Could I have died during childbirth last life?

[TheDivineOne]

Last time I posted on this forum was I think March 2020 around when the COVID pandemic started. But since then I've not felt the need to ever return to this forum again. Not that I didn't like it here, but knowing there are some "retired" users whose posts here had gotten more and more sporadic until they just left the forum all together, I figured I'd be one of those people but recent circumstances has compelled me to return.

Just a few days ago, without logging in, I have been lurking the site via my phone looking at my old posts and threads. It'd intrigued me when a couple of you had been telling me something along the lines of "if you really want to be a woman, you'll come back born as one," and things like that. Then, yesterday (4/12/2023), I found this LMN show on YouTube called The Ghost Inside My Child that children with intense memories of their past lives, how they ended, as well as traumas stemming from them. I found it interesting only because I wrote down in my e-journal that going into my next life, I would bring some memories from this life into that life. But just this morning, I was watching another episode of TGIMC and stopped mid-episode as a memory from THIS LIFE came to mind and I was wondering if it could be connected to a past life.

Okay, so I recall back when I was in pre-school/daycare. It was naptime and they had us go to sleep. Instead of sleeping, I was wide awake in this sleeping bag and I lifted my shirt to expose my tummy, poking it out like I was pregnant and even pretend to be going into labor. As far as I can recall, this behavior continued well into kindergarten? Maybe first or second grade? I remember back then a couple of the kids actually playing along telling me to push. At one point, I also remember drawing the pyramid-like image of a sonogram and my mom not liking it for some reason I can't recall. From then on, I remember pregnant womens' bellies being something that I found fascinating and even in my teens and twenties, pregnancy being something I want to experience for myself. Funny thing is though I don't even want kids because they're too much responsibility. I just like the big belly, really. I guess it plays a factor as to why I actually find the chubby belly pudge kind of attractive on a woman and has always wanted one myself.

Given all this could I have been pregnant in my most-recent previous life? Maybe died during childbirth, perhaps? If I were, it probably explains how or why I'd been feeling so cheated out of the full experience of being female for years in this life. I'd been half-interested in knowing who I was in my last life for ages but lost interest overtime as my main interest regarding reincarnation is being female in my next life and born such, because being female is something that resonates with my spirit. Being male has always been so foreign and alien to me. Going back to my first statements though, the only reason I've come out of retirement to post this question here is because I figure this community would be most likely to shed some insight on this sort of thing.

Thanks for reading if you made it this far.

 

[SeaAndSky]

Last time I posted on this forum was I think March 2020 around when the COVID pandemic started. But since then I've not felt the need to ever return to this forum again. Not that I didn't like it here, but knowing there are some "retired" users whose posts here had gotten more and more sporadic until they just left the forum all together, I figured I'd be one of those people but recent circumstances has compelled me to return.

Just a few days ago, without logging in, I have been lurking the site via my phone looking at my old posts and threads. It'd intrigued me when a couple of you had been telling me something along the lines of "if you really want to be a woman, you'll come back born as one," and things like that. Then, yesterday (4/12/2023), I found this LMN show on YouTube called The Ghost Inside My Child that children with intense memories of their past lives, how they ended, as well as traumas stemming from them. I found it interesting only because I wrote down in my e-journal that going into my next life, I would bring some memories from this life into that life. But just this morning, I was watching another episode of TGIMC and stopped mid-episode as a memory from THIS LIFE came to mind and I was wondering if it could be connected to a past life.

Okay, so I recall back when I was in pre-school/daycare. It was naptime and they had us go to sleep. Instead of sleeping, I was wide awake in this sleeping bag and I lifted my shirt to expose my tummy, poking it out like I was pregnant and even pretend to be going into labor. As far as I can recall, this behavior continued well into kindergarten? Maybe first or second grade? I remember back then a couple of the kids actually playing along telling me to push. At one point, I also remember drawing the pyramid-like image of a sonogram and my mom not liking it for some reason I can't recall. From then on, I remember pregnant womens' bellies being something that I found fascinating and even in my teens and twenties, pregnancy being something I want to experience for myself. Funny thing is though I don't even want kids because they're too much responsibility. I just like the big belly, really. I guess it plays a factor as to why I actually find the chubby belly pudge kind of attractive on a woman and has always wanted one myself.

Given all this could I have been pregnant in my most-recent previous life? Maybe died during childbirth, perhaps? If I were, it probably explains how or why I'd been feeling so cheated out of the full experience of being female for years in this life. I'd been half-interested in knowing who I was in my last life for ages but lost interest overtime as my main interest regarding reincarnation is being female in my next life and born such, because being female is something that resonates with my spirit. Being male has always been so foreign and alien to me. Going back to my first statements though, the only reason I've come out of retirement to post this question here is because I figure this community would be most likely to shed some insight on this sort of thing.

