Hi there
I am very new here so hi? Where do I start.
As a child at the age of 4-5 I began having what was diagnosed as night terrors. I had a loving family and a normal childhood, wonderful actually. I would have pretty much the same dream of a man standing in the shadows who then attacks and murders me. This was quite a problem as you could imagine and I began at this stage to live my life fearful and full of anxiety, my parents were very concerned how my mind could be filled with such stuff at that age. This is where it gets weird, when I was eight years old I awoke in the middle of the night to find a man standing over my bed, he tried to kidnap me from my bed, I screamed and he dropped me down where my dad ran yelling trying to help me, this is very true, the police were called there were clear signs of the break and enter and I had to look at mug shots at the police station. This made me worse the dreams were more vivid I was fearful and full of anxiety and continued in therapy. My dream contunied but as I got older there was another element added to it not only was there a man in the shadows who murdered me with a knife ( I did not mention b4 sorry), but he raped me aswell, I was 12 when the dream changed to this it was random and I was in no way sexually active and was never abused and never watched anything on tv like this my parents were quite strict with what we watched. I lived in the most wonderful home with my parents and two sisters. The incident with the break in shook up the familiy and I was obviously not the same, at the age of 14 we moved to a smaller state that was well known for its low crime etc!!!
My dream of being raped and murdered continued through out my life, certain things would trigger my dream, now at the age of 31 here I am, but there is more.
in 2006 when I was 27 after 6 months after leaving my emotional abusive husband, he broke into the house I was renting ( I did not even know he knew where I lived as I tried to hide from him) he raped and assalted me and left me there injured. To cut a long story short, I developed an alcohol dependency (Have not had a drink for 19 monthes and four days) diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder ( which was probably what I also suffered from as a child) lots of therapy and getting there.
I recently went to have energy healing, I was told I was a total mess due to trauma, we have been working on it but apparantly there is still more, I do feel better than ever. To cut another long story short I think in my past life I was brutally raped and murdered and lived with fear and memories of it since I could remember, but it all happened again without the murder obviously, can one relive past life, I want to understand, should I do past life regression??? I am the only one in my family that has had any trauma like this or lived with fear and anxiety since birth. I was 2 months premature baby Ialso I feel this is linked... I just need some answers do I need to somehow break the cycle of this happening so this life does not keep repeating itself Help me I am a novice who has done some reading and had an amazing energy healing experience that seems to have started me on this journey
Help advice????
Toni
I am very new here so hi? Where do I start.
As a child at the age of 4-5 I began having what was diagnosed as night terrors. I had a loving family and a normal childhood, wonderful actually. I would have pretty much the same dream of a man standing in the shadows who then attacks and murders me. This was quite a problem as you could imagine and I began at this stage to live my life fearful and full of anxiety, my parents were very concerned how my mind could be filled with such stuff at that age. This is where it gets weird, when I was eight years old I awoke in the middle of the night to find a man standing over my bed, he tried to kidnap me from my bed, I screamed and he dropped me down where my dad ran yelling trying to help me, this is very true, the police were called there were clear signs of the break and enter and I had to look at mug shots at the police station. This made me worse the dreams were more vivid I was fearful and full of anxiety and continued in therapy. My dream contunied but as I got older there was another element added to it not only was there a man in the shadows who murdered me with a knife ( I did not mention b4 sorry), but he raped me aswell, I was 12 when the dream changed to this it was random and I was in no way sexually active and was never abused and never watched anything on tv like this my parents were quite strict with what we watched. I lived in the most wonderful home with my parents and two sisters. The incident with the break in shook up the familiy and I was obviously not the same, at the age of 14 we moved to a smaller state that was well known for its low crime etc!!!
My dream of being raped and murdered continued through out my life, certain things would trigger my dream, now at the age of 31 here I am, but there is more.
in 2006 when I was 27 after 6 months after leaving my emotional abusive husband, he broke into the house I was renting ( I did not even know he knew where I lived as I tried to hide from him) he raped and assalted me and left me there injured. To cut a long story short, I developed an alcohol dependency (Have not had a drink for 19 monthes and four days) diagnosed with post traumatic stress disorder ( which was probably what I also suffered from as a child) lots of therapy and getting there.
I recently went to have energy healing, I was told I was a total mess due to trauma, we have been working on it but apparantly there is still more, I do feel better than ever. To cut another long story short I think in my past life I was brutally raped and murdered and lived with fear and memories of it since I could remember, but it all happened again without the murder obviously, can one relive past life, I want to understand, should I do past life regression??? I am the only one in my family that has had any trauma like this or lived with fear and anxiety since birth. I was 2 months premature baby Ialso I feel this is linked... I just need some answers do I need to somehow break the cycle of this happening so this life does not keep repeating itself Help me I am a novice who has done some reading and had an amazing energy healing experience that seems to have started me on this journey
Help advice????
Toni
It is good that you're getting professional help dealing with them and that you are feeling better.
