First off, I'd like to apologise if I posted this in the wrong place, or if this is a double post.
I am new here, as I have joined as a last resort for a possible explanation or idea of an "ongoing issue" I've been having the last week (going on two.)
I'm not good at explaining things, and this is something that is hard for me to explain. I'm sorry if this post seems like gibberish.
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To start, I have been assigned a WWII project. (Three weeks ago, started it this week.) It can be of any broad topic.
I chose "planes" randomly. However, there is a specific kind of plane I slimmed down to- fighters.
So, I started researching... and something happened.
When I look(ed) at any fighter footage, pictures, I instantly start to cry. Even thinking about fighters makes me cry. One thought; or picture- and I start crying an ocean. This has been non-stop for this entire week. I haven't gone out in public the last few days because I know I will get a thought, and start crying.
The feeling I get is one that is very, very sad; but there is also a feeling of "emptiness." There is nothing that feels "negative."
It seems that only WWII fighters are a huge "emotional trigger" for me. The only other time I have got an emotional response was when I was visiting a WWII plane museum when I was fourteen. Most of the planes were bombers, and I did not get any response from anything until I came across several fighters. As soon as I saw them, I cried a river instantly. I felt the same emotion then as I do now, but not nearly close to this magnitude.
I'm not a very "emotional" person. I struggle with attachment/ have attachment issues to people and objects. This is why having an emotional response to something as simple as "planes" is really confusing to me. I can read sad stories and hear sad things, and not shed a tear or be overcome with emotions I can't handle. These planes change that completely.
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I've only had one dream that I guess could be related.
I was flying in a plane, looking at controls/ cockpit.
That's all I remember, though.
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I'm honestly sort of a skeptic, but like to keep an open mind. I like to try to be "reasonable-" but "reasonable" has many different definitions.
This is why I'm considering a possible past life, because this is seriously affecting me. I don't want to jump to conclusions, though.
Minds are powerful things, I suppose. Maybe I'm just being stupid and unreasonable.
I'm about to just say: "Forget this project, I can't handle this anymore."
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Thoughts are appreciated,
~ I.L.
I am new here, as I have joined as a last resort for a possible explanation or idea of an "ongoing issue" I've been having the last week (going on two.)
I'm not good at explaining things, and this is something that is hard for me to explain. I'm sorry if this post seems like gibberish.
---
To start, I have been assigned a WWII project. (Three weeks ago, started it this week.) It can be of any broad topic.
I chose "planes" randomly. However, there is a specific kind of plane I slimmed down to- fighters.
So, I started researching... and something happened.
When I look(ed) at any fighter footage, pictures, I instantly start to cry. Even thinking about fighters makes me cry. One thought; or picture- and I start crying an ocean. This has been non-stop for this entire week. I haven't gone out in public the last few days because I know I will get a thought, and start crying.
The feeling I get is one that is very, very sad; but there is also a feeling of "emptiness." There is nothing that feels "negative."
It seems that only WWII fighters are a huge "emotional trigger" for me. The only other time I have got an emotional response was when I was visiting a WWII plane museum when I was fourteen. Most of the planes were bombers, and I did not get any response from anything until I came across several fighters. As soon as I saw them, I cried a river instantly. I felt the same emotion then as I do now, but not nearly close to this magnitude.
I'm not a very "emotional" person. I struggle with attachment/ have attachment issues to people and objects. This is why having an emotional response to something as simple as "planes" is really confusing to me. I can read sad stories and hear sad things, and not shed a tear or be overcome with emotions I can't handle. These planes change that completely.
--
I've only had one dream that I guess could be related.
I was flying in a plane, looking at controls/ cockpit.
That's all I remember, though.
--
I'm honestly sort of a skeptic, but like to keep an open mind. I like to try to be "reasonable-" but "reasonable" has many different definitions.
This is why I'm considering a possible past life, because this is seriously affecting me. I don't want to jump to conclusions, though.
Minds are powerful things, I suppose. Maybe I'm just being stupid and unreasonable.
I'm about to just say: "Forget this project, I can't handle this anymore."
--
Thoughts are appreciated,
~ I.L.