Excellent question, Polaris8, coming from someone who even quoted me saying all of the following...
Yeah, I would've easily sworn me having said all that would've made it obvious that I'm physically male seeking to become female, but I guess not!
I know spirits don't have a gender! I've been told that countless times and knowing that doesn't help me!
What does this mean?
Funny you should say that. I've posted threads here, and on Reddit, asking if we can have specific looks accompanying our next life bodies, because I do have a preference with how I'd like my next-life body to be like as I can give a list of things I dislike about this body, not just the masculine aspects of it. Annoyingly, I apparently have the type of body most people would want that I hate, but there are feminine aspects of the female body I crave to have that most women hate. But I'm being told such little details will never matter in the grand scheme of things with regards how our Higher Self's viewpoint when transitioning from life to life. So what? Do I have to fight with my Higher Self to have the body I want to have? If so so be it because it means a lot to me.
Frustratingly, it seems no one understands how much all this means to me and no person, be it online or in person can actually confirm for me whether or not I'll be a girl in my next life and give me all the answers I'm seeking. Plus, I've had the traumatic experiences of trolls exploiting my issue and using it against me to torment me and I can't have that happening again. I don't want to say never, but I'm confident enough to bet money it will be a very long time before I ever post on this forum again if I ever do at all.![]()
Divine One,
First off I want to apologized if I upset you on asking if you are female or not in this lifetime. And if I did I am sorry for doing so however that was not my intent. I don't merely assume your gender since this is after all an online discussion as I am not there physically to meet you. However I do appreciate you telling me this and being honest (that takes courage) since this helps me somewhat in trying to understand were you are coming from.
Being gay in this lifetime is a hard life/soul lessons in and of itself to learn. As I have mention before I was not so understanding or enlighten in my past lives. So in this life I chose from an soul point of view to become that which I hated and loathed the most so that I may learn the lessons of unconditional love on a soul level not only for myself but for all others as well as we are after all inwardly connected as soul. However your soul lessons are even harder than my own. I can't say I truly understand what you are going thru because I am happy with my gender of my physically body in this lifetime. However I can say I truly have empathy for you in what you are going thru. As I felt the anguish, pain and frustration in your email response to me. The only advise I can give you my dear is life is too short to be so unhappy. And you do deserve to have joy, happiness, success and love in your life. So it is best at first to surround yourself with others that will love and support you unconditionally for who you are. As this gives one great inner strength in not only in speaking your own inner truth but also to live and take ownership of it in your life. Because if you can't be truly who you are in life then you are doing a disservice not only to yourself but to others around you in your life that do love you.
I can't say if that is your soul lesson or not as it is not for me to say however it was apart of my life lessons as soul. I had to have the courage and inner strength to live my own inner truth regardless of what others may have thought of me. It was not easy and it took a long time to get there. But I did. And I am happier for it. And I have wonderful beautiful people in my life now from all walks of life that love and support me as I do them from a soul level. Because we connect from a higher state of awareness. And so can you. But it starts with simply loving yourself for you are in the here and now and go from there. Because in the end we are not our bodies. They may be extensions to a point of what we want to manifest on the physical plane. But they are temporary just the same anyway and are subject to aging, disease and death.
So be the female you always wanted to be in what every way you can and don't let those that try to hurt you get in your way. You have much to teach this world thru the example of your being here. More than you will ever know. Perhaps thru connections with others of like mind you can find a way to possibly manifest the female body you so desire and wish for. Matching your mind and body as one expression here on earth. Anything is possible is you live your own inner truth.
I wish you all the joy, and happiness that life has to offer you. But most of all my dear I wish you love.
Peace and love always....
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