Blocked Memories
My past lives have only appeared in small flashbacks or in fragmented dreams. I have little to no information about any of them, but I want to share what I have seen.
Once when I was in class, I was swinging a ruler around like a sword. All of a sudden I had a small flashback of somebody that looked like a soldier or knight dressed in a white and red outfit. He held a sword and was peering behind a boulder. When I looked up the colors of his uniform, I came across pictures on Wiki stating that it was a British uniform.
I had a dream of a man leaving his pregnant wife and daughter to go to war. I think the man was me. His wife had blonde hair and blue eyes and she was crying. The man held his daughter up in his arms, and she only seemed to be the age of 3. I think the flashback and the dream are related to one another.
Today I had another flashback. For some reason sometimes when I lay my head on my mothers lap, I would feel angry, bitter, and sad, but the feeling would quickly go away. I love my mother very much, but this always seemed weird to me. Today when I laid my head on her shoulder, I had a flashback of a stone pillar/ walkway of a castle or house. It seemed to be either renaissance or the dark ages. I saw red curtains and then I saw a woman dressed in a long dress that was red and gold. I could not see her face but she was stroking her sons head while he laid on her lap. The child, who I assume was me, looked so happy.
One final experience happened when I tried to listen to a youtube video to induce my own past life regression.
When he told me to look down, I saw boots on my feet. I was neither a man or woman, I couldnt see myself.
I walked towards a wooden door and I pushed it open to see two women in victorian dresses and one older man in a dining room. The room was small and the wallpaper was the color of purple.
Then my body felt heavy and I couldnt breathe so i stopped the recording.
Some of the things that I think might possibly have to do with a past life are these:
1) I have always loved the Victorian Era with a passion. I love the dresses and architecture. And I always watch victorian films.
I always want to return to that time as a little boy (Im a young woman)
2) I am always scared of being unable to breathe, and ever since I was a baby, Ive always gotten sore throats very easily. I wonder if it has to do with a past life death. Something like maybe me dying from being hanged.
3) I am an artist and I wonder if maybe it was a skill Ive aquired from a past life. Whenever Im in a museum and I see renaissance paintings, I feel nostalgia.
Im new to this forum so please if anybody can help give me information, or tips, it would help greatly!! ^^