Here's my thing: many people have a position on souls needing to live different lives from all perspectives. For example, a particular soul being human, an animal, male, female, Black, White, Asian, Hispanic, etc. and so that's where the whole "balance" thing came into play.
Just like many reincarnation believers have a position on the notion that souls "choose" the gender, the race, or bodies that we have for each incarnation that i'm still not sure i'm ready to believe quite yet but if that's the case then i guess i will be female in my next life and in many of my consecutive lifetimes.
Yeah, I know what you meant, and I was trying to make you think about it. We have to live things from different perspectives, I absolutely buy that. But I don't think it's an obligation. It's a fact (at least that's what has been observed in many Stevenson's cases and in the accounts of many anonymous people like those you find in this forum) that souls tend to stick to what is familiar to them, so, once you've been born white, you'll probably want to be white again. But maybe we don't always choose, what if it's just a random thing? I've been mostly white in most of my lives, but I also remember lives as Asian and black. Whatever the case, it's quite likely you will be born a female sooner or later, it's just a matter of statistics and biology, so why should you worry so much?
Now, to clarify the matter of balance: fortunately, the differences between genders are disappearing (of course, depending on the country, the progression is different). In the past, being a woman would make you more prone to become a victim of many types of abuse, you could easily die in childbirth, your role choices were quite reduced and if you wanted to do different things, you would have to fight a great deal. The challenges you'd have to face were different to a man's, but if we accept the hypothesis we choose our circumstances, well, maybe you chose to be a woman to do all that! But I still don't see why you should "balance" anything here becoming a man in your next life, it just depends on what you want to do next. I think we have a tendency to believe souls are in a linear spiritual progression, that is, what we live in a given life is closely tied to what we did or experienced in other lives, so if we were male, now we have to be female; if we did something wrong, now we have to "compensate" and try to do right (because of course, if we don't, we are condemning ourselves somehow); if we were poor, now we have to be rich. You get it. No, I don't buy this. I think every life is lived independently. There are carry-overs, of course, because obviously,
we are the result of our experiences and past life emotions linger, but what we have lived before, DON'T determine the events in our next life. It's our reactions to those events what matters. So, there's nothing to balance really. You just draw your conclusions from your previous lives and use what you have learned to live your next lives, that's all.
Keep in mind that I have a huge problem with having been born male and always will for the rest of this life. I will say what i said in another thread on this or some other site. The only thing being transgender has every gotten me was the desire to come back to Earth when i die... because i want to be a female, not a male. Not only that, i want to be female in many consecutive lifetimes. Being transgender makes me want to believe in reincarnation because i want to know that i will have a chance to experience what being an actual female is like, from the womb to the tomb. It's primarily the only reason why i care about reincarnation because taking my femaleness back is all that matters to me and all that ever will matter to me... and it is destroying me inside that there is no way of knowing for sure after this lifetime i'll come back and be born a female.
I'm still feeling like committing suicide if it means i'll be born female in my next life.
No one here can assure you that you will be born female next time, that's true, because none of us really know how things work on the other side. Probably you will choose. Could be that you have that strong desire to be a woman and experience life as a woman because you were robbed of fulfilling those desires in your past life. At least it sounds as something traumatic to me. But I think you only have to be patient. I think the world is also filled of women who are quite tired of menstruation and childbirth (I wonder why uterus donors don't exist yet, I would gladly give you mine), but we just were dealt these cards, want it or not. Have you ever considered the possibility you chose to be a transgender woman to live and learn from the experience, to understand the issues that arise when you are born with this condition, to fight society's prejudice about it, to help people with the same problem, once you've gotten over your own issues? I think that once you've accepted your cards, you'll start to see the positive things, and you'll be able to play smartly with them. And yes, I understand how dark your prospects are right now, I know it's not easy.
Or... who says you won't be born as a female, because you desire it so much, and then come back as a transgender? The possibilities are endless. But my advice, like I said before, is: just be patient. Every life is a gift, believe me, or at least an opportunity you must not reject, so don't throw it away.