Thanks for reading if you made it this far.

Hi DO,

I think the answer to this is definitely yes. You previously reported reasons to believe that you were female (a young woman) in your most recent PL. Pregnancy definitely goes with that territory. So, a bit of a no brainer there, but it is hard to go any further (such as speculating on whether you died in childbirth) without more information.

Cordially,
S&S

PS--Having been around many little girls growing up, I can say that playing house, playing at being a mommy and expecting a baby, etc. were quite common in those bygone days. There were no day care facilities (that I can recall anyway) and almost all mothers were at home with their children. So, little girls got plenty of exposure to motherhood, maternity and childrearing (as they were at home after school and all Summer). The role models for little girls--mommies and big sisters--were also at home most of the time, and children, babies, maternity, etc. were a big part of life for all and a constant source of conversation among the female set.
PPS--I have no idea whether such childish role-playing by little girls is "permitted" in this "more enlightened" current era. I tend to think that it would be frowned upon as backwards and atavistic, but it was certainly no big deal back in the 50s and 60s when I was young.

 

[fireflydancing]

--I have no idea whether such childish role-playing by little girls is "permitted" in this "more enlightened" current era.

There is nothing wrong with motherhood
I have played with dolls in my time, but I can't remember that I've ever played being pregnant myself. In fact, I decided at an early age to never have kids in my entire life.
Then I met my now husband and I loved to have his kids. Giving birth to my first child was hell, two and a half days of being in labor ( and I was already two and a half weeks overdue.) I honestly felt I was dying, and panic attacks prevented me to deliver the baby. I didn't want to die.
Fast forward 20 or 30 years later... I found out that I most likely died during childbirth (at the age of 14 years old) in one of my past lives. This trauma had carried over to this life.

 

[TheDivineOne]

There is nothing wrong with motherhood
I have played with dolls in my time, but I can't remember that I've ever played being pregnant myself. In fact, I decided at an early age to never have kids in my entire life.
Then I met my now husband and I loved to have his kids. Giving birth to my first child was hell, two and a half days of being in labor ( and I was already two and a half weeks overdue.) I honestly felt I was dying, and panic attacks prevented me to deliver the baby. I didn't want to die.
Fast forward 20 or 30 years later... I found out that I most likely died during childbirth (at the age of 14 years old) in one of my past lives. This trauma had carried over to this life.

You just reinforced ANOTHER reason I don't want kids. I didn't want to make the OP too long but I would also add that, on one hand it's interesting because I feel like childbirth pain has been the main motivator for me to stay childfree. Although I lack that capability for obvious reasons, I just dread having to go through that. Imagining how intense the pain can be scares me.

Actually, I don't see myself being a mom in my next life either for that reason. Will I play being pregnant as a little girl in my next life? I don't know. I probably will. But much like I've had to do a few times in this life I see myself in my next life having to fend off people looking down on me for my decision to remain childfree, using the painful childbirth labor process to defend my decision. I would've also liked to breastfeed my children as well though. But being a girl in my next life, I will have my monthly cycle to contend with and that's quite enough.

Hi DO,

I think the answer to this is definitely yes. You previously reported reasons to believe that you were female (a young woman) in your most recent PL. Pregnancy definitely goes with that territory. So, a bit of a no brainer there, but it is hard to go any further (such as speculating on whether you died in childbirth) without more information.

Cordially,
S&S

PS--Having been around many little girls growing up, I can say that playing house, playing at being a mommy and expecting a baby, etc. were quite common in those bygone days. There were no day care facilities (that I can recall anyway) and almost all mothers were at home with their children. So, little girls got plenty of exposure to motherhood, maternity and childrearing (as they were at home after school and all Summer). The role models for little girls--mommies and big sisters--were also at home most of the time, and children, babies, maternity, etc. were a big part of life for all and a constant source of conversation among the female set.
PPS--I have no idea whether such childish role-playing by little girls is "permitted" in this "more enlightened" current era. I tend to think that it would be frowned upon as backwards and atavistic, but it was certainly no big deal back in the 50s and 60s when I was young.

What further pieces of information do you require? I only meant to phrase the question as a "is it possible that this DID happen?" and it seems like it was... or is, rather than a "DID this happen?" like I'm seeking a fact-based answer. I still haven't yet found a regressionist to go to about this but this is something I'd bring up with them.

