past.

It is hard to move on. I sometime even struggle at times, but what SeaAndSky said is right...

I always have been told “you know the truth, what is right in your heart and soul and that is all that matters“. And they’re right. What I know is the truth and if it is what I feel is right then who is to judge me on that?

Eva x

 

[Jaimie]

Do not know if it is of any value but maybe it helps to think that we have to try to have both roles - in one life one can be a victim - and the next the bully. To know both sides of the coin.

( If I should take an example: From one of my past life experiences I died during drowning and if I am who I am thinking I was then I was dealing with anxiety and so when I died they assumed it was suicide. From my experiences my husband then went downhill, became self destructive in all kinds of ways and I followed him around in spirit, being very worried about him. In a future life I experienced loosing an ex boyfriend who was still my friend and who meant too much to me, really, and he was seen as someone deteriorating into being reckless and then died young, and I felt so terrible and I could not get pass it. )


/Jaimie