Hi Feling_Little_lost !
Well, I think there is someone out there for everyone ( cliche, I know, but I honestly do). You don't have to follow all those rules you just pointed out. Besides I believe boys, men can be shy too and hate that kind of introduction of themselves, always having to take the first move etc. We're all just humans, you know. Afraid to be rejected. I say cockiness can only take you so far in a relationship, the romantic type of relationships demands of both to dare to show vulnerability, be sensitive, be hurt. One sometimes just have to put the tough attitude on a shell. I think the connection matters more than anything, to be close, to be equals, to have respect for one another. I would say just be you and you will most likely find someone who loves you for you
I find this topic interesting, and sad too in a way... perhaps looking at it from my own perspective, that is.
I've always been told that I am soft, "feminine" in my ways, ( I am female ) that is until I get provoked, angry, arguing, fighting. Then I apparently change. Was always like this according to my family, from the get go. They were amused because people in general thought they could boss me around and were then in for a surprise. I am still this way as an adult. My husband of now many years said it was a surprise to him first time it happened and he says he always feels as if he is fighting "with a man" when we fight. On one hand I think society has failed to acknowledge the "female power" that I think each and everyone of females have, but in another I do understand that in this department I kinda stick out, without intent. Given any situation that makes a group of females to get teary eyed, I get mad, I get like one of the males from just looking at one of them. I can't change that. It's instinct. It's who I am.
Having past life memories where I in one way or the other find myself being some short little female in collision with a physically stronger built man is not always the nicest memories to have, you know. It is what it is.
This never made me "hate men", though. In some ways I get along better with men than females. In my past life I use to have great friends that were men and there was nothing romantically going on, but we always had to like clarify this to others. For me to fall in love was very rare, so I did not feel this as an option that would easily come my way.
I've seen a medium that used tarot cards recently. She began to talk about energies. Female and male energy. She claimed to have seen things from my past life/lives, and then she hit a wall, with me. This too because during meditation I have met this wall. It is a deep feeling of being confused, hurting and not feeling like I am enough as opposed to my past life's man's sexual orientation (God, long sentence, that one). In short, I think he was into men too. Today we got terms for that, bisexual or homosexual. There were vibes that others picked up from him (energy, again), that I clearly didn't, or maybe I did not wish to see it? I don't know.
Anyways, what the medium said to me is that this deep wound my spirit/soul has no need to be there; as I was "everything he wanted and more". That it wasn't that he lacked, missed something when being with me, that "with you he had it all". I don't know if I can trust that, though, at least past life me had an issue with it, that was so difficult for me that I could not find the words for it, I think. Both men in these 2 past lives were men that were very good to me, and even if jealousy was not a big thing in the relationship, I got that it was very important to them that past-life-me was faithful, and they did not want to risk me suspecting they were unfaithful either, that it wasn't something they would do to me, to us.
The way the medium explained it to me is that there are parts of me, my spirit, that comes off as not only female energy, although that is the base with me, but male energy too.
Anyways, I say live and let live
/Jaimie
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