 

[melon04]

PPS--I have no idea whether such childish role-playing by little girls is "permitted" in this "more enlightened" current era. I tend to think that it would be frowned upon as backwards and atavistic, but it was certainly no big deal back in the 50s and 60s when I was young.

These things are not inherently bad. The problem is when it is seen as the only jobs women are allowed to have (and/or that men can't have those jobs).

 

[SeaAndSky]

Hi Firefly,

I assume you realize that my comment was sarcastic.

Hi DO,

No intention to offend. Also, as you may note from the diatribe that follows, I am also setting a lot of my hopes on the next go-around. So, that is something we have in common.

Hi Melon,

I generally agree. It is also true that I am nostalgic for some of the things I remember from an earlier time. Likewise, I believe it is an error to think that things, overall, have changed for the best since then. Technology has certainly advanced, for better or worse. Society? Many things are better IMO, but some are worse or even much worse. Every person will have to weigh that question for themselves. But, as someone who has lived through the days currently derided as a dark pit of misogyny, etc., I can frankly tell you it just wasn't so. In truth, I am sick of the modern era and can only hope that the current madness will have abated somewhat by the time I return to this world in another life, if it is my fate to do so. I won't say more, as I recently got my "knuckles rapped" for becoming too "political"--so just put my cynical attitude down to cranky old age and the onset of dementia.

Cordially,
S&S

PS--Just to be clear, I am not in a rush to depart. It is just that I have sadly come to expect things to get worse or much worse rather than better with the passing of time. This does tend to take some of the charm out of life.

 

[fireflydancing]

Sometimes I wonder if it had the opposite effect on me from OP.

I am curious to know what you mean by that. Do you crave a houseful of little infants and children?

 

[fireflydancing]

I am kind of glad that it happened to me. Not only for my two friends that I received but also for the opportunity to clear some old rubbish in my spiritual backpack. Being pregnant was great, but the act of labor was highly traumatic (the first time). The second time, I knew what was coming and that I would survive, so I delivered number two in a few hours without delay.
The weird thing was that I was sure at the moment that it was not only me who was conquering the fear of dying but the baby as well. We shared the same energy. He was scared too.

 

[Mimic]

I was always obsessed with being a mother (from childhood). What I wanted most was to be a mother - preferably to three girls. Hah. And later that mattered less, but I was obsessed with being a mother. It's what I wanted most. In my last life, I was a man. I had children with my wife (I am not sure how many) but after she died I was not a good or involved father, I was too lost in grief/obsessed with my wife to really move on with my life. And some of my lessons in this life are teaching me that I was being really ungrateful for what I did have then. Did I want to experience being a mother again? (I know I have been a woman before, and for most of human history that comes with getting pregnant and having babies).

Where it led in this life? I chose to conceive on my own at the age of 28 (I have endometriosis and knew waiting longer would likely shoot me in the foot) and conceived my daughter. I loved being pregnant, and nursing my baby, but found mothering difficult (made more difficult by an abusive partner who swanned in and preyed on my vulnerability). My daughter is a little force of nature, and I am very happy to have her in my life.

If I had been less obsessed, I probably wouldn't have had a child at all. I would love to have more children, but that is looking less and less likely as time goes on.

Given maternal mortality, dying in childbirth is a possibility in other lives. Simply because while most births will go well with little intervention, there are always some people that will have emergencies and they weren't always fixable. Still aren't even with modern medicine. Some women die because of lack of follow up and no one catches postpartum hypertension.

 

[aqualeo]

Hi DO,

I think the answer to this is definitely yes. You previously reported reasons to believe that you were female (a young woman) in your most recent PL. Pregnancy definitely goes with that territory. So, a bit of a no brainer there, but it is hard to go any further (such as speculating on whether you died in childbirth) without more information.

Cordially,
S&S

PS--Having been around many little girls growing up, I can say that playing house, playing at being a mommy and expecting a baby, etc. were quite common in those bygone days. There were no day care facilities (that I can recall anyway) and almost all mothers were at home with their children. So, little girls got plenty of exposure to motherhood, maternity and childrearing (as they were at home after school and all Summer). The role models for little girls--mommies and big sisters--were also at home most of the time, and children, babies, maternity, etc. were a big part of life for all and a constant source of conversation among the female set.
PPS--I have no idea whether such childish role-playing by little girls is "permitted" in this "more enlightened" current era. I tend to think that it would be frowned upon as backwards and atavistic, but it was certainly no big deal back in the 50s and 60s when I was young.

