Ailish
Administrator Emerita
Okay *deep breath* I haven't shared this before except with two people close to me. I'm with you on the whole "odd and strange" feeling of not speaking about it, Angela. 
I'll just share a couple now:
I'll just share a couple now:
The following is from a much later time:I am small - about 7 years old. I have just gotten up and dressed and I am with a teacher – the students and I have followed her to the temple. It's early morning - and I am not quite awake yet, but there is work we need to do. We are leaving some sort of offering outside of a CLOSED door inside the temple. There is fruit – figs and pomegranates? And flowers. I am aware that I am not allowed in this room - have never seen behind the door. But I feel curious. I want to know what's in there.
Then I am in some sort of chamber – I think it’s a “classroom” and we are all sitting cross-legged on the floor on mats – in a circle. The teacher has placed various objects within the circle. There is a light sound - almost like cymbals being tapped repetitively. The sound stopped – but the vibration continued within. The heavy smell of incense filled the air. I feel very light - can feel my whole body "humming" and it's pleasurable. I feel safe - calm - completely at peace. Like I am floating inside of myself. Someone speaks (but not aloud - I can hear their voice - like a vibration - inside of me). I am compelled to turn to the objects in the circle. I know I am supposed to alter my conscious perception of the object in front of me - shift it from one state to another. I can hear someone telling me - that everything exists in all forms, always.
I saw myself stepping into a stone coffin. The entire room was dark – with the exception of one small light that someone was holding. I laid down – it felt cool against my skin. Then I could hear them pushing a slab over top of me. I could see the little source of light dimming – feel the air flow as it cut off. I feel my body vibrating – it’s so intense I feel so hot. And then I am standing in a small room – I know I am not in my physical body. I am looking around the room – but there are no doors – no way out. There IS light – a very bright shimmering white light that keeps getting more intense. It is – all around me. I feel it touching me - it's like an electrical charge.

