AlexM935
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This is my first post. I hope it makes sense, since it's also the first time I write in English :/
From my past life regressions, I've gathered this:
I was a man. Between mid-20s to early-30s, I guess.
I lived in a cold place, where it snowed a lot and there was a beautiful forest there. My home was small and simple(?). Sometimes I wish to "go back home."
I was a Nazi, but not a soldier. I'm more attracted to paperwork and teaching stuff (?).
I stole something important and gave it to someone. This got me in trouble. In high school I wrote a letter to a friend in my own "code", when she lost it, I panicked and thought "They know! We must run now!"
I was chased by someone at some point. Even now I have sudden panic attacks, and feel the need to hide from "them."
I felt a lot of pain before dying. I believe I was tortured. Also died calling for someone named "Vladimir", but he never came. I cry when I think of him and a man named "Dimitri", who I think was a friend of mine. I don't know what kind of relationship I had with "Vladimir", maybe we were lovers (?).
Also:
WW2 soviet era songs make me cry, German songs make me feel "empty".
Every time I see or hear something related to WW2, I think of German civilians and feel bad for them.
Hearing about the awful things Nazis did, anger me and I think "I should have done something."
During one of history classes, we were learning about WW2, when the teacher and several classmates pointed at me and called me a "Nazi" (I was also told I was like Hitler!). Just because I'm an introvert and I'm obsessed with WW2 stuff (?).
I may have some German ancestry from my maternal side.
I'm ashamed of this, but Hitler inspired me and I thought he was a great leader. Then I started to hate him and feel bad for ever thinking like that about him.
Writing in my native language, is difficult for me and so is reading it.
When I was younger, I used to write in cyrillic alphabet or write in a "weird" order, always in capital letter.
I don't like it when in any movie, videogame, etc., Germans are "all evil and worship Hitler" or "They were the only ones that committed atrocities during the war."
About being a defector, that's a "feeling" I have sometimes. But when I do a regression I don't see anything else about this life. Just feel sadness and call for "Vladimir" and "Dimitri."
Does anyone else has experienced something similar?
From my past life regressions, I've gathered this:
I was a man. Between mid-20s to early-30s, I guess.
I lived in a cold place, where it snowed a lot and there was a beautiful forest there. My home was small and simple(?). Sometimes I wish to "go back home."
I was a Nazi, but not a soldier. I'm more attracted to paperwork and teaching stuff (?).
I stole something important and gave it to someone. This got me in trouble. In high school I wrote a letter to a friend in my own "code", when she lost it, I panicked and thought "They know! We must run now!"
I was chased by someone at some point. Even now I have sudden panic attacks, and feel the need to hide from "them."
I felt a lot of pain before dying. I believe I was tortured. Also died calling for someone named "Vladimir", but he never came. I cry when I think of him and a man named "Dimitri", who I think was a friend of mine. I don't know what kind of relationship I had with "Vladimir", maybe we were lovers (?).
Also:
WW2 soviet era songs make me cry, German songs make me feel "empty".
Every time I see or hear something related to WW2, I think of German civilians and feel bad for them.
Hearing about the awful things Nazis did, anger me and I think "I should have done something."
During one of history classes, we were learning about WW2, when the teacher and several classmates pointed at me and called me a "Nazi" (I was also told I was like Hitler!). Just because I'm an introvert and I'm obsessed with WW2 stuff (?).
I may have some German ancestry from my maternal side.
I'm ashamed of this, but Hitler inspired me and I thought he was a great leader. Then I started to hate him and feel bad for ever thinking like that about him.
Writing in my native language, is difficult for me and so is reading it.
When I was younger, I used to write in cyrillic alphabet or write in a "weird" order, always in capital letter.
I don't like it when in any movie, videogame, etc., Germans are "all evil and worship Hitler" or "They were the only ones that committed atrocities during the war."
About being a defector, that's a "feeling" I have sometimes. But when I do a regression I don't see anything else about this life. Just feel sadness and call for "Vladimir" and "Dimitri."
Does anyone else has experienced something similar?
I was a convinced Nazi German during WWII, but on the other hand, I have just as much emotional connections to Russians as to WWII Germany. I also like Cyrillic letters a lot, needed no time to memorize them and I could easily find everything when I had a trip to Russia. I've been to a few cities in the Baltic, and not only in Russia. They brought me huge, kind of nostalgic, or "instant love" feelings. But in my case I don't know too much about this suspected PL, I just have the feeling (based on triggers and such) that it could have been in Chekhov's time. But it's true that feelings are very important, with luck, they can eventually lead you to more memories and later, even to validations.
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