i definitely played mommy or "house" a ton as a kid, i don't think it's frowned on, since if you look at the toy aisles these days they're still incredibly gendered with girls getting baby dolls and boys getting construction kits. i was raised without any gender roles (my mom even bought some clothes from the boys' sections for me), and could choose the toys i wanted, but i did still choose to play in a "feminine" way often...however, when i talk about this (and about things like drawing wedding dresses and such) with other young women, a good few of them do speak with a sort of disdain towards that sort of thing, and will proudly say they only made potions in the yard. which i did too haha but some people act like you're either one type of girl or another. so, i would say it isn't frowned upon, but there is some internalized scorn from women who don't want to do what is expected of them. understandable, i just don't like people making inaccurate assumptions about me though! such as that i must be brainwashed, when actually, my mom ordered her clothes from farmer shops etc haha

 

[SeaAndSky]

. . . . i did still choose to play in a "feminine" way often...however, when i talk about this (and about things like drawing wedding dresses and such) with other young women, a good few of them do speak with a sort of disdain towards that sort of thing, and will proudly say they only made potions in the yard. which i did too haha but some people act like you're either one type of girl or another. so, i would say it isn't frowned upon, but there is some internalized scorn from women who don't want to do what is expected of them. . . .

Hi Aqualeo,

I think the irony of that last statement is that it actually shows them to be completely out of date. What is "expected" of most young women currently is not that they will gravitate towards motherhood, etc., but towards a career and full-time employment outside the home. At least, that is true on this side of the pond. Consequently, avoiding motherhood and gravitating towards career, etc. is what is "expected" of them rather than the opposite. In other words, they are DOING what is expected of them, they are lock-step conformists, not independent minded rebels against oppression. Their attitude is about 30 years out of date. It is actually the ones they hold in disdain that are the non-conformists.

All of the foregoing is, of course, just my own very humble (even if grumpy) opinion.

Cordially,
S&S

 

[aqualeo]

Hi Aqualeo,

I think the irony of that last statement is that it actually shows them to be completely out of date. What is "expected" of most young women currently is not that they will gravitate towards motherhood, etc., but towards a career and full-time employment outside the home. At least, that is true on this side of the pond. Consequently, avoiding motherhood and gravitating towards career, etc. is what is "expected" of them rather than the opposite. In other words, they are DOING what is expected of them, they are lock-step conformists, not independent minded rebels against oppression. Their attitude is about 30 years out of date. It is actually the ones they hold in disdain that are the non-conformists.

All of the foregoing is, of course, just my own very humble (even if grumpy) opinion.

Cordially,
S&S

i completely agree with you! it's definitely one of my controversial opinions. i feel like the same occurs in a lot of arenas, such as politics. people think their conservative classmates are conformists, but i'm like....not right now, not if you live in california, etc. i'm not a conservative, but i can see that ironically they're the counterculture in some areas. i just think people need to do what they truly believe and desire, and not do anything out of pure rebellion...because that's just pride, not authentic, grounded behavior.

thank you for the refreshing convo :~)

 

[aqualeo]

Yeah I kind of agree, you shouldn't choose your opinions based on what everyone else is/isn't doing. Just ask yourself what you want.
Which is what I did. *shrug*

facts! idk who said it, but there's a brilliant quote out there that says something like whether you're living for or against an idea, you're living for it either way. a silly example: the joker's whole life is about fighting batman...that means that his whole life is FOR batman, not against batman, regardless of the fighting so i try to just do what i want, so as to not get embroiled in that sort of struggle.

 

[SeaAndSky]

Yeah I kind of agree, you shouldn't choose your opinions based on what everyone else is/isn't doing. Just ask yourself what you want.
Which is what I did. *shrug*

You know, I think a "bigger" issue is that it seems like, for lack of a better word, capitalism is trying to drain every last hour out of people. I know people who want that "stay at home" life, and they can't do it because both of them have to work much of the day. I want everyone to have more choice, and currently it seems to be going the opposite direction, everyone has to be striving to make as much money as possible.
...I really need to shut up now.

Hi Tinnos,

It would probably be better to put it down to the iron law of supply and demand. Increase the supply = decrease the demand = lower the price. This is what has happened to the price paid for labor over the last 50 years. I remember reading an article way back in the 60s predicting that masses of women entering the work force due to "women's lib" would just lead to everybody getting paid less than they would have otherwise received. I remember the days (and grew up experiencing them), when one middle-class salary supported a nice middle-class lifestyle for a family (without the wife working). Now it takes two middle-class salaries to come even close. I could say more, and point out other factors at work, but it would only get my post deleted. However, you are welcome to PM me if you would like to continue the discussion.

Cordially,
S&S