60s psychedelic rock and folk, 70s punk, 80s post-punk, mostly. Jefferson Airplane, Bob Dylan, The Doors, The Sex Pistols, Joy Division, Bauhaus. Latin American 80s rock, definitely an emphasis on Brazilian stuff. A small amount of early 90s grunge, but nothing after 1996.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rm9coqlk8fY
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=by6lyNC3D9Y
These songs feel so close I can almost touch them. So close, but so far. Indescribable, intense feelings. I get this crushing feeling of grief knowing it's all gone and I've forgotten almost everything now, all I know is that at one point, I was there. The meaningful, life-changing memories, the funny anecdotes, memories of friends, lovers, enemies, almost all gone. I've tried, but so much of it feels like it's out of my reach for a reason. Few "coherent memories", just the warm bodily memories of cigarette smoke, city streets, acrylic paint, cassette tapes, staying up all night. We were all lonely, disillusioned, and full of rage back then (I don't know who "we" is)...there's a lot I'm thankful to be away from, but there's so much I wish I could feel and see again, just one more time. Or maybe I'm just romanticizing the past. There's one person I'm sure I knew, but I don't know him that way anymore, and maybe it's meant to be that way.
Heart-Shaped Box is one of the weirdest ones for me. It just especially sounds like "death". Birth, but also death, birth as death, death as birth? A very final, dark, quiet feeling. Crossing the river. "The End". Not a fear of impending death, but a surreal feeling that I went there once, now I'm here. Very hard to describe.